I'm Not Him

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Anita retreated and slowly sat down at the table casually and placed her hands on her knees.

"Rania Ramadhania, I have no other reason than treasure. Hate, greedy and afraid to go back to being poor, that's all. There's nothing else?" said Anita.

"You can have it all and be quiet in silence, without hurting and without having to do any of this. I'm not going after everything you've been fighting for either"

"Bullshit up! All this is precisely because of your arrival, that stupid Bondan who brought you here and made everything messy. The crazy medicine I gave Beni, stopped when you came as Dila. My plan, everything's fucked up because of your arrival. You're the only person I hate. I've been trying to keep you away from your family. I made your father and mother die with your foster father. But still you came and screwed things up. Everything I did was in vain" said Anita who approached and pulled Rania's hair and held her hand back.

Someone comes, Anita releases Rania and stands by the window. While Rania sighed in pain, Bondan came and looked at her.

"What are you doing here?" ask Bondan.

"Bondan, listen to your mother come to the hospital and hurt Nuri, she made Nuri depressed and went back hysterically. He threatens Nuri saying that Nuri does not deserve to live. You know, she almost committed suicide" explained Rania as she held Bondan's hand.

"The only time he admitted everything, he said he hated me. Since I was blocking all his plans, he also said that he had failed to drive Beni crazy because you were taking me to be Dila" Rania continued.

Bondan looked at Anita who wiped her tears without even looking at them. He let go of Rania's hand and looked at her in annoyance.

"Stop talking recklessly, the only bad person here is you. You took everything, up to my post" Bondan said.

Rania sighed and arranged it. He tries to understand Bondan's words and finally understands when he remembers Vero's previous words that bring up the position he will take for Rania.

"Momy's right, my mistake was to bring you here, make you a replacement for Dila, and loving you was the biggest mistake" Bondan said with a heavy heart.

Each one of them was crying, feeling pain in his heart. Rania is speechless after hearing Bondan's regret for loving her. Bondan held back his sedu sedu by clasping his hands hard.

"Come on Momy, none of this is ours. I'm going to take Momy somewhere else, somewhere far away from her" Bondan asks by pulling Anita's hand.

"No, this is all mine, I worked hard on it. You can't take Momy away from momy Bondan's house!" said Anita crying.

Bondan looked sadly at Anita. Rania closed her eyes, fed up with Anita always pretending.

"I promise I will try hard to build a big house for Momy. Now I don't want us to stay in this place anymore, especially in a place close to this woman" Bondan said with a glance at Rania.

Rania's hands clenched to hear Bondan's hurtful speech. Tightness enveloped his chest and made him silent can not say anything more to hold Bondan from his bad assumption.

Anita is hugged by Bondan out of the room and the house. Rania sat down and limply received all Bondan's words as well as his departure. Her cry broke considering all her painful words.

Beni comes and sees Rania, she comes over and holds her hand.

"What's wrong? Why crying?" ask Beni.

Rania looked at Beni and came back sniffling.

"He doesn't believe me Ben, he doesn't want to hear me. She said she loves Ben" said Rania, crying again.

Beni leaned Rania's head on her chest and then hugged her. His hand rubbed Rania's back, trying to calm her down. Rania's cry was still heard, her voice could even be heard Hedi sitting on the stairs, lamenting the destruction of the house.

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Bondan tidied up the bed and cleaned the floor for his mother to rest. He tried hard to make his mother comfortable to stay.

"From now on, we'll stay here. These are assets that belong to me without the interference of the company. I'll prove it from the letters I have" Bondan said.

Anita just kept quiet not caring about it, she felt annoyed and tried to hide it.

"Isn't it okay, Mom?" ask Bondan who did not get a response from his mother.

"Momy cape wants to sleep!" said Anita.

Bondan smiles and leaves the room after kissing his mother's forehead. He rubbed his mother's shoulder and left her.

Sadly, he went into the other room and sat on the bed lamenting his misfortune.

Shadows all memories with Rania, from the first time they met him until yesterday they had a fight about Rania who covered her identity as the daughter of the Subagja family from him.

~Should I ask your reason? But can I look at you with all this disappointment? How are you feeling right now, Rania? I'm very curious, but I can't do it. It's heavy Rania! Very feel heavy~

Bondan can only talk to himself.

Meanwhile, Rania was silent staring at the window in her room. Vero called him repeatedly, he didn't pick him up.

~How should I explain to you Bondan? How-to? Do you still want to hear? How are you feeling now? You must feel very devastated, I never thought all this could be like this~

Beni came to open the door, bringing her warm tea. Slowly walk over and put the cup on the table. He patted the shoulder of Rania who was still silent in her daydream.

"Hey!" said Beni.

Rania regained her senses, but only swallowed the saliva and lowered her head.

"Drinking the tea first, Hedi said you haven't eaten since coming from the hospital. Drink the sweet tea first, so there is energy" said Beni.

She serves Rania just as she did when Rania served her first. Full of tenderness and affection.

Rania turned around and sat down and drank her tea. His eyes weren't looking at Beni, he was still thinking about Bondan.

Beni saw his sadness, he didn't like to see that, he tried to change the set of Rania.

"Family, isn't that more important?" said Beni.

Rania fell silent, putting the cup on the table.

"Vero wants you to be a tough and successful Rania. He gave you that opportunity and became the president director of Subagja Corporation. I understand the point" continued Beni.

Rania thought again, she remembered with all the words Vero really loved her.