I'm Not Him

47

Rania was stunned by the sky on her way back to Jakarta. The Atmajaya family flew on their private plane. Bondan was sitting next to two seats across the street staring at him. Rania was still silent even though Beni was so talkative and grasped and kissed her hand.

Dina who was sitting in front of Bondan continued to pay attention to her eyes which continued to look at Rania. He gets angry and yells and asks Bondan to stop staring at Rania. But what he hoped for, everything he dreamed of would never be delivered. Love and unfortunately will never reach Bondan who fortifies his heart with the face of Rania.

Dina put on headphones and closed her eyes and made herself comfortable and indifferent to Bondan.

Beni touched Rania's shoulder, she turned her head and rounded her eyes.

"Yes?" ask Rania.

Beni smiled touching Rania's cheek and approached about to kiss her, but Rania held Beni's chest.

"What do you want?" ask Rania wonder.

Beni frowned.

"Are you in no mood?" ask Beni.

Rania took off Beni's hand which continued to hold her.

"I want to drink" said Rania avoiding.

Beni tries to understand the situation of Rania's heart that is angry will return to Jakarta. He went to the toilet and momentarily calmed down a little annoyed by Rania's rejection in front of the others.

Rania did not care and looked back at the sky from the plane window. His feelings are mixed, there is a sense of pleasure in him who accepts all the feelings of having Bondan's heart, but there is a sense of guilt in Beni that even though there is no feeling of love for him, Beni is too close to him.

He also felt guilty for Dina who had long hoped for Bondan.

~No! Why is it like this? Why did I have to kiss her yesterday? I should have thought about Beni and Dina's feelings. At least I'm thinking about all this that can't happen. What I have in mind. Holy hooch! What the hell happened to me?~

Bondan looks at her, remembering the moment yesterday in her room. She smiled and felt Rania had accepted all her feelings. Now it just makes Beni and his mother know that he is not Dila, also understand and accept their relationship. He also had to try to get Beni to let go. Although it was difficult, he would keep trying so that he could be with Rania forever.

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Vero and Arumi get out of the cinema and quickly go home. Vero sped up, he had to arrive at the airport before Rania came. Arumi held on tight, she panicked when Vero said he had to leave quickly for important business.

Arriving in front of Arumi's house, Yudi was seen standing about to go out to meet Dila. Vero stopped and opened the helmet. He looked at Yudi sharply.

"We'll have to talk seriously later!" vero said firmly by pointing at Yudi's face.

Stunned, he blinked his eyes a few times.

Arumi got down and rushed to hand the helmet to her. Vero immediately left after storing his helmet.

"What's wrong with her? Why rush? Then why later? I'm not busy right now" asked Yudi.

"You know, he was in a hurry. He said something was important" replied Arumi.

Arumi's eyes lead Vero's departure until lost at the turn. Yudi was still accompanying her sister, waiting until she went up to her house.

"What's wrong?" ask Yudi.

"Ngga, just weird. It matters what makes him rush like that" replied Arumi.

"Udahlah, Vero is that right. You yourself said, in Bali is also like that. But he is still with you, not to another heart" Yudi comforted.

"Yes, not like you" said Arumi.

He left while hitting his brother's arm. Yudi looked at him with annoyance at his words.

Yudi put on his motorbike and went to see Dila. On the way, he thought about what Arumi said. Thought of guilt for Rania.

~I've accompanied him in difficult times. He has always been my comforter in sad times. Without touching, without saying many words, he had already shown his love. I should have waited for him. I should have been able to endure this longing so as not to vent it on Dila. Dila is not Rania. Clearly different. What have I done?~ Yudi wrestled to himself in his heart.

Arriving in front of the boarding house Dila, he saw a big smile from Dila who wore a white dress with a red flower motif. He stopped and opened his helmet. He returned Dila's smile with pleasure.

Dila ran over.

"You've been waiting for me?" ask Yudi.

