I'm Not Him

31

Vero arrived in Melbourne, looking at the clear sky that day. He took a deep breath and stuffed his bag into the trunk of the taxi he called.

Arriving at the hotel, he immediately cheked in and went into the hotel room and then laid his body on the bed.

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Rania is still busy with Beni's request. Although it was lighter than the request before her therapy, it still made her unable to move freely.

Beni kept wanting her to be next to him, like a child who wouldn't lose a toy. Sometimes Beni says something shocking, then she forgets it. Like the other day when she said that her feelings for Dila were never there if she didn't feel resentment for her brother. Now he's turned back into a possessive.

It would not be surprising for Rania if Beni suddenly changed. But the thing that makes Rania feel calmer is, Beni is less rude to him.

That afternoon everyone was home. Beni is painting in her study. Anita is busy calling people who still don't know who Rania is. Dina is helping Bondan finish the file that became PR yesterday. Rania is making tea for herself, after having Hedi deliver tea to each of them.

He drank his tea and sat down at the dining table facing the glass window that showed a beautiful view. His eyes stared deeply. Her thoughts focused on Anita's words asking someone she used to call to send some photos. He was still curious as to who he meant, why his heart did not calm down to hear all of his words.

Hedi delivers tea to Bondan and Dina who are still working. Bondan thinks that Rania is alone in the kitchen. She went.

"I want to get one more file" he told Dina.

Dina nodded and did the rest of her own work. Bondan hurriedly walked towards the kitchen. Rania was enjoying her tea and staring out the window.

Bondan looks towards Beni's stairs and room. He pretended to take sugar cubes for his tea. Rania sees it, she starts to sit uncomfortable because Bondan is there.

Rania is afraid that suddenly Beni, Anita or Dina come and think they are planning a meeting in the kitchen.

Bondan sees Rania a little awkward upon her arrival. They are like fugitives who are afraid of being caught by people.

"Wait!" bondan.

His hand wanted to reach the hand of Rania who was far away from him. He sat down in front of Rania and stirred her tea.

"How are you?" ask Bondan.

Rania looked at.

Something strange, they are one house, but difficult to talk with familiar and can not ask each other the news. Trying to keep Beni's heart, guarding Dina's heart also keeps Anita's evil gaze.

"Okay, much better!" rania replied with a smile.

Both of Rania's hands hugged her tea glass, as if awkwardly speaking and sitting in front of Bondan. Another when you first meet. Rania is even very unhappy with Bondan who forced her and pressured her on economic grounds.

Bondan smiled, he looked at Rania's entire face with a deep look. Seeing his face fresher, the sadness in his eyes was still there but fresher. Her lips were red, no longer pale.

"Yes, look from the smile on your face. You look better" said Bondan.

Rania lowered her gaze.

"You always prove all your words" said Bondan.

Rania was stunned to hear that.

"Give me a chance to prove my point" Bondan asked.

Rania looked at Bondan's face. Thinking what he had to say with what Bondan asked.

She remembers the moment Bondan hugged her tightly. Rubbed her hair and let herself lean for a while on her chest. Bondan's words were so softly heard in his ears. His whisper was still felt, making Rania look down and close her eyes for a moment.

"Again, just give me that chance" Bondan said once again.

Rania was still silent, she could not answer Bondan's request. The plan is still focused on Anita's mother. He still has to figure out what Anita meant by threatening her to stay. But can't tell Bondan because he's one of the men who was threatened.

Bondan stood up to see Beni from a distance coming towards them.

"I hope we can talk later. I'll send a message" Bondan said as he headed back to the kitchen.

~there must be someone else behind!~ heartfelt Rania.

Suddenly Beni called out to him.

"Darling!"

Rania's eyes were rounded, her body turned on Beni who was walking towards her. Rania smiled and thought to find a reason why Bondan was there.

"Momi said, today we are fitting clothes for our engagement this weekend" said Beni when he arrived at the seat near Rania.

Rania was still nervous, she did not dare to look towards the kitchen. His eyes only looked at Beni who was not looking in any other direction than Rania's cup.

"You still drinking?" asked Beni who then looked at him.

Beni's question made Rania wake up from her silence.

"Yes, still, even just starting" said Rania nervously.

Beni rubbed her hair and smiled.

"May I ask you something?" ask Beni.

Rania looked at him and raised both eyebrows in a gesture asking what she wanted.

"I want another glass!" said Beni.

Rania's eyes were getting rounder, she nodded slowly as if unsure then smiled and turned around.

~He doesn't exist? Where's she?~ ask his heart.

Bondan wasn't there. Rania who was worried that Beni would be angry because they were in one room, immediately felt relieved and asked where Bondan went.

But quickly, he readied the green tea that Beni had requested.

"You know, there will be a lot of important people coming later. Do not be nervous, some people from Jakarta also exist" said Beni.

Rania glanced at hearing the word Jakarta. His heart missed the city. Memories of struggling there.

"You miss Jakarta?" ask Beni.

Rania turned around carrying her teacup and walked over.

"No! I like it here" replied Rania.

Contrary to his heart, he said things that always did not match his heart.

Beni drank her tea and smiled at Rania's reply. His hand held Rania's hand and looked at her face.

"I like Dila now, always saying and behaving as I see fit. I like that" Beni said.

Rania was about to smile but felt too approving of Beni's words. He turned his face away and took off Beni's hand.

"I'll get ready, you can leave the cup in the sink, right? To facilitate the work of Hedi" Pinta Rania.

Beni was surprised by Dila's remarks which he considered very different from Dila whom he knew.

"Hmmm.." replied Beni.

Rania went to her room. But Beni was still speechless thinking about Dila's attitude and behavior that was different from the Dila he used to know.

~How did you change so drastically? What made you change?~ say heart Beni.