I'm Not a Wild Grass

Conclusion (POV Laila)

A few days later, Kiyano called back. He asked permission to come to visit Mark and Nila. That was the request of her daughter, Lala.

With pleasure, I welcome his request. And, to eliminate my bad taste towards Bella, to Kiyano I said also to invite her and her wife to my house. It doesn't taste good if only he and Lala play in my house.

In fact, I am a widow. What does the world say, if my house continues to be visited by men who have married regularly? Especially with her daughter. Could-could be guessed actor again will be me later!

However, Kiyano's reply to my invitation even made me very surprised.

"Bella died, La, about five years ago." replied Kiyano in a sad tone.

"..."

For a moment, I let the phone connection between us be quiet.

"Bella's dead, too, Kiy?" Ask me again to make sure my hearing is not wrong.

"Yes. He's sick" Kiyano replied again.

I'm stunned. Then I remembered the last time I met that woman. At Arline's wedding.

Bella suddenly fainted. I suspect that Bella might have been sick by then.

"I'm in mourning." I said awkwardly.

Didn't expect that I would be this late knowing the status of Kiyano's widower. Just like Kiyano who was also agape when late to know about Erlan who was also long gone.

Of death, no one can know except Allah 'azza wajalla.

"Thank you... It'sit's okay. That was a long time ago too," Kiyano said later.

"Lala must have been very small when Bella.." I couldn't go on with my words. It feels too hard to talk about death and death. But my mouth even slipped saying things related to him again and again.

"Yes. It was only a year ago that we adopted Lala. So I was pretty shocked too. Because of this I have been moving cities for the last few years. Ye know? Make it change the atmosphere." said Kiyano reasoned.

In my heart I was shocked to learn the fact that Lala was Kiyano and Bella's foster child. I thought Lala was her second child. Wanting to ask about Lala, it felt unethical. So I skipped that part. And continue to comment on other things.

"Hmm. I can understand that. Sometimes we do need an escape right let the head not explode because of facing problems in life," I slightly insinuated Kiyano for his actions that approached me when he was still a husband with Bella.

And Kiyano understood the direction of my conversation. In a hurry, I heard Kiyano's voice hunting my lines over the phone that night.

"I didn't take you as a runaway, La! I really didn't expect to like you either." Kiyano said in a hurry.

"Yes. But your status at that time will still be Bella's husband!" I'm mendumel. And I immediately regretted. I was very aware that I was still vengeful because of his actions.

The phone call became quiet again. Until then Kiyano returned who started talks between us.

"Legardless of state, yes. I'm still Bella's husband. But legally religious, we were really separated at that time, La. I've never been two in anyone in my short life. Not you. Not Bella, either" Kiyano said in earnest.

"But the ends you refer to again, right?" My comment again is a release. And I immediately patted my mouth that somehow so often slipped every time I talked to Kiyano again.

"Well, yeah, that's true."

"That's because you keep rejecting me, isn't it, La? I was honest with you about my relationship with Bella. But you don't believe it and instead choose Erlan!" I heard Kiyano mumbled later.

"Because Erlan is good! He's very, very good at treating me!" I mean it anyway.

"Much better than my attitude toward you?" Ask Kiyano.

"Yes! Sure is!" Answer me spontaneously.

"..."

"..."

I became awkward with our conversation which began to lead into the realm of feeling. I regret that we were able to discuss this first.

"Hh. why yes. Even though Erlan was gone, she could still make me jealous" Kiyano suddenly commented.

"...what?! What did you say just now, Kiy?!" I can't believe what I just heard.

Kiyano is jealous of Erlan? This time?!

"Well, well, don't talk about it anymore. It's free if I tell you my feelings right now. You will definitely reject me. Aren't you?" Kiyano said so originally.

Without realizing it, my face was hot. Upset right by Kiyano's reckless remarks!

I'd almost disconnect our phone, if I didn't remember anything.

"Yeah, tomorrow so going to the house? Don't be too late. The kids want me to take her to her grandma's house about her, "I said.

"That's. Ja. We will be there early in the morning. What's six o'clock?" Ask Kiyano.

"Found up Kiy! Have a quick breakfast!"

And our conversation continued until a dozen minutes later. I didn't realize that Kiyano and I were so late in our conversation. It's like going back in time. When we were together again.

Remembering our togetherness, I hurriedly brushed off the thought. I reaffirmed my heart again. If we were just friends now. Apart from the status of widows and also widows that we hold. In the meantime, I'm going to think of Kiyano as a friend.

Remembering my past with him, I felt very grateful.

Because I managed to educate myself not to be the actor who ruined Kiyano and Bella's marriage.

I managed to build my own relationship with Erlan. Creating my own family happiness with Mark and Nila now. With my own hands and effort through my La Luna boutique.

I managed to become like a tree that lived on the ground and my own roots. And it does not become like weeds that often grow origin and damage the yard of the house owned by others.

Yep. I am not a bully in anyone's life. Because I'm not a weed.

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