Taint

Kirana Prayer

Kumenatap flat towards the pond water rippling slowly. Right in the center, the sunlight reflected golden. Many times I took a long breath, the sound of the gusts melting with the whirring of the wind. The longer, the more my eyes glazed over.

The hour hand had shown at 12:00 p.m., but Daniel had not yet given any news. What's wrong with her? One question I kept asking, but not one bit I could find an answer.

"Will he run?" I muttered to myself.

I could not feel my tears dripping, lamenting the self that was blown away in my nestapa. Although our only hope was separation, Daniel could not be responsible for his son. I'm not a rich man, and now I've left my family. Without Daniel's help, what can I give my son?

"Kirana, sorry I'm late."

I heard Daniel's voice go hand in hand with the approaching pace. I slowly shed tears, and I turned to her.

"Kirana, sorry yes, i___"

"It's not an apology I want to hear, Daniel! But explanation! Where are you going? I called dozens of times, but you didn't even answer. Why?" I snarled with a hunting breath. This anger was so intense that I could not wait for Daniel to finish his sentence.

"I'm .. I have a little business, Kirana," replied Daniel.

I looked away, hearing her nervous words, this suspicion grew.

"What business?" my many.

"Family business."

"Then why didn't you pick up my phone? Can't talk for half a minute, or if you don't, send a short message. Is that too hard, Daniel? Or do you intend to run away from me?" Again I ran him over with a lot of questions.

"Kirana, relax! I never intended to leave you. There was Om and Auntie, and I didn't have a chance to hold a cell phone. I'm sorry, Kirana. Sorry for making you wait so long." Daniel wiped the rest of my tears, then clasped my fingers.

"Then, why did Mayra know that you were going to be late? He said you were coming at noon, and it turned out that his words were evident. Explain why it's like that, Daniel!" I said firmly.

"I .. I don't know either, maybe .. maybe it's just a coincidence." Daniel was nervous again, he looked wrong when I mentioned Mayra's name.

I'm sure Daniel's answer is wrong. There was no way Mayra could just guess, I saw she was also nervous as I asked further.

"Kirana, I'm talking what it is. There's nothing between me and Mayra. I don't intend to run away from you, even though I don't know what our relationship will be like." Daniel said as he tucked my hair behind my ear.

Daniel's last sentence made me aware of our relationship, which seemed like there was no other way but separation. I bite my lips while stringing the right words to talk.

"I know, our end must be farewell. I'm not forcing you to marry me, because I know our beliefs are different. But Daniel, you know I'm like this. If you don't want to help me, how can I support your son. You may have the heart of me, but do you also have the heart for your flesh and blood?" I said with a stifled tone. Daniel's kulirik who's still crouching next to me.

"Maybe someday, each of us will marry. Either you were, or I was. But Daniel, may I ask for one thing?" I asked while looking at him. Diving chocolate beads that are getting longer and more keep the mess.

"What?" whispered.

"Marry someone I don't know, so that I can also consider you a stranger in my life. Do not marry women close to me, especially those whose beliefs are the same as mine," I said.

My chest is getting crowded, when I imagine the figure of Mayra. He's a friend, could he be a traitor? Ahh I don't know, many are indeed very loyal friends, both in joy and sorrow. But also not infrequently who like to stab, stab from behind without mercy. I don't know, Mayra's on which side.

"Why are you saying that, Kirana?" ask Daniel.

"Promise, Daniel!"

"Don't think anything. Enough with you I have a different relationship of faith. Don't talk about marriage yet, I haven't thought about it. Right now, you're the only girl I love. No matter what our relationship looks like, I will stay by your side, protect you, and take care of you. I will be responsible for your living expenses as well as my son."

I felt Daniel's warm hand touch my shoulder, then grab my body and carry it into my arms. He rubbed my back and calmed me down with whispers of his rage.

"O Allah, no matter how hard the servant says no, this heart still expects its presence. This love is still blossoming, and You who know what I feel. O God, give way to this relationship. Move your heart to know you. Make us, two people who are in line, so that there are no more obstacles for us together," my prayer in my heart.

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