Taint

Daniel's Confession

The heavy roar of breath, became the only sound I heard right now. A few minutes ago, I was still cursing and cursing in the room. But now, I've been sitting on the living room couch, with Daniel. Although my lips strongly rejected his presence, but this heart was moved to meet.

We sat for almost five minutes facing each other, but there was not a word that we said. Whether I was being too naive, or that was the truth, I saw Daniel looking at me with a sad look.

"What do you think, Kirana, she already has your substitute, who might want to look at you with a wit. Heh, your dream is too high," sneered one side in my heart.

"Don't be rash, Kirana. You've been in love with her for a long time. It's not easy to erase yourself and all your memories. Be wise in your attitude, maybe he has difficulties that you do not know," refute the good side in the heart.

I took a deep breath, then I shook off all the inner voices that brought me into a dilemma.

"Well, I'll listen to what he's talking about. Let this be the last meeting between me and him. I accept all the hurt and pain he has given me, this failure will teach me a lesson in the future" I said in my heart.

"Daniel!"

"Austenance!"

I threw my face away, why did he call me when I was calling him, what an annoying coincidence.

"Speak first" said Daniel.

"I don't want to talk. I just want to listen to the important things you're going to say. Hurry up, I don't have much time!" I said cynically.

"I'm sorry I didn't call you and didn't see you. Mama and Papa don't approve of our relationship, that's why I'm staying away from you. I did that .. for your own good. I'm sorry that I can only take responsibility from afar, Kirana."

I was shocked to hear Daniel's explanation. My emotions began to grow when I heard his last words. What kind of responsibility, responsibility is he talking about? Men have no heart!

"Don't make up stories, Daniel! Don't look for excuses to clear your name! I already know everything, I know about your relationship with Nindi. So ... There's no need to vilify your parents to cover up your depravity!" I snapped with a sharp shot.

"Kirana, it's not what you think it is. Nindi is just a girl chosen by Mama and Papa. I don't love her, I don't accept this match."

"Lied!" I shouted quickly. "I've seen you walk with Nindi, you smile and laugh happily with her" she said.

"We're just friends, Kirana. We are not__"

"Nindi loves you, I know that." I moved and I looked at Daniel's face, which was still holding a sad look.

"But I don't love her, Kirana, whom I love is still you" Daniel said. He stood up and stood in front of me.

"I'm not lying, Kirana. I'm talking what it is. I love you, I can't marry any other woman, including Nindi. Tomorrow I will fly to Medan, following Uncle who lives there. I'll be working long, Kirana. This is the consequence that I have to accept, for refusing the matchmaking that Mama gave me" said Daniel, who then made me speechless.

"That's my reason, why put you here, Kirana. I had a hard time with my parents, and I'd be calm if anyone took care of you. This difference forces us to part ways, and I have to accept that fact. The only way to get rid of my feelings is .. to see you happy with another love."

This time, it was not only the sad look I saw, but also the tear. In my heart I wondered, why did Daniel cry? If he really loves me, why hasn't he cared at all? Why did he leave all his responsibilities to Reza?

"I'm sorry that I can't accompany you at birth later, I'm sorry that I can't help you take care of our children later. But I promise you, Kirana, I will remain in charge. Even though I'm far away, but I will still do my duty as before. When I get home, I hope you're happy, Kirana." Daniel walked over to me and was about to hug me.

I backed off and avoided her touch. He was constantly talking about responsibility, but all this time only a two-month contract he gave. Does he think that's enough? I work hard for my daily needs and for the cost of my life, sometimes even Reza who helps me, not Daniel.

"Austenance!" Daniel looked at me fixedly.

"Save your false tears, and leave immediately. I don't care if you're going to the field, abroad, or into space. Don't talk about responsibility! What you give is not enough, it cannot be called responsibility! Now go! I'm sick of seeing you, Daniel!" I shouted with emotion.

"Kirana, i___"

"Go!" peekkikku with a sharp shot.

"Kirana__"

"Go!" I again rudely snapped him.

"I'm going to go. Take care of yourself, Kirana, may you be happy. I love you, I'm happy if you're happy" Daniel said.

"Fuck with love! Go quickly!" I still swear in a high tone.

"Well, Niki, the name I've been thinking about all this time. I'm not forcing you to accept it, but I'd be happy if you would pin it. I hope someday, I can meet you guys .. with better circumstances. I'm sorry, Kirana."

Daniel stepped away, leaving me still riveted. His attitude, his speech, seemed to imply real sincerity. However, given his attitude all along, was it a reflection of sincere feelings?

"No." I'm shaking. "Daniel is not that good. He's a cruel man, he's a man with no heart" I said on the sidelines of tears that began to break.

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