Taint

My Heart for Who?

"Austenance!" greet a man, when the door is wide open.

"Reza."

I cringed in wonder why he came here. During my stay next to her boutique, this was her first time visiting the house.

"I wasn't told to come in, Ra?" He looked at me laughing.

"I'm sorry, I'm in." I answered while replying to her laughter.

We both walked into the house and sat in the living room chair, with the door I had left wide open.

"What coffee is tea?" ask her.

"No need. Actually ... I came here because there was a need," replied Reza, rejecting my offer.

"What need?" I asked while looking at him.

"I wasn't fired, was I?" my mind anxiously.

"Take you for a walk, will you?" Reza returned my gaze.

I lowered my head, scratching the arm that was not actually itchy. I felt uncomfortable when I looked at him.

"You don't want to, Ra?" Reza asked again.

"Where to go?" I asked back, without looking at him.

"Amusement Park, not far from here. Want huh?"

"Mmm well .. but I change clothes first, yes," I replied accepting his invitation.

"Yes, I'll wait." Reza said with a smile.

Then I moved and walked to my room. But just a few steps back, Reza spoke to me.

"Wear long clothes, it's cold outside!"

I looked over and glanced at him, "yes."

I opened the room door while grumbling in annoyance. Actually I was very reluctant to go with Reza, besides being tired, I was also uncomfortable with her. However, I would be bad to refuse. He has accepted me to work in his shop, he also wants to understand my condition. So how could I possibly disappoint him.

I wrapped my body in an ivory yellow long dress, then I packed it with a matching color blazer, to cover my open arms. I let the hair run down just like that, just adding a little bit of accessories on the front. I grabbed a sling bag, then I went out and met Reza.

"Beautiful" praised Reza, whom I responded with a smile.

Then we both stepped out. Reza opened the car door for me, and also fitted a seat belt. I don't know what that means, which obviously makes me even more uncomfortable.

About half an hour away, Reza and I arrived at the Amusement Park. I smiled when I saw the bright lights that glowed beautifully in front of me. My once bad mood slowly improved on its own.

"Come on!" take Reza, who suddenly opened the door for me.

"I can do it myself, Za." I said as I stepped down.

"It's okay." Reza clasped my finger, and took me a step.

Slowly, I pulled my hand. It is not comfortable to walk in unison. However, Reza got it back. Now he grips it tighter.

"Buy, Ra. Later if we are separated, I have trouble finding you, because I also do not bring a cell phone," said Reza.

"Yes." Yeah." I nodded, and left my finger in his grasp.

What Reza said was indeed true, the atmosphere here was very crowded. Either because it's Sunday night, or it's every day like this. Reza kept talking to me, he talked at length about everything. Starting from daily habits, to the greatest expectations.

"Just this time I saw you talking a lot, Za," I said in my heart.

"How come you've been fucked up, Ra?" reza protest. Only Reza spoke, while I was, more often, a listener.

"Actually .. I want to ask you something," I said without hesitation.

Unceasingly Reza commented with a smile, I thought her mood was good. So it's not wrong, if now I'm back to talking about Mayra.

"Ask what?"

"Jawab be honest, yes," I told him.

"Yes. I was wondering what, curious," replied Reza.

"How do you feel about Mayra? She's beautiful, it's pinter, good again. She's a complete package, Za, definitely not happy to be her partner," I said praising Mayra.

I waited long enough for his answer, but he did not open his voice. I saw his facial expression flat, and I felt his grip tighten. What's wrong with her?

"Za!" call me carefully.

"Love is not seen from beautiful, pinter, or good, but the feeling grows from the bottom of the heart. I know Mayra's almost perfect, but I don't love her. That's why I never responded to him, I didn't want to hurt him with false hopes" Reza said.

"Oh, so yeah." I let out a long sigh, slightly disappointed by Reza's reply.

"Sorry, May. I tried, but Reza kept her heart closed. I can't force him, I hope you can understand" I said in my heart.

"Who are you curious, whose heart is it for?"

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