I'm Not Him

41

"I want to go back to Jakarta"

Say Beni in the morning silence at the Atmajaya family dining table. Everyone stared at her, especially Anita who strongly felt her plan would not work.

"What?" ask Anita.

"I want to get married in Jakarta, we also have to visit the tomb of Dila's father and parents" Beni continued.

Rania didn't expect Beni to ask for such a thing. He asked in his own mind what Beni was planning.

Bondan sighed and put down his spoon. Dina looked at him and put the spoon, ready for Bondan to stand up and leave immediately.

"All right! I will take care of our return" said Bondan.

Anita smiled in her regret.

"What the fuck are you guys? What do you think is no longer happening?"

Anita's tone of voice rose because of her anger. Bondan felt guilty for making him angry. Another case with Beni who grinned and continued eating.

"Momy I'm sorry if I agreed to it right away, I just received an offer for a big project there. I'm sorry I haven't said the reason I agreed with Beni's request" Bondan explained, persuading his mother not to be angry.

Dina frowned. He felt he had never gotten news of the big project Bondan was talking about.

Anita stood up and left in annoyance. He went straight to his study. Rania looked at her disappearance.

~Obviously he does not want to go to Jakarta, Dila is there~ said the heart of Rania.

Rania continues to eat with Beni. These two people were stared at by Bondan and Dina. Like a person who had no taste anymore, continuing to eat in the middle of a conversation with one angry person also left the dining table.

Bondan follows Anita to persuade her mother not to get angry. Dina sighed, her hand came down and pinched the thigh of Rania who was still eating. He was curious about Rania's plan which had just been quiet. But Rania did not budge, Dina was upset and followed Bondan.

Bondan knocked on his mother's office door.

"Go, I don't want to be disturbed" Anita said.

She's trying to reach Ryan, her confidant and lover.

"Ok momi, I'll be back" said Bondan.

Anita continued to call Ryan and spoke.

"It's so hard to call you!" anita was angry.

"I'm busy!" answer Ryan.

"How busy? You're just with that stupid girl, aren't you?" said Anita.

"Hey.don't be jealous, this is just part of my disguise" Ryan said.

"Oh, now make a plan. Beni asks to return to Jakarta. I need a backup plan from the previous plan" Anita said.

"What's? Back to Jakarta!"

"Hu uh!"

"Can't you refuse or what?"

"Well, can't. I'm angry that Beni doesn't care. The bastard doesn't care at all"

"Alright, I'll look for another plan. I hung up on him. Dah baby!"

Anita nodded and did not answer Ryan's closing greeting.

While Ryan with a body that was without clothes, was covering Nuri who was sleeping beside him with a blanket. She also stroked Nuri's hair gently then kissed her forehead.

While outside Anita's study, Beni was standing right behind the door with her ears pressed against the door, hearing Anita's words that made her eyes cry.

Beni walked slowly down the stairs. Rania who was about to go to the room, saw him.

~Why him?~ ask Rania's heart.

Rania followed him curiously as well for fear of something happening to her. But Beni realized his presence behind. He stopped at the door of the room he had opened. Rania stopped and looked at him in surprise.

Beni turned around and pulled Rania suddenly. Rania was interested and went into the room with him. Beni looked at him, Rania saw Beni's eyes red and watery.

"Why? Why are you crying?" ask Rania worried.

Beni was silent unmoved, Rania approached and hugged her. Beni fell silent and accepted his embrace.

"Why? What was? What makes you cry?" asked Rania in his arms

Beni came back crying, more broken and mixed with sobs. Rania is getting confused, she used to not be able to let Beni feel sad even a little because she was pretending to be Dila. But now he became used to it and could not let Beni be sad even if he only looked sad.

"It's okay, it's okay to tell me, I won't force it, but at least stop crying, I'm really worried" Rania said.

Rania took off her embrace and wiped away her tears.

"Yes already!" rania said with a smile trying to calm her down.

Beni stared at Rania's entire face feeling very grateful to be her fiance. How lucky he was to be able to get a woman with a sincere heart like him.

Sitting on the sofa for a few minutes with Beni who lays her head on Rania's lap. Beni wasn't crying, she didn't say what had happened. Rania just rubbed her head and let the other hand for Beni to hug.

Suddenly Beni sighed.

"I hear you always get bad treatment from your foster mother" said Beni.

Rania's eyes were rounded not expecting what she was asking. She even thought where Beni could know about her foster mother.

"How can you survive?" ask Beni again.

Rania was still silent and did not understand.

"I always felt very alone and it felt like the world wasn't on my side anymore. How can I survive the feeling that she is your mother?" continued Beni.

"Yes, because she is a mother. No matter how bad he treated me, he was the one who accepted me in the midst of the hardships he was going through. Do not throw or give me to others for any reason" answered Rania.

Beni smiled and tightly hugged Rania's hand.

"I'm lucky to meet and be your favorite right now" Beni said.

Rania smiled, she also felt she was used to all of Beni's behavior that was still unstable. But seeing the reason why he arrived like this was not because of Dila. He experienced this because he always got excessive rough treatment from his mother.

Knowing all that, Rania felt that she was still very much luckier than him. Vera's foster mother always treated her differently from her sister, but Vera always hugged her or just rubbed her head while she slept.

~What happened to you? She came back from the top, from the painting room or.don't-don't-don't she's from her mom's study! What happened, why did he become like this?~

"Don't think! Don't think of my reasons like this. I'm doing fine. It's much better when you're always with me" Beni said.

Rania.

"All right! I think you should get ready quickly because it's noon. You have to go to the office, right?" rania.

Beni woke up and looked at Rania then smiled.

"Thank you! I feel so much better now" Beni said.

He went to prepare and Rania went outside.