I'm Not Him

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Dila sat pensively on the beach side. Saga looked at her, remembering the moment she contacted Vero to inform him that Dila was there. But Vero first reported that Rania was dead.

He who was surprised to hear the news, also because of the limitations of the network, he also forgot to tell that Dila, one of Vero's younger siblings was with him there. Dila who also did not think Rania could die, felt no need to say that she survived and would only bring sadness to them.

Now he regrets what happened. He regretted having so carelessly opened the door of the plane and made them crash. Dila felt selfish, how would she say that herself survived while Rania died because of her.

Saga approached, she sat by his side.

"Come home, who knows, they really hope you're alive" Saga said.

"I don't know what to say to them, if they knew the plane had crashed because of my selfishness, they'd hate me. Especially Brother Vero, because he loves Rania more than me" said Dila.

"Unlike that, a sister loves her sisters. There is nothing less or less" Saga told him.

Dila rubbed her head, she also wanted to go home. But I was afraid to face them.

"There will be a pickup next month, whether it's for people who just want to barter in the city, or people who want to go home outside the island. Come with them, regroup with your family. Your presence must be very much they miss" explained Saga.

Dila stared blankly at the vast sea, no words came out after that. They sat there until it was dark.

Ayu saw it, she began to dislike their closeness.

~Pak officers said they only know ordinary, but they deket very~ said Ayu's heart.

Ayu slowly walked towards her house. Saga and Dila who were walking home saw him. Dila caught up and hooked her hand to the young midwife's shoulder.

"Jeez,..kok didn't say you wanted to go for a walk?" ask Dila.

Ayu was surprised, not expecting Dila to come to him.

"It just so happens to pass by" Ayu replied with a small voice.

"I wonder, how does it feel to be with people?" said Dila who released her hand then walked backwards in front of Ayu.

"Mai's a midwife in a remote area, you mean?" said Ayu plain.

"Ih..ogah, just curious. Later if someone gets sick I come with you?" asked Dila as she stopped in front of Ayu.

"Aren't you going back to Jakarta?" ask Ayu.

"It's still a month away. My friend who is in town said that the transport that takes passengers out of the island will be in a month" said Saga from behind them.

Ayu turned her head, Dila raised her eyebrows, asking Ayu's approval to ask her. Ayu sighed, she could not resist, especially on the grounds that she was jealous of their closeness.

"Alright, then, but don't complain about the one calling midnight. Because we never know when the disaster comes" said Ayu by staring Dila as a disaster for her feelings on Saga.

"Oh..so is it?" Dila hesitated a bit that she could force herself to wake up in the middle of the night to help others.

Dila went into Saga's house to bring her clothes.

"Thank you!" saga said to Ayu.

Ayu.

"For one month only. After that he left, right?" ayu said without looking at Saga.

Saga felt strange with Ayu's answer that sounded not like Dila's presence.

"I also want him to go home quickly" said Saga.

~What is this? He looks happy with his presence, but his speech is inversely~ said Ayu's heart.

"I'd rather he'd come back than here. Since he is so spoiled, I can bother if he stays here" whispered Saga.

Ayu smiled in relief, she finally knew what Saga was thinking.

Dila came out with her clothes washed clean with two pairs of clothes belonging to Saga. Ayu took it and gave it to Saga. Dila was amazed by Ayu's attitude.

"I've got a lot of clothes that you're sure to wear. The time to wear the clothes of the officer continues" said Ayu.

Dila smiled hearing Ayu's words. He was happy to make a new friend who noticed him.

"We say goodbye, good night, officer" said Ayu.

"Night to the midwife!" answer Saga.

They left, but their conversation was still audible.

"It feels strange to hear your call" said Dila.

Ayu just smiled.

"If you're called a midwife, she's an officer, then me? miss the victim drowned?" Dila is still babbling.

Ayu laughed out loud. Saga smiled at Dila's words and Ayu's laughter began to sound away. He looked around the place, then felt lonely again.

Saga came in and sat on the bed. He took his suitcase which he kept under the bed. Saga opens a box with a picture of Rania with her in two years. The photos that he took secretly were also those that he deliberately took when Rania was not ready. Saga touched a photo of Rania with a sweet face.

~One time your departure, if only I had not left at that time~ said heart Saga.

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Meanwhile, in Jakarta.

Bondan stared at their photo in one frame against the backdrop of Nuri and Fajri's bridal chair. They look very harmonious even though Rania at that time did not realize that she was taking pictures with Bondan.

Bondan regrets everything that happened. He regrets accepting the task of becoming Clara. I also regret not rushing to marry Rania.

Memories with Rania appeared and made him miss his lover even more. Rania's smile and laughter continued to be reflected.

He could still feel how hugs, hand touches and when their lips intertwined. Bondan couldn't possibly forget it. Happy times with Rania. From the beginning of the meeting until finally Rania wanted to return with him after their second meeting in the same place.

I don't feel her tears falling back. A man who is usually able to store his tears in any condition. Now she can't help it anymore when she misses Rania so much.

Before long, the sound of his phone ringing, woke him from the daydream. Bondan grabs his phone and sees Vero calling him. Bondan picked up the phone.

"Hallo!" greet Bondan.

"Hallo Bondan, we will hold an evening prayer to pray for the late Rania. Come, Thursday night of the week. At Ruby's house" Vero said.

Bondan was silent, he still could not accept Rania's departure. But his family has held a prayer event for his spirit. His heart ached hearing that. But what he can do, he can't prove Rania's alive. So he also had to accept this reality.

"Alright, I'll come" Bondan replied after a moment of silence.

He hung up the phone, then looked back at Rania in the photo.