I'm Not a Wild Grass

Heart Talk (POV Laila)

"If so, we'll get married tomorrow!" Bring Erlan to me.

I looked at Erlan's face. And I found earnestness and lust in the two stars of that young man. I finally answered.

"Pump! Later, I want to dowry a luxurious house for my Mama, one for me, one motor for my Mama, one for me, and. ah yes! One car for me too, like I need to take a long walk, so I'm not rained out and not overheated!" My sloth is long.

Replace Erlan who was agape when she heard my reply just now.

"Ehh?? You really do it in the first place, La? No, think about it. I got married!" Erlan was confused.

Without a shadow, I pinched my mouth again that pesky.

"Ouch!" Erlan was sick.

"You didn't think about it yourself! Get married already I want to play yo-yo!" My omel to Erlan.

And I returned pinching to Erlan's arms and waist. So he was a little confused because of the limited space in the car.

"Admend it! Forgive La!" Erlan. While I didn't heed her whining.

I am so worried about the man in front of me.

'Why the hell, all guys love ngajak marriage without babibu lag!' my mind then remembered the moment when Kiyano who also invited me to get married suddenly.

Remembering about Kiyano, I just froze. My heart felt again and again. Because that longing came back and stifled my heart.

"La? Laila?.."

Erlan's voice slowly entered into my eardrum. I also turned to her directly. But my vision was clouded by a clear crystal that slowly erupted and eventually spilled down and down both cheeks. Without being able to stop. Without being able to kulerai.

I suddenly cried too. Missing Kiyano.

Erlan looked very surprised, seeing me. But he was so swift and immediately took me into the chest embrace of his field.

"Huu.uu..uu.."

"Cup.cup.cup..I'm here, La. I'm here." Erlan said trying to calm me down.

I still keep crying. To make me angry at myself.

'Why should I remember Kiyano?! Why can't I erase her name from my memory?! And why is my heart still moved for her?! Damn me!' I'm mocking myself.

After about ten minutes of crying, I finally calmed down. At that time, I was still in Erlan's arms. And timidly, I detached myself from the chest of his field.

"Udah ok?" Erlan asked with an expression I could not read.

I hurriedly lowered my head while wiping the tear marks on my face with a tissue.

".. Want stories?" Ask Erlan back.

I'm weighing. Should I tell you about my crazy moment just now.

After some thought, maybe I should just keep this matter to myself. I think I still need some time to get used to my relationship with Erlan. It's possible that as time goes by, I can slowly forget about Kiyano and start loving Erlan to the fullest. I really wish it could happen.

I then shook slowly.

'Duh. How to mellow gini. I'm not PMS anymore! I guess soon it will be the date already.' I'm busy guessing it myself.

(PMS \= Pre Menstrual Syndrome, or symptoms before menstruation. The cause is due to hormonal changes during the menstrual cycle. Some of its symptoms such as, more emotional, the skin in certain parts becomes more sensitive, as well as the appearance of pain in the waist. All of these symptoms will go away in three to five days.)

"I guess what?" Erlan asked who seemed obviously curious.

"Ehem!" I cleared my throat first before answering Erlan's words just now.

"Don't play guessing, Lan. Let's go home yuk! It's late in the afternoon." I'm trying to shift the topic.

Erlan did not hurry to follow my instructions. He was still staring at me.

"La. I really hope we can be lovers who do not keep secrets for each other" said Erlan began his speech.

"I wish you could open your heart to me. So you no longer feel hesitant to say anything to me. Even though what you're about to say will hurt me, I'd be happier if you're honest with me, La.."

I'm stunned. I looked again at Erlan's face that looked so sincere looking at me now.

"After all, I told you, too, La. On top of any relationship, I'll still be your friend. So, say yes to your friend. What has made you so mega overcast like that?" Ask Erlan back.

I took my breath deep. Think carefully about Erlan's words just now. In the end, I needed someone to tell me. Although it would probably be very cruel if I said what worried my mind just now to Erlan.

I do not want to experience a relationship full of secrets, and know when the time comes I will even be dropped by the secret bomb later.

As has also been experienced by Mama who had been cheated by Papa first. Isn't Papa also secretive from Mama about another dream woman of hers?

"I. I remember Kiyano, Lan. I'm sorry.." I looked down, my heart feels heavy with my guilt for Erlan now.

Erlan was silent for a moment. Before I heard his voice return shortly after.

"Ohh.. the conch? I thought because of what you were crying, La. I already thought you suddenly the same curiosity debt rentenir the size of wahaha.. or the same keingetan quota status that has almost expired. or. ouch!"

I pinched Erlan's bucket mouth with anxiety. Can he still joke at a time like this?!

"Be serious, Lan!" My rebuke to Erlan.

"Yes, I'm serious! Okay. Okay. I'm two rius now. Hh.."

Erlan again let out a rough sigh. Threw my fingers until they were in the grasp of his hand. Then he rubbed my fingers quite gently.

My view also focused on the link between our fingers.

"I've thought something like this would happen, La. And I've prepared myself for things like this or even better things" Erlan said, confusing me.

"You mean, you already know that I'm going to cry bombay because of Ki." I stopped myself from mentioning Kiyano's name. I think it's good that I don't mention the man's name in front of Erlan anymore.

"Because of her?" I continue to say.

"U.huh, that's how it is."

"Could you do it? Don't tell me you're a psychic? Or paranormal? Or have extraordinary abilities like batman and superman?"

"And spiderman? Haha. Laila's.. Laila. Your imagination is real wild. Yes, not! I can tell because I know your personality, La.."

I looked at Erlan with a confused expression.

"What am I really doing?" Ask me to challenge.

"You are, even though your mouth is mercon, but your heart is bombay ouhai." said Erlan in the style of Lebay.

I just pat her shoulder with anxiety.

"So seriously, Lan!"

"Ehh, I'm serious, La! A thousand rius! Continues, even though your attitude is often rude, you are sensitive and attentive to the people you love. Like I'm now."

I raise my eyebrows towards Erlan.

"Oh yeah? I feel like you're mediocre, Lan!" I tried to challenge Erlan's words earlier.

"No, La. You are, secretly also attention loh same to me. I could just hang out. You don't know, Non?" Erlan lowered my cheek slowly.

"Gee! That is you are the kegeeran! You are basically a narcissus cornelius beringus!" Umpat me is getting stuck.

"Diamond! Started to show up his dirty chatter! Yes, no, La! I can't talk about the slobbery.it's still not old enough!" Seloroh Erlan is quite original.

"Damn it, you, Lan!" I'm grinning.

Erlan returned my snort. Before I finally say it again.

"You like to wipe my shirt collar without asking. Although your mouth is also nagging not clearly throughout the car," said Erlan still while grinning.

"You also like my negur who likes to eat chocolate. You said, mostly eating chocolate makes my health is not good. That was my favorite snack, La. But for your sake, I let go of Beb.." said Erlan while stylized lebay back.

"Dihih. Fear of her crazy you're contagious!" I pulled Erlan's shoulder away.

"Haish. Well. The point is, you pay attention to me La. And even if you still feel the same way about that man, I won't be angry with you. That means that I have to be even more intense to make you fall in love with me!" Erlan said so optimistically.

Then, Erlan turned on her car engine. While driving, he said again.

"So, what kind of food can make your heart bribe, La?" Erlan asked while raising both eyebrows.

I was grinning wide. You know, if Erlan's words from earlier were intended to comfort me.

'Thank you, Lan!' I said through the eyes.

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