I'm Not Him

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In the morning, Rania got up and took a shower. He was preparing to leave for the store, Vera's mom held him down.

"Where are you, baby?" ask Miss Vera.

Rania looked up and rounded her eyes. Rania forgot what she was going to do. He glanced across the house and thought about what he would do.

"You want to go with me, don't you?" said Bondan who came and stood on the doorstep.

Rania turned around excitedly, she smiled widely upon seeing that it was Bondan. He approached with a little run. But Bondan hurriedly approached, afraid that Rania was actually running.

Rania hugged Bondan tightly. Bu Vera stared with tears at the side of her eyes. Bondan hugged her gently, she was relieved Rania was hugging her and not running.

No words were spoken, Bondan remained silent waiting for Rania to speak. But all I heard was a slow cry. Rania changed the position of her embrace, her hand that was originally on Bondan's neck, she moved it to his waist, then cried back in his chest.

Bondan lets her, she just rubs Rania's hair so she feels calmer.

Adit had just come from his job, on the doorstep he was about to call out to his brother. But she undoes her intentions when she sees Bondan standing around hugging her.

Ms. Vera also gave the code so she wouldn't say anything. Adit smiled happily, Bondan could go home to accompany his brother.

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Yudi prepares to visit Rania. He prepared Rania's favorite food and also other foods that were good for her.

Although he thought that there was a lot of food his family could prepare there, Yudi still made it. She wanted her son to eat the dishes he made from his mother's stomach.

Not to forget he also prepared a box for Arumi. Hearing that her sister was pregnant, Yudi was very grateful. He promised himself that he would not do anything that would make the people he loved suffer. She would accept all of Rania's decisions as long as it was good for her son.

Finished cooking, Yudi is ready to leave for Ruby's house. He ran his bike and drove with his excitement.

Parking near the park, Yudi saw Vero was standing at the door to go to the office. He looked at Yudi without the slightest smile greeting him.

Yudi swallowed his saliva, he felt that his friendship with Vero was no longer able to return to the way it was. The friend who was always there for him was already very disappointed in him. But Yudi accepted everything, he also admitted his mistake. All for Arumi's sister.

"Hi Ver!" greet Yudi.

"Hi!" vero answered while opening the car door.

Vero stared at the box that Yudi was carrying. He understood Yudi was about to bring his homemade cooking to Arumi. She just passed by as Bu Min delivered the bag that Arumi had left for her.

Yudi stared at the cold departure of his friend. Then get in after Vero's car disappears at the turn of the road.

"Arumi there's a mom?" ask Yudi.

"There was den, again in his room was out of food" replied Bu Min.

"Have you eaten yet, Mom?" ask Yudi.

"Not yet den, I have told you to prepare breakfast for the same father non Dila aja. He said mom wanted to eat the shipment" explained Ms. Min.

Yudi smiled, he put the box on the table. The table has not been cleaned. Yudi thought, Dila hasn't come down and had breakfast. He did not ask again after the sound of footsteps Dila with heels was heard approaching the dining table.

Dila who was staring at Yudi from behind, walked slowly.

"Hi Yud!" sapa Dila who tried to restrain himself.

"Hi Dil! Wanna leave?" answer Yudi with a question.

"Yes, there is a morning meeting at the Mall" replied Dila.

"Hmm" replied Dila briefly.

Shortly after, Arumi comes after Bu Min tells her there is Yudi. Arumi still likes to sigh hard when she sees Yudi with Dila or just come to her house. It still feels too big a mistake Yudi and it is difficult to forgive him.

"Hey, here. These are all your favorite foods, eat fast. Dila is also trying it" said Yudi while welcoming the arrival of Arumi.

"I'm asking for a bit of luck, why is it this hour?" mooed Arumi in a soft voice.

"Nothing Rum, good dong so I can try his new cuisine Yudi" said Dila defending Yudi.

Arumi glanced, unable to accept directly the good attitude of Dila and Vero to Yudi. She was still on standby, completely traumatized by her brother's mistake.

Yudi was silent even though his hand prepared a plate of food for Arumi.

"A lot for him, that's one box not open?" tanya Dila who pointed at the box that was still closed on the table.

"It's for Rania, I'm going to her house after from here" Yudi replied.

"No need to go there, Rania has been paying attention to her food. Why sister to go there all" said Arumi who is still afraid Dila offended by Yudi's speech.

Dila glanced at Arumi, then turned to Yudi to see how Yudi's expression was being asked away from Rania.

"Just want to give food only time can not" said Yudi.

"No need, I am the one who does. Not that Bondan nginep at Pak Nurdin's house, you also want a discussion about the company in Ausi right Dil?" said Arumi diverting.

Yudi looked at Dila, he also thought that Bondan had returned and stayed at Pak Nurdin's house. That means that Ms. Vera has allowed Bondan to meet Rania.

"I can't go straight there, there's a morning meeting" Dila replied with a mouthful of food.

Yudi looked at Arumi who was trying to prevent her from meeting Rania.

"Take it, leave it to Miss Vera. I heard from Adit, Rania went with Bondan since morning" Dila added.

He finished his meal and stood up while wiping his mouth with a tissue.

"You leaving now?" ask Arumi.

"Hu uh, why?" ask Dila.

"This is just take it, stop by the Vero office for a bit. Tell me I'm ready. Hurry along!"

Arumi handed the intact box to Dila. Yudi reacted like he was not willing to see Arumi give it to Dila to be delivered to Vero's office. His hand was about to reach the box again, but Arumi parried his hand.

Dila stared gapingly at Arumi who insisted, as well as Yudi who was unwilling. But he agrees with Arumi and takes the box with him.

Without having rejected Arumi's wishes, the box was lost from Yudi's sight along with Dila's departure. Yudi sighed loudly while clasping Arumi's hand which was still holding her hand.

Yudi smiled and stared with an annoyed feeling at his sister.

"If you are no longer pregnant I have kicked Mi" Yudi spoke with his teeth tightly closed.

"Don't fuck around, sister, I've been really excited to see Dila want to sit with you at one table. Moreover, you easily said that you want to send food to Rania in front of her. Think big brother dong!" An irritated Arumi then stroked her stomach and muttered "Amit-amit".

Yudi grew increasingly upset reading his sister's lips, then pinched Arumi's arm with anxiety.

There are no more words that can make Arumi not worry about the feelings of each of them. Arumi's worries are ingrained, not just because she is pregnant. He had that ugly trait since childhood, since the abandonment of both of their parents.