Taint

Quarrelling

"Do you mean .. do you follow my faith?" many doubt.

"No." Daniel shakes.

"Want to?" my question is getting curious.

If he doesn't follow my beliefs, then how can we get married. Daniel was a rich man's son, quite capable if we were to marry abroad. But in my religion, it is not legal to marry someone who is not as convinced.

"Daniel, what's your plan?" ask with higher intonation.

Daniel's lips were still tightly clenched, I don't know what he was thinking, I couldn't guess at all.

"Niel, answer!" I shouted after he was silent for quite a while.

"The fetus is still small, how about we just throw it away."

I was shocked when I heard Daniel's words. I don't know what got into it, why is it so hearty to express the crazy proposal.

"I hope you agree, Ra. It's the only way we can take it."

I pressed Daniel's hand violently, and I slapped him on the cheek. I got up from my seat, and looked at Daniel with a sharp shot.

"You're crazy, Daniel! You're crazy!" I grumbled with a hunting breath. My emotions were blowing with tears that suddenly spilled.

"He is your flesh and blood, and you will kill him! Where's your conscience, Niel!" snapped me on the sidelines of a sob.

"Ra, relax! Actually I don't have the heart either, but we have no other choice. It's for our future!" Daniel held both my shoulders tightly.

My lips did not answer, and again only my hands spoke. For the second time I've slapped Daniel in the face. This time it was harder, until my fingers were red on his cheeks.

"Austenance!" Daniel said my name while staring.

A pair of chocolate beads that usually imply love, now filled with a storm that is difficult for me to touch. Maybe he's offended by my attitude, but let it be, so that he'll realize that his proposal wasn't true.

"We may think of the future, but not necessarily sacrifice innocent lives, moreover those lives belong to the blood of our flesh. Too many sins have we committed, will we dive deeper?" I stared at the eyeballs that reflected my shadow.

"Then what, Ra? We defend each other's beliefs, so how do we give them status? Maybe we can get married abroad, but it also raises a lot of cons. Our marriage is illegitimate, and certainly not the least bit blasphemous. I chose abortion, it's for your future, Ra," Daniel said.

I was still silent, I let him finish his opinion.

"If that kid you let hold on, your future is at stake, Ra. Soon you are an intern, your ideals are almost achieved, do not let this fetus be an obstacle to achieving dreams.

If people find out you're pregnant out of wedlock, your reputation will be ruined, Ra. You will be looked at one eye, and so will our children later. Rather than bearing the burden, it might have been better if he had not been born. He's a kid and he hasn't been breathing" Daniel said.

I closed my eyes, holding back the growing anger. The man who used to be gentle and loving, now turned into a man who had no heart. Everything is done, if this baby is forced to break into a blood clot. But I have a conscience, I can't bear to do it, and besides, I don't want to commit even greater sins. I believe karma exists.

"Austenance!"

I opened my eyes after Daniel called me.

"I can't! Abortion is not as simple as you think, many impacts can be caused. It is not uncommon for a person's uterus to have problems after having an abortion. If I'm sick or barren, do you think that's good for my future, huh!" pekiku.

"Kirana, relax! Keep your voice down, lest anyone hear our conversation." Daniel cupped both of my cheeks. The touch remained warm as before, a touch that always made me fall asleep, until finally drove me to a point of contempt.

"I know this isn't good for you, but the other option is much worse, Ra. I can't bear to see you hurt, I love you so much, Kirana," Daniel continued.

"Don't talk about love, Daniel! The one who hurt me was you, the one who made me like this, that was you too! You have taken my honor, you are content to enjoy my body, and you have no responsibility for it. You're selfish, Daniel, you're so selfish!" I screamed while tugging at his shirt, until one button came off and fell on the ground.

I vented my emotions on Daniel, I didn't care even if he was going to be angry. Although there is no separation between us, this relationship cannot have an end. Whenever Daniel and I were on different lines, there was no meeting point that brought us together.

"I'm sorry, Kirana. All this time I was wrong, I demanded a lot from you. But ... I also never forced you, Ra, i__"

"Yes, it's all because I want to! I am stupid, I am cheap and lazy. I cannot keep my pride and honor. Pull back your apology, if you think I'm wrong. Now let me choose my own path, I .. won't kill him. I'm still sane Daniel, I'm not crazy like you!" I beat him with emotion.

I shed tears with both hands, and I turned and left Daniel. I continued walking, without caring for her yells that called out to me repeatedly.

Seriate....