Taint

Four Months Later

Love, a feeling that grows by itself. We cannot choose where the heart will reign.

Love, she comes with a million beauties. Painting colors in the soul, etching rainbows in the heart.

But not infrequently, love also transformed like a dagger. It slices the heart, and creates the imprinted wound.

If so, is love to blame? No, he's just a taste, depending on how we control him. Submissive and stupid because of it, or make it not a creature with the logic that we have. The choice is in each hand.

Quoted from the novel 'Noda' by Gresya Salsabila.

I looked at my phone screen with a smile. I have read it over and over again, a wise description of love. In the past, I was submissive and stupid for love, so I blamed it when the test came.

But now I can think of the other side. Not the wrong love, but myself. I was too weak, I could not control the desire in the name of love, until finally my common sense and logic were fragile because of it.

Right now, my life is better. I can accept the reality that is happening in my life. Four months has passed, since Mayra visited and almost misunderstood. During that time anyway, I completely lost contact with Daniel.

My gestational age has stepped on 8 months, periodically I can feel the movement. He was an encouragement that always entertained me.

A week ago, I stopped working. I was still strong, but Reza strictly forbade it, and I chose to obey.

Our relationship is getting closer, even though I have not accepted her love. Reza's attitude and attention reflected the man in charge, but my heart was still unhinged by him. Either because I know that Mayra loves her, or because of my own feelings that Daniel hasn't been able to forget. Ahh, it's too hard to understand what I'm feeling.

Ra, I'm not single anymore.

I received a message from Mayra, then I frowned in wonder, what does it mean?

The next second, Mayra again sent a message, this time a photo. Inside the restaurant whose interior is very luxurious and elegant, Mayra sat down with a man. He smiled as he buried a beautiful ring of jewels on his ring finger.

You got a girlfriend, May?

Yeah, handsome, right?

Who her?

The teacher at my internship.

Two months ago, Mayra and Reza had already started an apprenticeship. I'm happy about that, too. Although I failed to become a teacher, at least the people closest to me managed to step up to it.

While I was still talking to Mayra via chat, suddenly there was a call coming in from an unknown number. At first I hesitated, but I finally accepted because he called up to 3 times.

"Hallo," I said to someone across the street.

"Kirana, it's me. Please open the door, yes, I'm in front."

My heart was beating fast, as if it was jumping out of place. I remember whose voice it was, Rafael Daniel Vernandez, a jerk with no heart.

"Austenance!"

"Why did you come here!" I snapped without further ado.

"There are important things I want to talk about, please meet me, Kirana," he replied.

"Nothing is important, Daniel. Because I am not important in your life either!" satirize me with cynicism. Very nice of him, come and go without permission.

"Kirana, please."

I turned off the phone unilaterally, and then I threw my phone in bed. My protruding stomach was seen going up and down, following the rhythm of the hunting breath. Emotions are getting stuck, and that makes my eyes teary.

"Why did you come, when I was trying to forget. You're really mean, Daniel!" I growled with my clenched hands.

"No, I won't see you! It won't! Go there! Don't disturb my life! Just die, Daniel!" I swear on the screen of the phone that is still on.

In the next second, Daniel called back. The song Because Of You, by Kelly Clarkson, sounded loud in my ears.

"Telphone as you please, but I won't take it. You dickhead! I hate you, Daniel! I hate!" I screamed with anger.

Escape the tears that I was holding back, my cheeks were wet again, because of a man named Daniel.

Seriate...