I'm Not Him

19

Beni looked at Dila who was still silent while driving. There was not a single word other than a smile on Doctor Brian after coming out of the examination room.

"What's wrong? What did Brian say?" ask Beni.

Rania glanced for a moment and tried to listen to Beni's question.

~Oh yes, I have been silent since last~ said Rania's heart.

"Ngga, it's just.now you're cured, so.." Rania's not done talking Beni has stepped on the brake and made Rania almost bounce to the front of the steering wheel of the car.

The sound of car tires squeaking due to the sudden brake was heard on the quiet residential street.

"Are you crazy!" shout Rania.

He stared intently at Beni's eyes, then became speechless after seeing her eyes turn red.

"Yes! I'm crazy, especially when I think that you're thinking of leaving me!" beni answered by holding onto Rania's wrist violently.

Rania panicked at Beni's frightening response to her.

Beni gets out of the car and pulls Dila out of the car. Rania resigned and accepted Beni's treatment because she had misspoken.

Rania is thrown into the car and Beni holds her body. His face was approaching Rania's.

"You can't leave me again! You belong to me, you can't go anywhere without me!" beni said clearly per he said.

Rania swallowed her saliva and blinked her eyes.

Beni held Dila's shoulder hard, until long ago Dila grimaced in pain. Beni saw tears about to fall on the tip of Dila's right eye. He shrugged his shoulders and apologized.

Rania sighed in relief from the pain and stuffy feeling of being pressed down by Beni's body that was bigger than her.

Beni felt guilty and stroked Dila's face with a worried face.

"You okay? I'm sorry, I..."

"I'm fine!" rania said gently fending off Beni's hand that was stroking her.

Rania tidied her hair and clothes and stood up from her backrest. Beni put up a hand that was about to hug her. But Rania walked to the car door and opened it.

Beni stared at him.

"Hurry in, your mom's gonna wait a long time!" rania said in a weak voice.

Beni quickly entered and again held Dila's hand to apologize to her.

"I'm sorry for this one more time, I promise I won't be rude to you again. Please Dil!" beni said begging.

Rania stared at the road in front of her.

"Next time.don't do this again. Maybe you really want to die, but I still want to stay alive. There are so many things I haven't done!" rania said without looking at her.

Beni took off Dila's hand as she started the car engine. Beni put on her seat belt and kept quiet. While Rania drove slowly towards Beni's house, which was only four blocks from there.

Arriving in front of the house, Rania got down and hurriedly opened the door for Beni. He smiled welcoming Beni down. Beni was amazed to see it. He came down with a feeling of wonder and confusion about Dila's attitude.

Then came the voice of Anita from the direction of the door of her house that opened earlier.

"You've come home? How's it? What's Brian Dil saying?" ask Anita.

Rania smiled and hooked her hand on Beni's arm.

"healthy! Beni is already well aunt, he can return to activities like the others. His hands were normal and his condition was also very healthy!" answer Rania.

Beni rounded her eyes looking at Dila's face that was crying and frightened now turned carefree and smiled sweetly.

Rania looked at Beni who looked astonished looking at her. But he kept smiling. They went in and prepared dinner together.

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Jakarta

Dila arrived at the large cemetery where her father and mother were buried. He walked slowly while carrying a bouquet of flowers and flowers that had been picked to sow there.

"Hi Ma'am, Hi Dad! long time no see. Dila went away too long huh? Yesterday I went to America, you know what Harvard University I used to say? Yes, I was there yesterday. Unfortunately I didn't pass Well, I failed. It turns out my brain didn't want to go to college there. I'm not going to go to college here" Dila said as she placed a bouquet of flowers and sowed other flowers on the two graves.

"Mom, Dila needs a mom hug today. I'm mutusin Beni Bu. He's very possessive. He seems to have a mental disorder, ma'am. During the time I was dating him, sometimes he was very affectionate with me, but sometimes he was rude if I glanced at other men. I was upset, we had a fight and I told him to kill himself if he couldn't live without me. Now Aunt Anita stopped sending money to Dila. Don't know why! Maybe Beni really committed suicide. Or he was already betrothed to another woman so our matchmaking that Aunt Anita was talking about was cancelled. That's the time, ma'am?"

As he spoke to himself, he soon realized that he was talking to himself without anyone hearing or answering. There were no tears on her cheeks.

~I'm talking to myself, am I going crazy?~ said Dila's heart stared sadly at the graves of both her parents.

Dila left the cemetery in a step that did not know where he was going. Up on a large road, he looked to the right and to the left. He looked for a taxi and soon found and called her.

The taxi approached, and Dila walked in and asked to drive her to the restaurant she saw from the navigation of a nearby mobile phone. The taxi was heading towards the restaurant that Dila mentioned.

Dila went down right in front of Vero's Spagheti restaurant. He came in and sat down in a chair by the window. An officer came to ask for his order.

"Please Miss, what message would you like?" asked Arumi the pretty officer at the restaurant.

Look through the menu and choose.

"Hmmm.I want a warm Carbonara and greentea!" dila Pinta.

Arumi recorded Dila's order and took out the menu paper. He returned to the kitchen and said the order for Dila's table.

Dila looked at the restaurant's decorations and admired it, then photographed it with her cell phone camera. Soon a man came and held Dila's hand.

"Sorry miss, you can't take pictures in the restaurant!" fajri said the restaurant manager.

Dila stared.

"What's? I just wanted to upload a photo and praise the decoration so that my friends are also interested in coming here" said Dila reasoned.

Fajri was about to explain to Dila about the inability to use a mobile phone to photograph there, but Vero the restaurant owner came and asked him about the situation he saw was uncomfortable.

"Can I help you Miss?" ask Vero.

Dila turned around and smiled looking at Vero.

"I want to promote this restaurant by photographing it and uploading it on my social media account, so that my friends are interested in coming. But your employees forbid me" Dila explained non-stop.

Vero was silent as he looked at Dila. He was reminded of Rania, but denied his assumption when he heard her different way of speaking. Moreover, its appearance was very much different.

Dila frowned seeing Vero who she thought was silent seeing her beauty.

"Hey..!" exclamation Dila.

He flicked his finger twice to make Vero sober.

Vero woke up and tried to remember Dila's words.

"Ouh sorry for the inconvenience. But it was I myself who did not allow the guests to take pictures and upload them. Again sorry!" answer Vero politely.

"But why?" ask Dila.

"There's no particular reason, we really don't allow it. Please enjoy your meal, ladies, excuse me!" said Vero when he saw Arumi coming to bring his Carbonara.

Vero codes Fajri to leave him to eat.

Dila was astonished by the attitude of the manager and the restaurant owner.

"Is there a job opening?" ask Dila.

Arumi looked at him while preparing her ordered dishes.

"The owner, right? I'm good at socializing the media, tell him this restaurant can be more crowded if I become his marketing manager" said Dila.

Arumi still looked at him and smiled.

"Well, I'll try!" said Arumi.

"Thank you!" said Dila.

He smiled and started eating.