"Yes, I'm really excited to go on a Sunday night date with you" said Dila.

Yudi opened his motorcycle seat and gave Dila a helmet to wear. They go downtown and enjoy their youth.

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Rania and Beni get off the plane. They used a public airstrip and exited the other door at the airport. Bondan and Dina as well Anita followed behind.

~Vero? I know exactly that's him. What the hell is he doing here?~ Bondan's heart.

Vero moved his head watching Rania and Beni getting into the car. Bondan notices him, he starts to get suspicious of Vero's behavior.

"What exactly is the relationship between them? Although Rania says she's just the old boss but I feel that their relationship is more than that" Bondan murmured.

"Yes sir?" ask the driver to think Bondan is talking to him.

"That guy, who wears a big bike. Has he been there a long time?" ask Bondan.

"Almost together with us sir, he first came as I remember" replied the driver.

Bondan thought and still felt strange. Dina came with Anita. Bondan raised both eyebrows.

"They used different cars" Dina said.

"I know" Bondan replied.

"They want to go somewhere first. That's what I want to tell you" Dina continued.

Bondan looked at Dina.

~where?~ ask Bondan's heart.

Bondan's car drove towards Ruby's house (Name given Ardiana Atmajaya for her mansion).

While Beni takes Rania to the city center to see something she wants to show.

"Can't it be tomorrow?" ask Rania.

"Can't! It's only there on Sunday night" Beni said.

"This is the place you visited with Dila?" ask Rania.

Beni smiled, feeling that Rania was expressing her jealousy. He held Rania's hand.

"Ngga. Would that be fun to Bar and Discotheque.? Momi never banned it either. He nodded when Dila asked for it. Very different from my stepfather's teachings. We are used to staying at home and spending time with our family. Or just a picnic in a place with a beautiful view" explained Beni.

~Anita makes Dila an uncontrollable girl~ said Rania's heart was upset.

"So don't be jealous. And I will never take you to a place that is not in accordance with your wishes" continued Beni.

Rania tries to smile in Beni's response, although it is actually very difficult to get rid of the guilt in front of Beni.

Arriving at a closed building. Beni invites Rania out of the car by opening the car door. He grabbed Beni's hand and held it.

"The building is closed. Why here?" ask Rania hesitating.

"Come on.believe in me" said Beni.

They walked to the side of the building and met a security there. Beni whispered then slipped a few pieces of money into his pocket. The man smiled and let them in through the side door.

Rania felt foreign to this kind of situation, she was very unhappy with the darkness of the place they passed by. The man turned on the switch for the elevator, then opened the elevator for them. Also accompany them in the elevator.

Rania's hand clasped Beni's hand even tighter, for fear of something bad happening, paranoid about the dark building situation. But when they reached the top floor, the security asked Beni to wait a few minutes until they finished after helping open the rooftop door with the key.

Rania walked down looking at her steps, but as she stepped forward, the light began to illuminate. Rania raised her face slowly staring at the surroundings.

Beni smiled, feeling that it had succeeded in making Rania amazed by the beautiful scenery that night. He held Rania's hand again.

Rania turned her eyes to Beni, not expecting the view of the city from the top of the building to be very beautiful. The lowest building presents a light flicker backup of the skyscrapers around it. The light is very beautiful, colorful lights really spoil the eye of the beholder.

Beni hugged Rania's waist and whispered in her ear.

"Beautiful?" ask Beni.

Rania smiled and nodded.

"Very" said Rania.

Rania releases Beni's embrace and walks towards the side of the building. The view is getting more beautiful because the road is crowded tonight this week. Beni followed and then stroked Rania's hair to make her taste. Rania refused it.

"Sorry! I can't" said Rania.

Beni was astonished, she was speechless looking at Rania. Anxiety raged in his heart. Ever since Rania's plane refused to kiss her. Although it was like that usually, but today Beni felt there was something else that Rania felt.