Taint

End of Life

It's been a month since Dara was buried. Although my health has fully recovered, but the mind is still often not careless. Losing Dara made me feel great pain and longing.

In this one month, I have understood many things related to Dara's death. From Kak Darren's story, that time was very worried when my phone could not be contacted. He then asked the police about Mayra's release. According to them, Mayra was deliberately released when her parents came and gave bail, to be used as bait in uncovering Amanda's involvement in the drug trade. The police have kissed her for a long time, only there is no evidence to arrest Amanda.

When I heard Kak Darren's report about my departure, the police rushed to investigate, and found me at the Mala— residence a drug distributor who had been a fugitive for two months.

Then, they were arrested with several cases that ensnared. Murder, persecution, and involvement in illegal drugs. Amanda is the highest boss, while Mayra, Markus, Mala, is the man who works for her. Now, they're all threatened with life-long confinement.

Besides the facts about Amanda, I also know the facts about Mayra. According to Reza, Mayra was pregnant at the time, the result of a one night stand at the night club. He said, it happened because Mayra was so frustrated—Reza never returned his love.

Seeing the state of Mayra's concern—hamil and arrested by the police, Reza intends to marry him when free later. He's ready to be Mayra's baby father. However, unexpectedly Mayra suddenly planned a murder against me.

From there, Reza had no sympathy for Mayra. He is very angry, then undo his intentions, even the drugs that have been offered to him, allegedly is Mayra's cunning way to trap. Thanks to that fact, I no longer blame Darren. Dara's death is a fate that must be revealed, although not infrequently still leaves pain.

"Oh God."

I can't comment much on all that, far from being shadowy. You can only say the name of God every time you remember it.

This morning, I sat alone on the swing. Ms. Fatimah went to the store because she had not been visited for a few days, while Kak Darren went to the office. Two weeks ago, he returned to work. But not until the afternoon. He came home at lunch.

Between the gusts of wind, I stared at the glass of warm tea that Aunt had just made. No desire to swallow. I don't know, if I remember Dara, I'm not excited to do anything.

"Become," I said slowly.

At the moment I was thinking about Dara, suddenly my phone rang. I thought Darren, but it was Daniel. I hesitated to accept it, remembering what was whispered that day. However, he never called twice, and I finally answered.

"Hallo." Smoke the green button on the fifth call.

"City, Kirana. How are you?" ask Daniel from across the street.

"I'm good."

"Not busy, are you?" Daniel asked again.

"Mmm, no. Why?" I asked back.

"There's a little I want to talk to you about" Daniel replied.

"What?" ask me about feelings that are starting to get uncomfortable.

"About .. we."

Hearing Daniel's words, I immediately let out a long sigh. Why did he bring it back, even though my mood was not good.

"Kirana, I still love you. I am ready to marry you and take good care of you. I promise I will always make you happy" Daniel continued.

"Don't fuck around, Daniel!" I answered with high intonation. "What are you thinking? I'm married, and again, our beliefs are different. Why are you talking about love and marriage?"

"Your husband is not the man in charge, Kirana. He's the one who made Dara die if you forget. You won't be happy if you stay with him!" daniel said with high intonation.

"I'm happy, you don't just talk! And just so you know, Daniel, it's not Darren's fault!"

"Amanda is Darren's past. Are you avoiding that it wasn't your husband's fault, Kirana? What___"

"In addition to Amanda's involvement, there was also Mayra's involvement. He hates me because he likes Reza. I was once close to Reza because you took me there. Now ... can I blame you?" I quickly finished.

"The reasons that were hidden yesterday are now revealed. You should have come to your senses and stopped blaming Darren, "because Daniel was still silent.

"But Kirana___"

"If you still want to blame, we are the ones most to blame. We have Dara when there is no bond. Isn't that a fatal mistake?" I cut his words again.

"So you still stick to your decision, keep the marriage with Darren?" ask Daniel a few moments later.

"of course. He's my husband, someone I have one faith in" I replied firmly.

"Don't make too much distinction, Kirana. Basically our goals are the same, just different ways."

"For ordinary association I do not distinguish, Daniel. But if the wedding .. sorry, I do distinguish. In my religion, a legitimate marriage is a marriage that is done with a fellow Muslim. I believe in your religion there are also similar teachings" I replied at length.

"I won't touch you, so we don't fornicate. We can adopt a baby to complete the relationship. Say yes, Kirana, then I'll take you abroad and we get married there. I promise I'll make you happy." Daniel's words sounded serious.

"Don't be reckless, Daniel! I'm already married! After all, your promise is clearly a lie. Without the bond alone khilaf, let alone__"

"We have not been obedient to religion before" concluded Daniel.

"What fantasy is it now? You need to know, Daniel, a man who obeys his religion will not approach the forbidden." I moved and took a deep breath.

"I love you so much, Kirana. I can't love a woman other than you" Daniel said softly.

"Stop thinking about me and let Dara go. That way, your feelings will wear off on their own. Then you can love another woman. I'm married, Daniel, please let go. Find those who are confident, then marry and achieve your future with him." I try to give her understanding.

"You ... Do you really survive? Don't you want to come back with me?" Daniel's voice sounded trembling.

I don't know what happened to her, why she suddenly insisted on getting me married.

"Sorry, Daniel."

"Alright, may you be happy, Kirana. I ... will choose another path, because I have done various ways, and my feelings for you still do not fade" Daniel said.

"What do you mean?"

"I've decided what my life will be like if you don't want to go back. Kirana, sorry, maybe after this .. I can't call you anymore. Be well there, promise to always smile" replied Daniel who then made me frown.

"Daniel___"

My words hang just like that because the phone connection was cut off suddenly. With my heart still raging, I stared at the screen of the phone I was still holding.

"Living late, unable to contact. Daniel didn't kill himself, did he?" my mind is in solitude.

Seriate...