Taint

Go Away

This is the rest of the money that Daniel sent me, some of which I used to help Kirana, on my behalf.

Good, you are reliable. It is not in vain that I pay you dearly.

I gasped in shock at Reza's conversation with a woman, who I believed was Daniel's mother.

Unknowingly, the cake I brought was out of my grasp. The cake fell to the floor and made a loud sound.

My eyes glazed over, lamenting the harsh reality I had never imagined. Reza, the man I thought was kind and sincere, turned out to be just a man. He did it just for the money.

My memory goes back to the time when Daniel came to see me. He talked about responsibility many times, and it turned out to be true. It's just that Daniel doesn't know, if the person he trusts is a traitor.

"Kira! You ... Why are you here?"

Too late in daydreaming, I did not realize if the door of the room was wide open. Reza stood in front of me, and his mother, Daniel, was still standing in the room. He didn't say a word, but from the look in his eyes, I caught a considerable hatred.

"Kirana, this .. this is not what you think. I can explain, please .. please don't misunderstand!" Reza tried to grab both of my shoulders, but I brushed him off quickly.

"There's nothing to explain, Za, everything's clear. Thank you for your presence, I will never forget it" I said firmly.

"Ra, i___"

"Shut up! You're really mean, Za!" I snapped with tears.

"Don't blame Reza, Kirana! Learn to introspect. Who wants to love a woman who is pregnant outside of marriage. Maintaining self-esteem alone cannot, let alone maintaining household dignity. Sorry if my attitude makes you angry. I had to do this, so Daniel would stop loving you!"

Without giving an answer, I immediately ran away from them. This chest is increasingly crowded to hear the sentence thrown by his mother Daniel. That's how I am?

"Kira! Wait, Kirana! Kirana!"

I don't care, even though Reza keeps yelling at me. I hurried up and rushed into the house. I shut the door tight, I locked it so Reza couldn't see me.

"Kirana, open the door, Kirana! Listen to my explanation, it's not what you think it is!"

I covered my ears with my palms, but Reza's voice and the sound of knocking on the door were still faint. I sat on the floor shedding tears, I had misjudged the situation. He who is good in plain sight, turns out to be a cruel stabbing. While he who I consider evil, it still survives with the same feelings.

"Daniel still loves me" I said in my heart.

I looked down, hiding my face between my knees. Is this the reason why my heart cannot forget him. For indeed, our hearts are still adrift with a feeling called love.

"Kirana, open the door, Kirana!" Reza kept shouting.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. At first I did this only because of money, but now no, Kirana. Now that I really love you, please open the door! Please listen to my explanation!" Reza still didn't give up.

"Open up or I'll break down, Kirana!" yelled Reza who then made me jerk.

I let out a long sigh, before answering Daniel's shout.

"Austenance!"

"Right now I still need some time alone, Za. If you want to explain, meet me tonight. I'll shut up and listen to all your confessions" I said trembling.

"Za, please understand. I won't be able to understand your explanation, if my mind isn't calm. Please let me calm down, just for a second," I said trying to convince Reza.

"All right, but not tonight. I'll see you later in the afternoon" replied Reza.

"All right, we'll meet later in the afternoon. Now go, I want to be alone" I said slowly, but I'm sure Reza heard.

Without waiting for the answer, I immediately sauntered into the room. I stepped towards the window and peeked at Reza who was still standing in front of the door. He rubbed his face, then turned around and walked away.

I let out a sigh of relief, I was finally able to do what I had planned.

"You are evil, Za, I will not accept your presence a second time. I don't care if your apologies are sincere or not, which is clear this heart has already been disappointed," I said with full emotion.

After wiping away the remains of tears, I opened the closet and I took all my clothes. I'm gonna get out of this house.

I put all my stuff in a big bag, I left nothing.

Half an hour later, everything was packed. Then I took him out of the room. The taxi I ordered arrived in front of the house. Without taking a shower and without changing clothes, I walked away. Quickly I put all my belongings into the trunk, I didn't want Reza to notice my departure.

"Hurry up, sir!" I said to the driver, when the taxi door was closed.

"Good, Non."

"At the front crossroad turn right, sir," I said after the taxi began to go.

"Yes, No."

I let out a long sigh, a little quiet as the taxi had already taken me away. The longer the house I live in the more invisible it becomes.

"After returning this key, I'll go far. Out of everyone I've ever known, whether it's Mayra, Alena, Kyla, Rena, or Daniel. Enough I keep this feeling myself, although we are still in love with each other, but circumstances do not give blessing. Besides our different beliefs, Daniel's mother doesn't like me either. For my own good and that of my son, I will go far away from them" I said in my heart.

Seriate....

Thank you to all of you who are still loyal to the Noda novel. Hopefully stay at home until the end of the story, Aamiin.

Why does Kirana's story have to be this slow? Why is he never happy? Why is he always hurt?

The test is God's way of calling us to come back to Him. Everyone's heart is different, some are enough with a little test, some need a big test to open the door of his heart. And, this Kirana is a hard person.

Why would I say that?

Long enough he enjoyed adultery without thinking about sin. He fell asleep, without remembering his Lord. God rebuked her with pregnancy.

Is he conscious and repentant? No. gabe.

Kirana did stop committing adultery, but she did not fully repent.

He still did not close the aura, he also still wanted to come into contact with men who were not halal. Even she still thinks of accepting Reza as her boyfriend.

Maybe this episode is painful, but it is from that pain that he will find true happiness.