I'm Not Him

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In the house owned by Dila and Yudi.

Rania looked at her face in the mirror. There was nothing he thought of, other than his feeling of feeling strange when he saw Bondan. There was a pain in his heart that was hard to express.

~I who? Although everyone says I'm Dila, but why is it as if there's something I want to say?~ heartfelt Rania.

Rania closed her eyes, grimacing as if in pain remembering something she wanted to convey.

Yudi, who was about to say good-bye to her, went into the room and saw that she was in pain. Yudi immediately approached.

"Why? What's the pain, honey?" ask Yudi worriedly.

Rania opened her eyes, she felt strange with Yudi's call to her. His eyes were almost full of tears, staring at Yudi's face.

"I felt a strange thing in my heart, as if there was something I had to say and it made me feel even more upset" Rania said.

Yudi smiled, he held and then kissed her hand.

"Law, you were in a terrible accident. The doctor said you might be in a coma. But maybe because I have come and miss you so much, you can recover quickly" said Yudi.

Rania looked at Yudi's face, the man she first saw when she opened her eyes. Who so painstakingly took care of him. Who wanted to help him get up and walk back from the hospital bed. Who loved her so much by always saying it.

"You love me so much" said Rania.

Yudi smiled.

"Even though my physical now has changed" said Rania by rubbing her head which began to grow short hair, but the former operation is still clearly visible.

Yudi brought her face closer and kissed her lips. Rania closed her eyes. Yudi looked at his face with great affection.

Yudi escorted her to the bed and sat down together. Rania looked at her face alternately at Yudi's hand which was still rubbing her hand.

That night, Yudi felt that he was very eager to do that with Dila. He got closer and started to touch her.

Rania, who was feeling awkward at first, started to feel comfortable as Yudi started to hug her. He also felt the tremors of hormones that began to rise in reaction to Yudi's kiss on his neck.

They slept together that night.

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Bondan accidentally releases his dinner plate, which he wants to take to the washtable. He lost his balance, his hands propped up to the table. Trying to normalize the rhythm of his breath.

Rania's face appeared as she closed her eyes. Bondan sighed sadly. She still misses Rania. His chest hurt, he squeezed his clothes. The pain started to turn to heat on his face. Her tears trickled down, along with her longing for Rania.

The more the day feels and makes it unable to survive. As if to follow Rania to the afterlife.

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Arumi sat on the bed, tidying up the blankets for her sleep. He saw Vero still standing staring out the window sweating from the rain that had rained all afternoon until that night.

Arumi approached her and hugged Vero.

"Why baby?" arumi asked while kissing her chin.

Vero looked at Arumi's face and then smiled.

"No, I just miss Rania, also a little worried because Dila lives with Yudi alone now" said Vero.

"I also miss Rania, about Dila, her health progress shot, especially when she was with sister Yudi. After all, they will get married, so do not worry" said Arumi while leaning her head on Vero's chest.

Vero rubbed Arumi's hair and tried to dampen the uneasiness in her heart. He wanted to spend time with his wife who did not have time to honeymoon.

All of the events were like lightning striking strongly. Scorching everything, depriving him of the happiness he should have felt.

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Vera gazes at the rain from the terrace of her home, she lives alone as Aditya is on duty flying off the island. The memories with Rania made him miss her again.

"Not sleeping yet, Ver?" yuni sapa.

Vera turned her head and shook her head.

"I can't sleep" replied Vera.

"Rain though Ver" said Yuni who pulled the cardigan over her chest.

"I can't forget Dila's gaze when she came home from the hospital" said Vera.

Yuni turned her head and looked at her eyes as if remembering.

"I can see how my son Yun's eyes are, Rania's eyes are" Vera said.

Yuni sighed, her eyes turning to the rain stubs that were beginning to subside. He couldn't tell Vera to be strong in accepting Rania's departure. Because he also felt very lost.

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Nuri stroked Vania's face after she fell asleep. Then stared blankly at the window of his room. Fajri who just came out of the bathroom saw it, then saw the window that Nuri was staring at.

"It's still raining?" ask Fajri.

Nuri did not answer.

"Why you?" ask Fajri.

Nuri breathed out hard.

"I feel that what Yudi brought to his house was not Dila, but Rania" said Nuri who turned her gaze to Fajri.

Fajri smiled then approached.

"You miss Rania again?" ask Fajri.

"Not that" replied Nuri.

He turned his body to Fajri.

"You remember, when he was in the hospital, when Bondan was allowed to go home" Nuri said, holding Fajri's hand.

Fajri nodded.

"Bondan came to his room and spoke. He was silent at the time and no one could make him talk. But after Bondan came, he talked and apologized to her as Bondan wished he could go home with Rania" Nuri continued.

Fajri nodded while thinking and remembering.

"The same thing happened when Rania was in the hospital after the bad incident. Rania only wants to talk when Bondan approaches. This makes me sure that she's not Dila, but Rania. That's Rania, baby!" Nuri insists.

Fajri stroked the face of his wife who was very sure of it.

"Listen dear, Dila recovered thanks to Yudi's patience in caring for her. The other thing is just support. Clara's after Rania, the survivor is Dila, that's what happened. Now it is our turn to accept that Rania is also calm in nature" said Fajri calming.

Nuri turned her face away, she was still very sure that it was her friend. But I cannot force his thinking. He was only worried that their relationship was deeper. When the possibility of wrong guessing can happen.

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Yudi looked at the face of Dila who was asleep in front of him with a blanket without clothes. Then stroked her face and tidied up the blanket so that her chest was covered.

His hand stopped when he touched Dila's chest, which had a sign. Yudi frowned feeling like he had never seen it before.

"Is this a birthmark or a scar yesterday?" yudi asked himself while muttering.

As he remembered, he had never seen that mark. Then it became doubtful and stared with a guilty feeling at that face.

Yudi swallowed his saliva, he was afraid that he had misjudged who was in front of him. His eyes grew even more round as he recalled what they had just done.