I'm Not Him

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Marvin gets to Jason's house, he gets out of the car and walks into his house. Knocked on the door a few times until someone opened it.

"Hi Marvin's. Long time no see!" hello Jessie.

Jessie, Marvin's stepmother opened it. Marvin stared lazily and entered without speaking. Jessie sighed in self-control at the unchanging attitude of her stepson.

Jessie follows Marvin who lays down the food Dila asked to give. Jessie opened it without speaking. Marvin who took a drink glanced at him.

"Dila gave it to him" said Marvin.

Jessie tasted it and loved it.

"Don't kid!" says Jessie.

Marvin walks home, but sees a wedding photo of Jessi and Jason on the table.

"Why is that picture there?" ask Marvin upset.

Jessie approached and saw Marvin about to throw their picture. Jason came down from the top floor of his room. They both arrested Marvin.

"I told you not to keep it near my mom's picture!" shout Marvin.

Jason managed to get his picture, but Marvin tried to get it back.

"ENOUGH!" shout Jessie.

Marvin stopped and looked annoyed at him. Jason hid their picture in the drawer.

"Quite Marvin, I'm sick of your attitude!" says Jessie.

"Thyak? I should have been fed up with you guys!" Marvin pointed at the two of them.

"Why? Is it because I married your father?" Jessie was angry.

Jason hugged Jessie so she wouldn't get out of control. Jason doesn't want Marvin to know why they're together.

"No Jason, Marvin's gone too far!" Jessie rampage.

"No, Marvin go!" exciting Jason.

As usual, Marvin felt it was important to give up and leave.

"No Marvin, stop there! All you know is that your mother was betrayed by us. And vice versa!" shout Jessie.

Jason shut his mouth, he hoped Marvin wouldn't hear it. But Marvin stopped walking and turned around.

"What do you mean?" marvin asked with his eyes reddened from holding back tears.

Jason pushed her out because he couldn't keep Jessie quiet.

"You think we cheated on your mom, don't you?" continued Jessie while gasping for evasion from Jason.

Jason stopped pushing Marvin, he gave up and got tired.

"Explain what you mean?" shout Marvin.

"What really happened was he took Jason from me. She's the one who kept me and Jason apart because of her selfishness" Jessie couldn't help it anymore.

Jason always said not to tell Marvin anything about their love triangle. But Jessie is tired of Marvin's disrespect for thinking he cheated on Jason before his mother died.

"Agoist? You're saying my mom's selfish?" marvin is weakening.

"Yes, he hurt me, Jason and himself" Jessie continued.

Marvin leaned against the wall. Jessie sat down and Jason just kept quiet.

Marvin riveted.

"You always blame me for being with your father when your mother was sick. But you never found out what happened. Your mother even carried her selfish nature to death. He made me suffer even to the point that I went back to Jason after decades. You, your attitude and all your thoughts about me that you call a man's snatch"

Jessie was crying through her face. Jason approached her and hugged her. Marvin looked at them, but what he saw was not Jason and Jessie, but Dila and Yudi.

Yes, he was reminded of his selfish attitude that still held Dila with him, despite knowing that what Dila wanted was to be with Yudi.

Marvin walked out leaving them with heavy strides. His face was sad and he felt very sorry. He got into the car and sat for a moment staring at the road in front of him.

~ibu, so all this time I was wrong?~ heart words Marvin.

He started the engine and drove to the apartment.

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Yudi hugged Dila as a goodbye, she also kissed her forehead. Dila waved then walked back in with a smile on her lips. He plans to tell Marvin everything. He's gonna break up with Marvin tonight.

Dila waited for Marvin at his house while sitting on the sofa and watching television. Shortly after, Marvin came and opened the door. He stepped up and took off his shoes then stopped while staring at Dila who was sitting on the sofa.

Marvin ran and hugged her. Dila was shocked, she heard Marvin's voice start crying. His hands rubbed his head to his back. Without asking, Dila tried to make Marvin vent his sadness even though he did not understand.

A few minutes passed, Marvin lying on Dila's lap rubbing his head. Marvin was calm and quite comfortable because Dila didn't ask him so much what was going on.

While Dila was thinking how she could say break up with Marvin if things were like this. Dila was confused by herself.

Before long, Marvin began to talk.

"I'm guilty of Jessie" said Marvin.

Dila stared.

"I've always said that he snatched my father from my mother. But it turned out the opposite" continued Marvin.

"Everybody can misunderstand, it's natural. It's a sweet moment between the three of you. Be grateful you can regret it early" said Dila.

He doesn't want to know too much about Jason and Jessie.

"I was alone yesterday and needed you badly. You filled my life with your cheerful face. Now I can go back with my dad. Get back together" said Marvin.

Dila was a little clueless about what Marvin said.

"But Dila, I really want to be with you. Even though I'm not alone now, please don't leave me" said Marvin, who woke up and looked at her.

Marvin held and kissed her hand. He looked very scared of Dila leaving him. Dila also looked at him with a very guilty feeling. Marvin hugged her again tightly. Dila became confused and did not know what to do.

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Dila was getting ready for bed. He's been cleaning up and wearing his night cream. He sat on the bed and looked at his cell phone. She remembers Yudi's kiss which very much implies Yudi's feelings who also very much wants to be with her.

Dila closed her eyes and sighed deeply. He also remembers Marvin's face being so unable to take it off.

"God! What am I supposed to do?" said Dila.

It's impossible for him to get back into a relationship with Yudi if he doesn't let Marvin go. But, if he lets Marvin go, he's afraid Marvin will go down and try to do something weird like Beni. He doesn't want a second Beni in his life.

Dila decided to tell Yudi. He called her with a heavy heart.

There was no answer from Yudi who was still working and his phone. Dila left a voicemail for him.

Yudi smiled as he worked. She remembers Dila's kiss on him. He was happy, he had long since missed it. Things he realized while he was living in America. He misses Dila, people are always with him under any circumstances.