I'm Not Him

45

Rania tidied all the clothes to the suitcase. Some clothes are very comfortable for her. This time he thought about being himself, because Beni already knew everything. Unlike what he had imagined, when Beni found out everything, she was more dependent on his presence.

Rania recalled all the bitter and sweet memories in that place. Remember when I first met Beni in a very bad state. Now Beni is physically changed, he looks more refreshed and excited, although not knowing how her heart is, Rania believes in one thing, basically all humans are good.

Moments later, Bondan knocks on the door of his room which is already open. Rania looked up and stood up in surprise. Although Beni changed, but his jealousy towards Bondan even bigger. Rania is scared if she sees Bondan coming to see her.

Bondan sees the attitude of Rania who is now very guarding Beni's feelings. But he can't wait anymore.

"I'd like to talk!" bondan.

Bondan hints to come with him to his room upstairs. Rania is confused whether she should come or not. But his heart said he also wanted to talk to Bondan, because it had been a long time they just exchanged looks.

Rania followed. Bondan opens the door to her room and lets Rania in. Rania came in and sat down in the chair trying to act ordinary.

Bondan looked at him with a great longing. It felt like he was hugging Rania like he used to when he was hugging her in this room. But now Rania decided to take care of Beni's heart. Bondan could only look at him. He opened the closet and brought a box. Take her and put her on a table near Rania.

"What's that?" ask Rania.

~the box, similar to Anita's box in her study~ said Rania's heart.

"This is my childhood box, in my family everyone is made a box like this to store his childhood memories" Bondan explained.

~all people!~ Rania hesitate.

"This is.letters and some photos that my father gave me before he died. I opened it when I was 18. And right, it's a good time to understand the contents"

"What's the contents?" ask Rania flat.

Bondan sees Rania trying to act like a sister to him. Bondan doesn't like that attitude.

"It was about the girl I was supposed to be betrothed to" Bondan said.

Rania, who tried not to care and just looked at Bondan's table, became silent to Bondan's words.

Bondan sees Rania who is starting to seriously listen. He sat on his bed and put the box next to him.

"Dad even sent a picture of him who was 4 years old" said Bondan while staring at a photo.

~photo Dila, she stared at the photo of Dila. Yes, they should be together. I will try to unite them in Jakarta~ said Rania's heart with unanimous determination.

"You know? I just opened this again a few days ago when I decided to go back to Jakarta. And to my surprise, I even realized what I saw. The thing I missed"

Rania's eyes were round, curious about what Bondan had just realized.

"I believe that destiny exists. Destiny brought me to him and will unite me with him again" Bondan said with a smile.

Rania was astonished and did not understand. Bondan smiled at Rania's clueless face. He stood up and approached then placed the photo in front of Rania. Then he walked over and stopped facing the window and looked at the bright sun today.

Rania's eyes stared at the little girl's photo. His eyes were getting rounder, he really could not believe what he had seen. The little girl with long hair who was wearing a pink dress was holding a familiar hand to her. Although only part of the hand is visible, but he knows that it is the hand of his father Heru.

Rania was stunned staring at Bondan by the window.

~Daddy Bondan gave this? Means they...what is this? Why is it getting complicated? what exactly did they do to their daughter?~ heartfelt Rania.

"I was aware of the mark on the girl's chest, a mark that had not been seen in all this time, but I had seen it once" Bondan said, turning around.

Rania held her chest, understanding Bondan's words.

"Yes..that's you! The picture of the girl you gave me was you as a kid. And I'm happy with this reality" Bondan said.

Rania stood up and moved away from him. Bondan was surprised, he did not think Rania would stay away.

"Why? You don't like it? Don't we like each other? You must be smart, the real betrothed is me and you. The fate that brought you here despite the very annoying reason" asked Bondan as he grabbed Rania's hand.

Rania took off Bondan's grip.

Bondan is further astonished by Rania's attitude.

"Rania listen, you don't care about Beni. I'll find a way for him to let you go and let you go with me" Bondan said.

He drew closer to Rania and held onto Rania's face with both hands.

"This time don't sacrifice your feelings just for me, I will try to do my best so that we can be together" said Bondan.

Rania looks at him, she does have a love for Bondan. But he still doubted himself. He felt that by developing a sense of love it would only hurt many people. Dina, she loves Bondan so much. Beni who loves him very much and Dila, the woman he considers as the one who should be a match with Bondan.

Bondan looked at the face of Rania who was so close to him. Very close, after a few months it was even difficult to touch his hands. She brought her face closer and started touching Rania's lips with hers.

Bondan hesitates, fearing that Rania refuses her kiss. He just touched then backed back off. Rania still closed her eyes, Bondan felt that she also liked him, then went back to kissing and smelling him.

Rania dissolves in her feelings, she feels very fond of this moment. There was a comfortable and pleasant feeling while in Bondan's arms.

While mixing love in the form of a kiss, Rania holds Bondan's chest and holds herself back.

"I'm your sister's fiancee! We can't be like this" said Rania.

Bondan doesn't care, he still wants to be with Rania. She kissed him again and hugged Rania's waist tightly.

Rania can't resist her feelings anymore, she's getting more comfortable with Bondan.

Downstairs, the new Beni comes from outside looking for Rania to her room.

"Where's Rania? The clothes are not finished in the box" Beni murmured.

He was about to look for her upstairs, thinking Anita called him and threatened him back. Beni walked a little faster. But she stopped in the kitchen when she saw Rania standing by the window drinking.

Beni approached and with a smile she surprised Rania by directly hugging her from behind.

Rania is surprised, she thinks the one who hugs her is Bondan who still wants to be with her. He tried to take it off. But Beni kissed Rania's shoulder and made Rania close her eyes.

"I guess Momi asked you to go to her study again" Beni whispered in her ear.

Rania's eyes widened, she was relieved and did not expect that the one who hugged her was Beni. He turned around and looked at Beni who was smiling sweetly at him.

"You haven't finished tidying up your suitcase"

"I was out for a while, but I suddenly felt thirsty, so .. I came here, had a drink"

"Let's go to my room, help me get my clothes done" Beni asked.

Rania goes with him and helps tidy up all the clothes that Beni will bring. Beni excitedly said everything she wanted to do with Rania in Jakarta.

Rania just listened and folded her clothes. His heart and mind are still in Bondan's room, remembering all Bondan said.

"I didn't think it was you, but we met because I thought you looked like Dila. Destiny does have its own way to bring us together" said Bondan while hugging Rania from behind on the sofa in her room.

Rania just kept quiet, she hasn't told Bondan about her relationship with Dila as well as Vero. He also does not even know that Anita is obsessed with the fortune of the Subagja family and wants to get rid of everyone who hinders his plans. She doesn't even know that Beni already knows that she's not Dila but Rania.

Beni patted Rania on the shoulder which she realized was daydreaming.

"Why? What are you worried about?" ask Beni.

Rania looks at him in surprise, then looks for an excuse to make Beni unsuspecting, but Beni concludes herself.

"Because you're going to meet your mother and sister in a state of being Dila?" said Beni.

Beni holds Rania's hand and convinces her.

"Listen.I will make the situation better and announce to everyone that you are not Dila, but Rania Ramadhania. And I'm going to stay married to you" Beni said.