I'm Not a Wild Grass

A Clown (POV Laila)

"Why are you standing at the door?"

"Aargh!!" I spontaneously shouted, when I heard Jessika's greeting.

Know-how her barbie doll figure was already standing in front of the door and staring at me and Arline astonished.

Beside me, Arline immediately held back a laugh. While Jessika also smiled when she realized that I was just surprised by her making.

Jessika came to us and grabbed my arm and Arline's arm with each hand. So now I'm on Jessika's right. Arline is on his left.

The three of us entered the house directly to the big hall, where the party was held.

On the first step I entered, I was immediately faced with a crowd of people in beautiful colorful dresses.

As soon as my eyes finished scanning the entire room, I could breathe a sigh of relief. Thank goodness I didn't find Erlan anywhere.

'Maybe he's too busy, so didn't have time to come to this event?' terka I'm hopeful.

I really hope that I don't have to meet Erlan at tonight's show. It would have been very awkward for us to meet again, after such an unpleasant farewell at our last meeting.

I don't know. I also feel astonished. Even though before her I felt ordinary when I had to meet again with the men I rejected her love. So why does Erlan feel bad, huh?

Is it because we were both dating?

"I waited for you long enough at the door. So I had already given my gift to Aunt Ilmaya," Jessika said beside me.

At first glance I looked at Erlan's ex-fiance's face. And I realized that the expression of this woman beside me seemed normal when she half dragged me and Arline in her arms.

As if we were her bestie for a long time. Okay, Arline may indeed be her childhood friend. But I just got to know him a few minutes ago. So why is he also able to immediately familiarly address me?

I accidentally caught Arline's sight of me. And then I found the answer to my astonishment earlier through Arline's silent mouth movements.

'She was so,' obviously Arline's mouth was without a sound.

"Let's get you guys. I saw Auntie there. Nah! That's it!" Jessika said back as if Arline and I couldn't see Mama Ilmaya by themselves.

"Son, you finally arrived. Mama was worried in case you wouldn't come, La.." said Mama Ilmaya as she greeted me with a brief hug.

"Er.."

I'm shaking the horse. Feeling ashamed because of Mama Ilmaya's guess is almost going to happen if Arline did not pick me up this afternoon.

"Come here, Ma! Kan Arline had already picked up our beloved Non-Daughter this afternoon," continued Arline contain humor.

I'm just gonna get a glimpse of Erlan's twin. The one Arline responded with a victory cry. He felt so happy to be able to make me the target of his dark joke.

"Why won't Laila come, Auntie? He's Erlan's girlfriend. It was certain that he should come at an event like this!" Jessika doesn't know the condition.

For a moment the atmosphere became silent. I was struck back by the awkwardness of hearing other people's guesses about my identity as Erlan's boyfriend. We broke up and have not been in contact since a week ago.

But, with my current condition, it would be unethical to correct Jessika's statement. Because of that I decided to shut up and not respond.

I caught Arline's gaze again as if to say, 'why not refute Jessika's words?'

I didn't give a look at Arline's wonder. While I focused on watching Mama Ilmaya.

"Oh yeah. Of course your words are true, my dear Jess.."

"Tante didn't think you knew Laila, Jess?" Ask Mama Ilmaya. Maybe he was astonished to see Jessika's embrace on my left hand.

"Yes, Aunt. We had a chance to meet earlier outside," said Jessika with a friendly smile.

I don't know why all of a sudden I feel uncomfortable with Jessika's familiar attitude. So little by little, I tried to let go of my hand and then keep a little distance from him.

My pretext was to approach the table where food and drink were served, which was not far from where I was standing now.

"You thirsty, son? Eat and drink to your heart. Mama has prepared all your favorite dishes tonight! There's a hodgepodge too, La!" Mama Ira said no response to Jessika.

"Yes.. Mama."

Again I was a little awkward to greet Mama Ilmaya with our familiar call.

'Really do. Dating people who are in close contact with other people who are also familiar with me is really troublesome?' dumel me in my heart.

And, throughout the party, I decided to become a food-depleting team. Although my efforts must be repeatedly disturbed by the appearance of Jessika who several times brought her other female acquaintances to meet me.

Feeling like an attractive clown, I was annoyed by the actions of Jessika who so often recognized me as 'her boyfriend Erlan' with her female friends.

For a long time I was annoyed by it. I was astonished. Why can't Jessika let me enjoy the hodgepodge and other dishes in silence anyway?

Near me, Arlline laughed amusedly. Thankfully there was Arline who saved me several times from awkward situations when Jessika invited her comrades to meet me.

Sometimes Arline would ask me to move before Jessika got to where we were. Sometimes even Arline invites me to hide behind a crowd of men who are chatting.

Arline's last action almost put me in an uncomfortable situation. Because some of the young men who were huddling were interested and invited me to meet.

I was also getting ready to put up a fierce face. Which was immediately checked by Arline without feeling. Arline dragged me away from the flirtatious youths.

"Udah ah's. Tired of playing hide and seek continues with Jessika, Lin. He's not a beast anyway. Why should we run away from him anyway?" My omel was on Arline at the edge of the party room that there weren't too many people.

"What are you worried about, La? Known to many of Jessika's same people as 'her boyfriend' Erlan?" Ask Arline back with a seductive look.

"Yes very uncomfortable anyway. But just tell me we broke up. The problem is over, right?"

"Who broke up from who is La?"

"Amghhh!" Again I screamed in shock as Jessika appeared suddenly behind me.

Arline spontaneously laughed at me. Jessika gave me a warm smile.

But I don't feel warmed by Jessika's view of me. Because I found him again carrying several different girlfriends behind him.

I immediately made a guess for my fate that would return to being a clown that Jessika would show to her friends.

"You said about breaking up. Who broke up with who, La?" Jessika asked again.

For a moment, I was confused. Between having to state my true relationship with Erlan or not. But then my gaze was entangled by two beads of eyes staring at me sharply from across the room.

And I was entangled for a long time in the sight of two eyes that I so longed for.

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