I'm Not Him

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Dila walked in and tried not to greet him. But Marvin really wanted him to talk or just say hello to him. Moreover, he saw, Dila had just been delivered by her father.

"You met him?" ask Marvin.

Insanely upset, he turned around and got angry.

"Your father, Marvin! Jason is your father! When are you gonna learn to appreciate it?" the tone of Dila's voice clearly showed her dislike for Marvin's attitude towards her father.

"That's none of your business" replied Marvin.

"Oh, then I don't have to answer you, because it's none of your business" Dila said.

Dila stepped away.

"Obviously it's my business, you're my girlfriend!" marvin pulls Dila's arm.

Michael watched them from the inside, behind the glass door. He was on standby for any unwanted events.

Dila tried to take off Marvin's hand which was tight enough to hold tightly to his arm.

"Let go Marvin, we're done when you only believe in Chloe" Dila said.

"Then why aren't you trying to convince me? It's not just you who want to fight, I'm the same, I want you to fight for me, make me trust you" Marvin crazed.

Dila was astonished, she retreated and looked at Marvin with a feeling of fear. Michael's out to protect Dila. He restrains Marvin's body so he doesn't keep chasing Dila.

While Dila retreated slowly and fearfully. He got into the elevator and gasped. He hadn't felt that fear for a long time. The fear he only felt when he was with Beni.

~Why do I see Beni in Marvin's emotions?~

Dila hurried out of the elevator and into her apartment. He tried to calm himself down by washing his face. But he was too afraid to remember Marvin's emotions.

Suddenly her phone rang, Dila was shocked and stared at her bag where her phone was stored.

"God, what is this feeling? Why am I so scared even when the phone rings" Dila said bracing herself.

He approached his bag and looked at his cell phone. Yudi called. Dila.

"How long did you lift it? Did you heat the food?" ask Yudi.

He was waiting for a moment and seemed to swallow something.

"I ate out!" reply Dila by accidentally exiting the voice of the raiders.

"Why with your voice? You sound scared" Yudi suspected.

"No, I'm just tired, I'm sleepy. Yes already!" said Dila hung up the phone.

Dila leaned back in her bed. He sighed and took a long breath.

"No Dila, everything will be fine. That's your fear, don't involve Yudi. He was organizing his life" he murmured.

He tries to control himself and his fear. She wondered why this always happened to her. Facing a possessive person.

Yudi did not believe Dila's words, he rushed to his apartment. Arriving in front of the apartment, she meets Michael and greets him.

Then Michael said what happened. Yudi was obviously very worried, his fear had already happened and he was not with Dila.

"Marvin left after he said that, but Dila hasn't come down or called down after that" Michael said.

"Ok thank you, you have been very helpful" said Yudi.

He got into the elevator to Dila's apartment. When he got to the door, he stopped.

~There's a reason why Dila didn't say it. He can handle it himself or he does not want me to meddle~ Yudi said.

He backed off and came back. Michael looked at it and asked.

"He's all right?" tanyakanya.

"Yes I guess. I won't bother him just yet, he must have rested" Yudi replied.

Michael just nodded. Yudi went home. On the way, he sees Marvin drunk and groping near his car. Someone had a fight with him and he was about to be beaten. Yudi pulled over and prevented it.

"He suddenly spoke and messed up when I was about to take my car" he replied.

He looked at Marvin. He remembered himself who used to get drunk and messed up.

"I apologize on behalf of my friend. You can see she's unconscious" Yudi pleaded for her understanding.

The man looked at Marvin who was vomiting, he looked extremely disgusted then retreated while turning his eyes on Yudi. He nodded then left.

Yudi was relieved because the man did not prolong the problem, but he looked at Marvin who was sitting limp from drunkenness. He had to drive Marvin back to his apartment.

Yudi helped Marvin get into his car. He started the car engine that he was looking for before he got in. Slowly make Marvin sit quietly.

"No need to drive me, I don't like you. Just go!" marvin brushed off Yudi's hand.

Yudi didn't listen to him, he kept running his car. Arriving in front of the apartment, she waved at Michael for help. Michael's approaching.

"You? God, you're really troubled by both of them!"said Michael.

He helps Yudi beat Marvin who is very very drunk. They managed to get him into the apartment. When out Yudi forgot to put Marvin's car keys inside. He left it to Michael.

"You're coming home on foot?" ask Michael.

"No, my bike is at the bar where I saw it" Yudi replied.

He stared at Dila's apartment door before entering the elevator.

"He must have slept" Michael said.

"Hmmm.iya" said Yudi with a smile.

Yudi went home, while Dila could not sleep. He continues to imagine the scary times when with Beni first. Can not be separated from the grasp of Beni because it still requires the cost that his mother always gives.

Resisting all fear and still pretending to love Beni despite being forced to.

"Huuhhhffff..help my brain! Don't think about the past anymore, I'm already tired enough" Dila said to herself.

Dila reached for her phone and searched for Rania's number. She called him, Rania picked him up.

"Hallo Dila, what's wrong? You can't sleep?" ask Rania.

Dila smiled, Rania always knew the reason Dila called her.

"Busy around?" ask Dila.

"No, I just finished the order. What was? It's gonna be night out there, right?" Rania guess.

"Hmmm, it's late and you're right, I can't sleep" Dila replied.

Rania is silent, she thinks and remembers Yudi's words on the phone. Dila kept the name of the photo. He did not admit it was his picture and did not say who it was until a fight with his girlfriend.

~What's the problem not finished yet?~ ask Rania's heart.

"You're still thinking about the people who offended you?" ask Rania.

"No, I just can't sleep. Tell me about your meeting with Bondan first!" Dila changed the topic.

"No way, you know I'm keeping my distance from him. I can't remember anymore" Rania said.

"Well, you love each other, why do you have to do such a stupid thing?" lamented Dila.

"I just always felt like she deserved a woman who was better than me" Rania said.

"Nobody's better than you Rania. Believe me, everyone knows that" Dila said.

"Yes, you're right. Even Dila Aryani Subagja is not as good at hiding her sadness as I am. Tell me what makes you call all night?" ask Rania.

Ramadhan who had just returned from his college frowned when he heard his brother say nights, when it was still day.

Dila bit her own lips, caught and indeed not good at hiding her heart. She always wanted to tell stories and ask her twin sister for advice.