I'm Not Him

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Marvin walks in, he sits on his couch remembering Dila's wish that only Yudi was by his side.

~How is this? I love you so much Dila. How can I let you go back to Yudi?~ Marvin wrestles himself in his heart.

Marvin heard the elevator open, he came out and looked. I went home and wanted to come in.

"You're home yet?" ask Marvin.

Dila turned around after wiping her tears.

"Yes, I'm not comfortable with the club, so go home" Dila replied with a smile.

Marvin approached then hugged her gently.

"What's wrong? You okay?" ask Dila.

"Yes, I'm fine, just feeling like I miss you so much" Marvin said as he took off his arms.

Dila smiled at him, Marvin returned his smile.

"You are beautiful when you smile" said Marvin.

"really? Thank you, I will sleep" Dila pointed to her home.

"Yes, take a break, tomorrow is a very busy day" Marvin said, rubbing Dila's cheek.

"You're also resting, bye!" pamit Dila hugged him again for a moment.

"Okay, bye!" answer Marvin.

He looked at Dila who entered. Sighs and holds tightness in his chest.

Dila went into the room and leaned her body on the chair. He remembered Yudi's face which did not answer all of his questions at all. Dila gave up, she would only focus on the person now beside her, Marvin.

Dila removed her makeup with a cleanser while massaging around her eyes that felt swollen from crying earlier. His phone showed Marvin a message notification.

[Dad's taking us to lunch tomorrow, where are you going to eat?] ask Marvin.

[Near the clinic alone, the food is good] Dila replied.

[Ok, good night. I love you]

[Good nigth, I love you to]

Dila put her phone down and went to sleep. While Marvin understood, Dila had already taken the decision to stay with him because Yudi was just apologizing in answer to all his questions.

He was determined to make Dila forget about Yudi. He will try his best to make her happy.

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Lunch near the clinic with Jason, Dila saw a menu that always adds a new menu. He always tried every new menu there. Marvin and Jason ordered the same steak and drinks.

Jason asked Dila to talk about business. Marvin was just listening. He is also not interested in business. He's not very close to Jason either. They only talk if Jason is talking about Dila or just invite him to eat together.

Dila held Marvin's hand while chatting with Jason, the hand manner was done to make Marvin feel not alone or feel like a 'goat' among them.

Jason was so happy that Dila could always do what made Marvin feel good about him. He really hopes that Dila can be a partner for the rest of his life.

"When will you decide to get married?" ask Jason.

Marvin looked at Dila. He took off Dila's hand and looked at his father.

"Dila is still learning dad" Marvin said.

Dila just kept quiet and lowered her gaze. He put both his hands on his lap.

"Many people get married in college, some of them hold their babies at graduation. It doesn't matter" Jason said.

"No, I really appreciate Dila's wish....."

"Dila hasn't even said what she thinks" Jason said.

Dila rounded her eyes watching their little quarrel.

"Me?" tanya Dila was not ready to talk.

Jason nodded, Marvin looked at him as he was also curious about the answer that Dila was going to give.

"Hahahaha, come. Marriage should be thought out carefully, right? Not just because we seem to fit in and understand each other. Marriage is much more complicated than a company. My brothers are not married either. I couldn't possibly step over them" Dila spoke at length and they were very clearly listening.

"Maha.." Jason laughed out loud.

Marvin glared, he didn't like to see his father laugh so contentedly.

"Now it seems that you are not too serious about this relationship. Yes, Dila has a point too. Our families haven't met and talked at one table, have we? But I hope you think about it, yes" Jason.

He stood up and was ready to return to the clinic. Dila just smiled, Marvin saw Dila's smile that was really forced.

"Who taught you about covering up your dislike? He must be very disappointed that you sucked at it!" marvin.

Dila rounded her eyes to hear Marvin's words.

~He guessed or did know that I didn't like Jason's question?~ ask Dila's heart.

Dila bought Jason something on their way home.

"Bring this to Jason's house, it has to be today because the food is easily stale" Dila said.

He packed a box of food into a paper bag.

"Why should I?" ask Marvin.

Dila stared.

"You're his son, why ask again?" said Dila.

Dila saw the lazy Marvin, he held his hand and coaxed.

"Just for a minute, after that go home. We ate this at my house" Dila said.

Marvin looked at Dila, he stroked her.

"Ok, I'm leaving. You promised to eat together, so don't spend it alone if I'm a little late" Marvin said.

"Ok, Boss!" dila replied with one eye

Marvin leaves, while Dila continues to choose the goods for him to buy. Before long shopping, Dila was about to return home. But he passed Yudi who was down from the motorbike about to enter the mini market.

Yudi looked at him with his hands reaching into his pants pocket. Dila sighed and smiled.

"Just finished shopping?" tanya Yudi who saw Dila carrying two bags of paper groceries.

"Yes, I'm done, now I want to go home" replied Dila.

"Wait ahead for a while, I'll take you" said Yudi.

"No, just a few blocks" said Dila refused.

"In a moment, I just buy cigarettes" said Yudi.

He was silent, he walked out with slow steps.

~He smokes again?~ say Dila's heart.

Before long Yudi returned and got on his bike. He told Dila to go up and hold on. Dila said, she went up and held her shopping bag while holding Yudi's waist.

Arriving at the apartment, Yudi helped him carry his shopping bag until he entered his house. He put it on the table.

Dila offered him a glass of water. Yudi immediately drank it.

"You're smoking again?" ask Dila.

Yudi gulped down his drinking water.

"Yes, once in a while" Yudi replied.

"Eat first!" dila offered again.

"No, I have to work. Oh yeah, your relationship with Marvin, is fine, right?" ask Yudi base stale.

"The relationship is good, I'm not good" muttered Dila.

"Huh?" asked Yudi who did not clearly hear it.

"You think?" said Dila dongga looking at Yudi's face.

"I hope fine" another in the other mouth in his heart.

Yudi hopes Marvin releases Dila for him. But he can't use it anymore either. Because he brought them together.

"You know, I really hope that your stale base is contrary to how you feel. But it's all free, all you want, I'm just Marvin, right?" said Dila.

Yudi looked at Dila's face. He was actually stressed out that night. But was really afraid of stepping forward to take Dila for by his side.

"Yes, it should be like this" said Yudi.

Dila sighed and turned her face away.

"I'm home, bye!" pamit Yudi's.

Dila stared at Yudi's steps towards the door. He couldn't bear it, then chased after her and hugged Yudi from behind.

Yudi flinched, she was surprised Dila hugged him. He looked at Dila's hand that was tightly hugging on his stomach.

"Tell me just once if you want me to be with you again. I'll find a way to get out of Marvin" whispered Dila.

Yudi took off Dila's hand and then turned around. He held Dila's face and was about to reject her again. But he missed Dila very much and even kissed Dila's lips.

Dila receives Yudi's kiss and enjoys it. But Yudi let go when he realized he had lost control.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" Yudi said.

Dila pulled it and kissed it again. Yudi could no longer control himself. He let himself and Dila enjoy the moment.