I'm Not Him

25

Rania drives with Beni and Anita to the psychiatrist. Conduct regular consultations to find out the psychic development of Beni.

Arriving at the clinic, Beni and Anita get off first. Then Rania followed, she walked behind them.

A doctor greeted them.

"Hi Lady Anita, how are you?"

"Hi, Cintya! I'm fine, thank you" Anita replied as she hugged Doctor Cintya.

Beni also gets a hug as well as Rania. Cintya looked into Rania's empty eyes.

~Smiling but empty, his body is here but his soul is not here~ said Cintya's heart.

Rania enters to accompany Beni who continues to hold her hand. Cintya stared at Rania's movements that were opposite to what Beni wanted.

The consultation session runs for 2 hours. Beni was asked to relax and close her eyes. Slowly she fell asleep and her hand slipped from Rania.

Rania's face looked relieved and wanted to quickly get out of there. But Cintya held him back.

"Wait!"

Cinta held her arm. Rania turned.

"Yes!" the answer.

"I want to ask you, can I?" ask Cintya.

Rania took her breath, she started to tense up. This time he was unable to cheerfully say everything was fine.

"Stranquil, sit!" cintya.

Rania complies and sits on the sofa near Beni who is asleep.

"Bondan asked me something. He asked me to do this" Cintya said as she took an injection.

Rania panic.

"Aren't you treating Beni? He could hear what Bondan wanted to say. Please don't complicate my position now. I'm..."

"Listen, today's a session for you. To restore your spirit back!" cintya said while injecting something into Rania's arm.

Slowly but surely Rania felt limp and closed her eyes.

Rania saw everyone she cared about looking at her from afar and smiled. His father came and held his hand. Her father's smile was able to make Rania smile while crying.

Then Bondan's shadow came closer to him. Bondan's face felt so real in front of him. Rania hugged him.

"Don't do anything, you could die. Hearts, minds and everything would be destroyed in an instant. I..no.mau.kamu...disappointed!" rania said softly and weakly.

Bondan who was there hugged her cried at her words. He now knows who Rania is protecting.

~I'm the one you're protecting. From whom? Beni's? I'm not afraid of him. I will take you back to your home~ Bondan said.

Bondan restores Rania's head and body to the sofa. He and Cintya had planned this before.

Cintya is a psychiatrist, who is able to hold her patient's secret. He was also a good friend to Bondan. By saying everything to Cintya, Bondan was able to find out why Rania was silent.

Although not so obvious, Bondan had felt enough to make him fight for Rania to escape from Beni.

Bondan is about to prepare everything, Rania returns and make it all in no time.

But Rania's hand held it, about to whisper. Bondan understood and put his ears close to Rania's face.

Cintya was surprised by this situation, she felt astonished by Rania's determination that was able to come to her senses from her anesthesia.

"Help me quietly and calmly. I just need that from you" Rania whispered to Bondan.

His hands were weak due to anesthesia. She's asleep.

Bondan's eyes were round, he also felt annoyed that Rania was forcing herself too much.

Cintya looked at Bondan as if asking what happened.

"He was too afraid for me to interfere. I'm confused Cin, he won't leave" Bondan said.

"I think Rania wants you to support her. Sooner or later he will tell you his plans without being forced. Sometimes a person can't be too open if the person he means is too curious" said Cintya to calm Bondan.

"Well, I'll give her full confidence" Bondan said.

Bondan tells Cintya, fearing that Anita will suddenly enter. He's back in the office.

Rania awakens first, according to Cintya's plan. He gives stimulus so that Rania is more excited and open to Bondan.

As Rania opened her eyes, Cintya smiled at him. Rania slightly gathered all the memories as she hugged Bondan.

"Where's Bondan?" ask Rania.

"Sstthhhh. Beni will soon be conscious" said Cintya by sticking her index finger to her own lips.

Rania looked at Beni who was still asleep. He wakes up and makes himself look ordinary.

"Come here, I'll show you the footage when Beni gets my suggestions" she said.

Rania approached him to see what he wanted to show.

During the consultation, Rania must find out what happened so that when Anita asked her, she did not stutter or awkwardly answer it and did not make Anita suspicious.

"Spirit! I know your story a little bit from Bondan. But even so, I know you are very strong. Beni has no ordinary possessiveness. But with you, she showed a better attitude than the previous treatment. I'm sure you can cure Beni of her syndrome" whispered Cintya.

Rania looked at.

"Bondan did this for me?" ask Rania.

"Yes, he's very worried. I can't let him be sad.

Rania stares at the laptop back, in her mind, she wants to meet Bondan to once again tell her grief and say what she is going to do.

"You're gonna tell Bondan everything, right?" ask Cintya.

Rania looked at him again and slowly nodded. Cintya smiled, the stimulus worked.

They talked as long as Beni was unconscious. Soon Anita arrives and Beni wakes up from her sleep.

Anita opened the door, Cintya signaled to do it slowly. Anita complies and sits on the chair.

Rania pretended to come closer to Beni who was rubbing her eyes, waking up. Beni smiled seeing Dila's face in front of her.

"Am I asleep?" ask Beni.

"Yes, very sound" Rania replied with a smile.

"I feel better, what were you doing while I was sleeping Doc?" ask Beni.

"I.., of course I just saw your reaction. The one who helped was Dila. He gives you his hand as long as you let go of all your anxiety" she told a lie.

Beni smiled, she rubbed Rania's hand that she was holding. Anita stared at every movement of their hands. In his heart a little laugh at their behavior.

"Thank you, baby! Your help means a lot. Beni is getting healthier lately" Anita told Cintya.

"No problem, ma'am!" reply Cintya.

They came back feeling satisfied with the therapy today.

Beni asks Rania to stay longer in her room. Rania thought for a moment, she did not know what she was going to tell Beni to mince words, but she accepted her request.

Anita leaves again and Rania takes her outside. There was the voice of Anita asking someone on the other end of the phone to keep an eye on someone. Rania is getting curious and really wants to know what Anita is doing. He was worried that his target was Adit and his mother.

Rania walked towards Beni's room. As he entered, Beni looked at him and welcomed his hand.

"Come here!" take Beni gently.

Rania gulped, she remembered the first time Beni had greeted her hand gently, in just a few conversations Beni had turned violent and possessive. Rania is getting ready for it again, even though Cintya has already said that Beni is better.

Beni opened a canvas covered in white cloth. With a smile he offered it to Dila.

"Taraaaa....! You likey?" ask Beni.

Rania rounded her eyes in great surprise. His face painting was there, but it was no ordinary painting.

Rania looked at Beni who was still smiling with the surprise she gave. Rania shed her tears.