I'm Not Him

18

Jakarta

Ryan followed Dila who stood up and walked towards the taxi he stopped. Dila whose ears are attached earphones do not hear or realize that he is being followed.

Sitting in the back seat of the driver, Dila stared at the streets as if she was getting the medicine of her longing for Jakarta.

"Two months in America, seemed to have left you years" he murmured.

The driver's eyes looked at him as he muttered. I look at him and smile. The taxi driver replied with a smile.

~but....where will I go? aunt Anita has stopped sending money. Hmmm I don't know what happened, did that stupid Beni really commit suicide? fuckin' hell! I just have the rest of my savings in my account. And stupidly me, my test failed. Die..dead this time you're Dila. If you don't have a new friend soon, you'll die as Dila~'s bum

Dila spoke to herself in her mind.

~first of all, I will meet my father and mother. I have not been to their home for a long time.I will buy a lot of flowers for them~ said his heart again.

His face was cheerful and excited.

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Australia

Rania is helping Beni put on her clothes. His hands will be checked today at the hospital. Beni's eyes stared at Dila's face which during her treatment was very soft and painstaking. He felt very strange because it was inversely proportional to Dila whom he knew first.

~Dila who used to, like to get up late in the morning, no matter the people around her have eaten or not, ignoring messages from others is also easily bored being at home, but she is different, she said, she is prettier if she is silent like this. I so want to make her peach-colored lips~ said Beni's heart.

Beni slowly brought her face closer to Dila. She tried to create a romantic atmosphere by holding her hand also stroking Dila's hair which slightly covered her face from her sight.

Rania fell silent as Beni touched her hands and slightly touched her ears. His eyes closed for a moment and then sighed. Beni felt Dila welcome her actions and was about to kiss her.

But Rania held Beni's lips and face with her palm. He pushed Beni's face until she was almost thrown into the bed. Beni closed her eyes and realized her feelings were wrong.

"Quick! Don't mess! Doctor Brian kept calling your mom from now on. He will definitely nag again" said Rania while taking Beni's dirty clothes and out of the room.

Beni bit her lips and smiled.

"Surprisingly, he changed completely. Being obedient is also difficult to touch. But why do I like it more, I don't want to take it off" Beni murmured.

Beni came out of her room, seeing that Dila had changed clothes but was only wearing sneakers. He looked at her and frowned.

Rania patted her eel and returned to her room replacing it with higheels. Only then did Beni smile and ask Dila's hand to be linked on her arm. However Dila walked in front of him in a hurry.

Beni sighed again.

"If this is mending fitting there is momi, brother Bondan or Dina. He's very considerate if there are any of them, but it's always like this if there isn't!" muttered Beni complaining about Dila's attitude.

Rania prepares the car and sees Beni already walking out. He opened the door for Beni, the back door. Beni fell silent and looked at him.

Rania fell silent and looked at her gaze.

"Why?" ask Rania wonder.

"Are you my girlfriend or a waiter anyway? Are you my driver today? I'm sitting in the back and you're sitting in front?" lamented Beni.

Rania clucked and smiled laughing at Beni's words.

"If you are in front, then your hands can not be held, hold my hands, caress my hair, really my hair, or just lean your head on my shoulders. Today I'm the one who is driving so.." explained Rania with her eyes round as if saying the conclusion from her eyes.

Beni looks really upset. He went in and sat down in the front seat and folded his hands on his chest.

"I won't bother you! Walk quickly! We are late" he said annoyed.

Rania smiled then walked to the steering chair. They also went to the hospital. Sure enough, during the trip Beni remained silent and still folded his hands on the chest.

Arriving at the hospital, Beni goes into the examination room. He was examined by a junior doctor at Doctor Brian's order. Then Rania is asked to talk to her in her study.

At first Rania thought that Doctor Brian would be chatty again about Beni's treatment. With great difficulty Rania studied physiotherapy to accelerate Beni's recovery.

But when she sees Bondan and Dina sitting in Doctor Brian's room, she gets a little weird.

~What's up? Ko they're here?~ ask his heart.

Bondan stands up, Doctor Brian goes out with Dina. Rania raised her eyebrows as if asking Bondan.

Bondan who understands Rania's confusion immediately gives his cellphone to Rania.

Rania's face changed looking happy to hear Babe Nurdin call her, but again sad because she was away from him.

"Call me, as long as Beni's in check. Beyond that it's going to be hard to talk about your persona" Bondan explained.

Rania hurriedly typed in Bu Yuni's mobile number and stuck the phone in her ear. With teary eyes he waited for his phone to be picked up.

"Hallo!" replied Bu Yuni.

Rania smiled and bit her lips, having difficulty speaking after hearing the voice of Bu Yuni that she missed. The voice that every time he would go to school until work always greeted him.

"Hallo!" once again Bu Yuni spoke.

Nurdin looked at Yuni who was picking up the phone and like there was no answer. He stood up and approached, his eyes glazed over. Yuni.

"There's no Bang!" yuni said.

Nurdin took his cell phone and spoke.

"It! This is Nia?" nurdin said softly.

Nurdin immediately found out the person who called was Rania. She couldn't say much to Yuni who was always hysterical when she heard herself crying.

Rania is crying and can't talk.

"When to go home, baby? Babe's home, Babe wants to see you"

Nurdin cried while talking, Yuni joined in tears looking at him.

Rania was still silent and could not speak. His chest felt tight to hear the voice of the person who loved him so much. Just a tear that unraveled, he was unable to even just greet her.

Rania's sobbing was heard by Nurdin, she grew teary-eyed and worried about him.

"Babe went to Ausi? Babe's gonna make some money to get back the money your mom took. Yes son yes!" wheedle Nurdin.

Rania stopped crying and wiped her tears. She was afraid that Nurdin would follow her, she immediately spoke by trying to hold back her tears.

"Nia again Be work, there is a contract that Nia must fulfill. Nia was taught Babe to be the one in charge. Nia can not go home before the completion of her contract" said Rania lying.

Nurdin closed his eyes when he heard the voice of the girl he had considered to be his own son. She was eager to hug him like the first time she saw him and carried him from Heru's hands. She cried.

"Originally Nia was fine there Babe was smiling. If Nia wants to go home to say Babe yes, later Babe followed to there, pick up Nia" he replied while holding back tears.

"Nia was fine, doain aja so that the work of Nia cepet completed. Nia also misses Babe equally good" said Rania.

He tried to make Nurdin calm and not worry too much about him. Soon Bondan opened the door slowly. He gave a code that Beni's check would be completed soon.

Rania wiped her tears and ended her conversation with Nurdin.

"Be, Nia worked first. Later if Nia's boss gives you time to call again, Nia will definitely call Babe again" promised Rania to Nurdin.

Without hearing Nurdin's answer, Rania hung up. Nurdin put the phone on the table weakly. Yuni looked at it and was really curious about what Rania said.

"What's he saying?" ask Yuni.

"She said she's fine!" nurdin.

Yuni rubbed her husband's shoulder trying to make him calmer.

"Pray for Be, hopefully Nia there is given health and her work is smooth" Yuni continued.

Nurdin nodded while crying a sigh. Yuni hugged her husband to calm him down more.

Rania rushed to straighten her face back with make up. Bondan looked at him with pity.

"Look, don't look like that! Just ordinary!" rania said as she went towards the examination room.

Bondan stared at her incessantly until Rania was lost from her sight.

Dina patted Bondan on the shoulder.

"Have it sorted? There was a meeting tonight, at a Chinese restaurant" Dina reminded.

Bondan looked at him and nodded. She walked slowly followed by Dina who walked slowly as well while checking her phone.