Taint

Like Kirana Mentari

I opened my eyes slowly. I glanced over here and there, figuring out where I was at the moment. A few seconds later, my gaze was fixed on the drip slang stuck in my left hand. I took a deep breath, apparently I was being treated at the hospital.

"Kirana, thank God you're conscious" said someone who had just entered the room.

I turned my head and found Reza walking with a tray. He put it on the table and walked towards me.

"What do you feel now?" reza asked, when he was sitting next to me.

"Nothing, I'm just tired. Thank you, Za, for helping me." I look at his face with sadness. If there wasn't him, somehow it was my fate.

"Don't be too shy, I'm glad to be able to help you, Ra," Reza said with a big smile.

"Is he okay?" I asked with anxious expectation. Given the blood that was spilling, I was afraid that anything would happen to her.

"Not too good, Ra, but luckily he's still alive. Right now, his condition is very weak. The doctor said, you should not think too hard, nor should you do much work. You need to rest" said Reza, who made me breathe a sigh of relief.

"If that feeling only makes you hurt, throw it away and forget about him. There are still many other men who love you sincerely, and are ready to make you happy." Reza rubbed my belly covered in a blue blanket. "I hope you can take care of her, Ra, because I love her too."

I gasped a little at Reza's words, what does that mean?

I looked at his face that was looking down. From his expression, I was sure he was thinking about something, yet what it was I didn't know either. He was silent without pulling his fingers, I don't know what made Reza feel at home touching him.

"Za, I'm thirsty" I said, distracting him. Honestly, this position makes me awkward and uncomfortable.

"Wait a minute." Reza got up and took a glass of milk on the tray.

"Thank you" I said, when the glass was already grasped.

"I'd rather see your smile than hear your gratitude."

I stopped my movements, and failed to gulp the milk that almost touched my lips. The more he gets here, Reza's words and attitude get stranger. What's really wrong with him?

I still did not lift my face, but I pulled the tip of my lips to form a smile. After Reza praised my smile, which she said was very sweet, I gulped down my drink to the toilet.

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The sun had just risen in the eastern horizon. The rays are graceful and charming, hitting every flower and foliage that grows in the hospital garden.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. The fragrant flower bushes, combined with a wet aroma, are very soothing. Enjoying this beautiful morning, my heart was calm and able to forget for a moment all the stifling burdens.

"Look, Ra! Very beautiful!"

I opened my eyes after hearing Reza. He pointed eastward, to the place where the sun surrounded by mega-mega orange.

"Yes, very pretty," I murmured, slowly.

"Kirana Sunari is beautiful. Both in the sky, and on the earth" whispered Reza near my ear.

I swallowed the saliva, again not understanding the meaning of his words. He who was originally standing at the back and pushing my wheelchair, was now crouching beside me.

"Be like the sun in the sky. Although there are clouds that cover it, although there is a night that is forced to make it disappear, but he still shines. He remained strong and mighty, though the world would often test him. Kirana, be like him. Keep shining, even if the world tests you hard. Don't be shackled by something that makes you hurt. Understand, there's someone who's really looking forward to your smile, so stop crying" Reza said. Then he slipped my hair behind my ear.

I looked up and looked at him closely. Someone who looks forward to my smile, who does he mean? My unborn child, or himself?

Ahh, but where is possible. Reza was too perfect to expect me to be despicable.

This is a true story, not a fairy tale or romance in a novel. I'm pregnant out of wedlock. He who keeps me turned away, let alone anyone else. There's no way Reza could have kept a taste for me, she must have just taken pity.

"My life deserves to be pitied" my inner self with a bitter smile.

Seriate....