I'm Not Him

23

The sound of the clanking of spoons and forks hitting the plate sounded. This morning all breakfast at the table as Anita wishes.

Bondan's eyes did not escape the face of Rania who smiled sweetly and showed her cheerfulness as Dila.

Beni's attitude these few days showed progress. He has also started discussing the company with Anita and Bondan.

Dinah, as always, was obedient and diligent at work. He ate while browsing through the reports sent through his cell phone.

"I'm glad Ibenk has started asking about the company's development. But you have to start going to the office again to mature all your experiences dear" said Anita.

Beni looked at him while smiling.

"There's Dila now, she'll be with you forever, won't she?" said Anita.

He looked at Rania with a gaze and smile that in Rania's view was the face of the devil. Rania had to smile and say.

"Yes" answered Rania.

"For that, I'm going to do a rematch between you and Dila. Saturday night will be held your engagement party" continued Anita.

Rania looked at Anita in confusion, Beni touched her mother's hand and smiled. While Dina and Bondan are silent to Anita's words.

"The matchmaking of Dila and Beni had stopped because Dila had decided it. Now it should be put back together, help momi take care of it huh bang?" anita told Bondan.

Bondan stopped eating and stood up. Rania looked at him, she was afraid that Bondan would say something that would complicate her position.

Anita turns her eyes to Bondan.

"Why Bang?" tanyakanya.

Bondan was silent.

~Think I'm pulling your hand and taking you away from here. But I don't know what fear makes you stare as if asking me not to do anything. Is this Rania? Is it as hard to refuse? Once for your mother, now for whom?~ Bondan's heart.

"Do you mind?" ask Anita again.

"Why should you mind? Do you like Dila?" ask Beni.

Bondan gulps his saliva and looks at Beni and then glares.

Rania looked at him.

~For me, please don't say anything. I don't know how to get out of this situation, but please. Let it be like this~ said Rania in her heart.

Bondan sighed.

"I forgot that there was a meeting this morning, sorry to be surprised. I'm going mom!" answer Bondan.

Rania was relieved then shifted her eyes and returned to eating.

Dina was in a hurry to finish her meal and caught up with Bondan.

Anita smiles.

"Don't come home late! We have to talk for Saturday night" Anita said.

Bondan paused for a moment, then turned his head slightly.

"Yes mom!" answer Bondan.

Dina looked at him in confusion. No morning meetings for today. But Bondan was in such a hurry to leave.

Bondan got into the car after Dina. He was about to start the car but the frustration in his heart could not be contained. With all his might he beat up the car. Dina is shocked to see Bondan's response that scares her.

"What's wrong? You why?" ask Dina.

Dina's hand touched Bondan's shoulder and then rubbed his back.

Bondan was still gasping with anger. He's upset he can't talk freely with Rania. He was eager to ask the reason for the fear he saw in his eyes. Especially when she talks about their rematch

"Sister!" dina tried again.

"You know, his back, arms and hands were bruised. I asked him but he wouldn't say it. What did that jerk do to her? That's what I want to know" said Bondan.

Dina turned her hand from Bondan's shoulder to her own thigh. He is disappointed that Bondan is worried about Rania. He also felt they had given each other attention so Bondan knew bruises on Rania's body, especially in parts of the body that Rania had never shown.

"But he always said that he had a plan to get out. He told me to stay away from him. I was really upset that I didn't know anything" Bondan continued.

"Then let her do it herself" Dina said with a nonchalant expression.

Bondan was silent listening.

Bondan looked at her, feeling that Dina shouldn't have said that.

"Why do you sound so cranky?" ask Bondan wonder.

Dina sighed while staring at the car window.

~because I'm jealous, jealous because I like you so much, is that stupid of me? is that really what Rania said? she wouldn't understand my feelings if I never said it~ Dina's heart said.

"Go yourself! I still have business" said Dina.

He had not dared to express his feelings and chose to dodge. Dina got out of the car and walked towards the bus stop.

"Hey...! Where are you going?" exciting Bondan.

But Dina paid no heed, she just kept walking without looking over.

"Why him?" bondan Gumam.

He was astonished by Dina's attitude but still thought about Rania, still silently thinking about how to make Beni let go.

A long way to the bus stop. Dina wiped her tears that never subsided. Walking quite a distance, he had already arrived at the bus stop.

With sobs, a sign of disappointment in Bondan who actually likes women who have just been present in their lives for two months. Also disappointed in him who did not have the courage to express his feelings.

She misses her mother and father. There are moments where they wipe his tears when he complains about Bondan who always bothers him.

His mother smiled and said it was good for him. Bondan will be closer to him. They knew that Dina liked him.

~Yes, just like, mom and dad, Rania understands my feelings. I'm sure even if he can't force Bondan not to like him, he also deserves to be loved by everyone~ said Dina.

Her best heart was the upbringing of her parents. He was able to let go of what was not his without having to hold a grudge in his heart.

Dina was easily able to understand that Rania deserved the attention of many people around her. Even according to him Anita who is so cold to others is able to pour out affection on him.

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Bondan wakes up, he calls Dina. She couldn't let Dina who was already her best friend go alone.

Dina, who was already on the bus, picked up the phone from Bondan who had just contacted him.

"Yes, what's wrong?" answer Dina.

"What are you? Why are you suddenly upset and gone?" Bondan asked back.

"No, I'm fine. I just couldn't help thinking of how to help Rania, so I let you alone and thought" Dina replied in a soft voice.

"What's? Wah...you don't want to be my best friend anymore what? Why that?" Bondan protest.

"Sister! brother gave me too much work, even to think about my feelings, I didn't have time. So think for yourself. See you at the office" Dina said, then hung up.

Bondan stares at the phone because Dina disconnects the phone.

"Aish...he's why? Is he PMS? Haaah ..maybe!" bondan Gumam.

He started his car and went to the office.

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At the dining table.

Rania tidied the table with Hedi.

"Let's just let me!" said Hedi.

Rania smiled and sat back there. Stare blankly at the table and remember Anita's words that will make the match.

Rania squeezes her hand and bites her molars. His feelings were mixed with anger.

For a month with Beni it was not easy. The reason Rania accepted this job was because of her sympathy on Bondan's grounds. He wants to reunite his family.

Bondan is not the son of Anita, he just wants to get recognition from his mother who had never paid attention to him before. But since he brought Rania, Anita showed a little attention that made Bondan more happy and excited. The same is true of him who always wants to get recognition from his mother, Vera.

Now, after knowing Anita never loved Bondan at all, Rania wanted to tell Bondan to stop ignoring them. But Anita's threat made her not warty.

Rania remembered the first time she looked at this house. This is what she is about to face, a cruel woman who only wants to get her ex-husband's treasure for her son and herself.

Rania recalled, several times she had caught Anita talking on the phone and heard the man's orders to watch her.

~Who to watch? Then is Beni the only reason he threatened me to stay?~ ask Rania's heart.