Taint

Nature of Nindi

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. I repeat it over and over again, to calm the heart that is starting to stir.

Now it is answered all the mysteries that could haunt. Naturally, at that time Mayra knew about Daniel's delay, apparently she did know his secret. As for the word 'destroying' that Mayra uttered, it turned out that what he meant was friendship, not anything else.

"What is this, May, that's why Nindi never called me?" ask her.

"Sorry, Ra, about that I don't know. I haven't been friends with her for a long time" replied Mayra, which left me flabbergasted.

"What! Why, May? Does this have anything to do with me?" ask me quickly.

Mayra let out a long breath while tightening her grasp.

"Am I wrong, Ra, if I'm mad at him? He was close to Daniel, and when I asked him about it, he easily replied that the feeling had been there since you and Daniel were together. Is that the attitude of a friend?" Again Mayra's answer jolted me.

"Nindi," I murmured quietly. Although there are many things I want to say, but only a word that I can say.

"I told you once, the only person I trust is you. That's because I already know how Nindi is, I'm disappointed with her, Ra. You are in trouble, and he uses your situation for his own sake. I really don't like his nature, very selfish and heartless" Mayra said.

I rubbed the corner of my eyes that began to get wet, for some reason this self is very crybaby. Though not once or twice I feel the wound, but the tears still play a role. Never mind, there is nothing I can do, other than surrender and accept the predestination outlined.

If Daniel wasn't created for me, well, I'd try to forget him and erase my feelings for him, even if I knew it wasn't easy.

I will be good to God, believe if there is any wisdom behind it. Perhaps, through this loss, God sent a priestly figure who would lead me to smell heaven. Ahh, I hope.

"Thank you, May." I lowered a big smile, there was a glimmer of light that began to glow in my soul.

In my heart I was so grateful, God still let a friend as good as Mayra, hang by my side.

Shortly thereafter, Reza resigned. He went into the kitchen and made us a drink. I used this situation to talk to Mayra.

"May," call me. "On that matter, you don't misunderstand me, yeah. I don't love her, May," I said, explaining.

Mayra let go of her embrace, then she looked at me with a smile.

"I'm the one who should be apologizing. I realized, from the past ... Reza never responded to my attention. I shouldn't have forced this feeling, Ra. Sorry, yes" said Mayra.

"Why do you apologize, your feelings aren't wrong, May. Reza is weird. Ahh, he shouldn't have done this." I grumbled in annoyance, regretting Reza's attitude that must have let Mayra down.

"He's not weird. You are special, Ra, you deserve to be loved. Kirana, don't think about me. If your heart accepts Reza's presence, just accept her love. I'm sure, right now you need a figure like him. Trust me, I'm fine."

My heart trembled at Mayra's words. Although he spoke with a smile, but from the look of his net, I caught the heartache he was trying to hide. Mayra, she's a friend who's still there even though I'm down. He's too good for me to hurt. Besides, I don't love Reza. I don't want to make it runaway and focused, while my heart is still attached to another love.

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