Taint

Athreya's Dilemma

At the same time, at Kirana's residence. In a room on the second floor, a girl was sitting on the edge of the bed staring at a mobile phone screen. He is Athreya. His eyes stared fixedly at the line of letters sent by Kennan.

[Is it to your liking? Or is there less? Just tell me, I'll do anything to make you comfortable. I love you so much, Athreya.]

Athreya bit his lip, not knowing how to reply to Kennan's message. On the one hand, he is happy because there are still people who are willing to love without making a mistake. However, on the other hand he felt sad, why who loved him a man as perfect as Kennan— who let alone having free relationships, close to women never.

Athreya feels cruel if he accepts Kennan's love. He was already stained, whereas Kennan was so noble, so unfair. Kennan deserves a woman who is equally noble, who is much better than him.

However, Athreya could not say 'no', especially if given the attitude of Kennan time in Jakarta.

At that time, Athreya was just one day pregnant. Because Kaivan was in Bandung and Reyvan was returning to Malang, Kennan offered help when Athreya was bored and wanted to leave the room. Quickly, Kennan pushed Athreya's wheelchair and took her for a walk in the hospital's garden.

"Sir Kennan doesn't work?" ask Athreya to start the conversation. He asked that because Kennan had not left the hospital since yesterday.

"No. Been overtime a few days, so now take a break."

"Oh."

After that, silence for a while. Neither Kennan nor Athreya opened the ballot. Athreya remained in a wheelchair, while Kennan sat on the bench, in front of Athreya. Sometimes the two look at each other and throw smiles at each other.

"I failed, unable to follow in the footsteps of Kak Kaivan and Kak Reyvan. They managed to graduate and got the title, but I___" Athreya lowered her head, lamenting the mistake that ruined everything. He was so late in regret.

"Stopping college doesn't mean failing, Athreya. There are still many ways to achieve success. In the past, Kaivan also failed High School time. But the proof, he managed to become a photographer" said Kennan.

"Different, Brother. Brother Kaivan just didn't pass, by repeating it all worked out. But I, Brother Kennan also know exactly my problem. Everyone will look one eye. No matter how I improve myself, I will not be able to change things. In addition to my career, I have failed at other things. I've lost my future, brother." Athreya began to tear up.

"Your mind is too far away, Athreya."

"That's reality. Although a career can be boosted Papa, but what about the others? A woman is not quite beautiful and smart, but also a virgin"." Athreya said. His tone was very slow when he said the word virgin.

"There is no such theory, Athreya. Proof, now your sister's also after the widow. Uh, no, still somebody's wife." Kennan smiled broadly. Perhaps, his intention was to console Athreya.

"Sokay know, deh. Kaivan's sister's love is still the same Luna's sister." Athreya smiled slightly.

Before Kennan spoke, Athreya spoke again. This time, his smile had gone nowhere.

In fact, it is a little less ethical to tell Kennan a long story. He is a man, and that is a matter of privacy. However, Athreya also needs a place to share, in order to lighten the stifling burden. Athreya could not tell Kirana because her mother was a very, very heartless woman. Athreya did not want to add to the burden for him. As a result, it was Kennan who heard the grievances. After all he also knew the problem, that was how Athreya thought.

"What has happened cannot be changed anymore, but that does not mean it cannot be repaired. Athreya, you must not be pessimistic! Maybe some men are having a problem with that. But believe me, only a small part! On the contrary, there are still many men who do not care about it. So, stay up. In time, there will be a man who loves you sincerely, who will marry and glorify your life without bringing up the past." Kennan spoke at length to appease Athreya.

Athreya laughed wryly, "It sounds like a fairy tale, Brother."

"Athreya__"

"Where can I be optimistic and believe in the theory of Kak Kennan, after experiencing all this. Let alone anyone else, who does so is not willing to marry. It would be ridiculous if I expected more. All will be in vain, Brother," said Athreya as he wiped the tears that began to drip.

Kennan let out a long breath, "Well, I'm not sure exactly what the nature of the man out there is. I talk like that because I think of myself. Athreya, if no one can accept you, let me be the only one."

Athreya looked up for a moment. For a few seconds, his eyes clashed with Kennan's.

"I mean Mr Kennan?"

"When you're in a coma, I promise I'll speak honestly if you wake up. But, yesterday I did not dare to be frank, my guts shrieked when faced with you. Now, you yourself have the gap. So, I won't hesitate to say everything. Athreya, I love you. This taste has been around for a long time. You're the only girl I've ever loved" Kennan said.

"Sir Kennan__"

"Whatever you are in now, to me you are still special. No matter what others think of you, I think you are the most perfect. Athreya, I love you so much. If I may be presumptuous, I want to marry you and live with you." Kennan cut Athreya's speech.

"Ah, why is he following my wish?" athreya's mind when the daydream has fallen.

"Did he really want me?" Athreya is back. Then, shook his head when he remembered his words a few days ago 'I like men who look like teenagers'.

There is a bit of regret in Athreya's mind when considering Kennan's appearance that changed drastically— teenage-style appearance that resembles Gara. In fact, Athreya did not intend to change the figure of Kennan to Gara. Only, he did like to look at the man who looked like Gara.

"I'm confused. What do I do after this?"

Seriate...