Taint

Revealed

The clock on my wrist kept turning, as cold sweat poured out. I cut my fingers tightly, I don't care even though the fingernails are tearing my skin. One by one we've been called and done checks. As for me, I also remained unmoved on the spot, waiting for the beginning of the nightmare to pick up.

I closed my eyes and breathed repeatedly. I have no way to get out of here. I can only pray, even if it should be revealed, that a ray of light will still shine in my life.

"In the meantime our class has won a new trophy, Gaes. If that day has come, all of you I'll treat it as much."

I bit my lip when I heard Reza's words. He's the class leader here. For 4 years I studied at Trijaya University, this class always passed. There has never been a single student who has been drug positive, and maybe today I became the prime. I'm the first person to make bad history here.

"I'm sorry, Za. This cup is not in your class' favor .. Because of me." I sat there holding my own chest. Tight, it feels so cramped. It was as if my breathing cavity was squeezed, and left no small cavities of stuff.

"Kirana's Mentari!"

My tongue tastes salty blood, after my name is called by Mr. Rahman. Too strong I bite my lips, until my teeth unknowingly hurt him.

I leave everything to God, I follow the flow of time that has been feared for me. Although I was incredibly scared, but I had no strength to run away from all this.

I got up from my seat, and stepped up to follow the medics. I did everything he directed. Although this body continues to tremble, but I managed to complete the examination.

"It's all over. I have to persuade my heart to give all my dreams. Asa, ideals, I had to bury with stupidity. Let all be bitter memories embedded in memory." I spoke in my heart, walking towards my seat.

"Ra, don't smile dong glum hold. Let's put together a plan to bring Mayra and Reza closer together" whispered Nindi after I returned to the chair.

Mayra loves Reza very much, even though the man remains indifferent and never shows his feelings. No matter what Mayra is lacking, she is beautiful, smart, agile, and most importantly equal in position. But it turns out, all of that has not been able to knock on the door of Reza's heart.

"There's no deal, Nin. Don't make plans, because you'll be disappointed" I replied without looking at him.

"What ... What do you mean, Ra?" nindi asked, I heard her tone implying worry.

"I can't answer, Nin. Just let time tell you," I whispered with raucous.

I could no longer hold back the tears, the clear hairs were falling on my lap. I lowered my head, hiding the taste of the poignancy that continued to lash out.

Shortly after, this activity ended. All of us, have done a good inspection. Smiles and laughter were etched on the lips of all comrades. Among them, I am the only one who puts on a soft look.

Half an hour later, Mr. Rahman, the medics, and the police, they started to move on. The energy in my body seemed to breathe, when I saw the gaze of Mr. Rahman who was directed towards me. Then I looked down, staring at the paled fingers. Maybe so is my face.

"Kirana Mentari, please come with us!"

"Kirana's Mentari!"

Mr. Rahman repeated his words, because at this time I was still flinching in the original position. With a remnant of energy, I supported my body and I walked. All sorts of whispers, beginning to sound faintly in the ears.

They wondered if I was a junkie.

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Mr. Rahman took me into the room of Bu Ambar, one of the lecturers who filled the material most often in my class.

I lowered my head, not daring to look at the bead of an eye belonging to Ambar. Of the many lecturers, he paid the most attention to me. He very often praised my achievements, and also often advised me. Not being in a relationship with Daniel is one of his advice, according to him, a relationship of different beliefs, it is very complicated.

"I'm so disappointed, Kirana!"

My tears escaped without excuse. Ms. Ambar's slow but firm voice made me understand that she was really disappointed. If the lecturer is this tenant, then what about my parents?

"I never expected you to be that reckless, Kirana! Three more months you interned, but now you're positively pregnant. You're an accomplished kid, then why do you destroy your future with a moment's pleasure!" said Bu Ambar with higher intonation.

I still didn't answer, only tears were breaking. In the silence, my sobbing sound was heartbreaking.

"Is that Daniel, Kirana?" ask Ambar Ma'am.

I've been in a relationship with Daniel for a long time, and a lot of friends and lecturers know that.

"I'm sorry, ma'am," I replied very quietly, almost like a whisper.

"I don't understand what's on your mind, Kirana. Daniel is non-Muslim, and you're pregnant with him. Did you sacrifice your religion for love?! Are you going to leave God for His creation?! Don't play around with conviction, Kirana!"

I saw Ambar moving from his seat. He looked at me while folding his hands on his chest. Her breathing was very heavy, also both shoulders moved up and down behind her long headscarf. This reality is very emotional.

"The campus has contacted your parents, they are already on their way here" said Ambar, who then left me flabbergasted.

"Dad, Mother," my inner.

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