I'm Not a Wild Grass

Alleged (POV Laila)

I showed Mark who was still asleep in his bed, to Lala. Only then, in a whispering voice, did I invite the girl back to where her father was.

Justright. Kiyano, I found it still standing waiting outside the house. He looked around my house with an interested look.

"Are you satisfied to see it?" I rebuked him with a little jutek.

I don't know. Faced with Kiyano again, I even remembered what happened between us. And that was enough to upset my heart.

Looking at Kiyano, I was reminded of the stupidest mistake of my entire life. And all of that was caused by Kiyano's dishonesty towards me once.

"Sorrys. Your home is so beautiful. I like it" Kiyano said, looking embarrassed.

His expression instantly softened as he stared at his daughter.

"It's Mark, isn't it, honey? We go home yuk!" Take Kiyano to Lala.

Lala nodded. And walked over to Kiyano.

"Thank you, La. I'd like to give permission to Lala to nengokin Mark" Kiyano added before getting into his car.

"Yes. It's no big deal" I replied indifferently.

Before closing the car door, Kiyano spoke to me again.

"You look different to that veil. Ye... Worth wearing it" Kiyano said.

I didn't say anything. I didn't even wait for Kiyano's car to disappear, to get back inside the house.

As soon as I got back to Mark's room, it turned out that Azki was there.

"Oh! I thought you were home Az? You weren't there.." I said hello to Azki.

On the bed, Mark had woken up. But the son looked still limp and more reserved.

I walked up to Mark, and I touched his forehead. Thank goodness the heat has subsided.

"Alhamdulillah.His fever has gone down.." I muttered softly.

"So I talked to Om Ulum, Ma'am La, in the backyard. The park at the back is very nice. So I asked her for tips for the garden in my house later," Azki added.

I was interested in Azki's words just now. Because to my knowledge, Azki is currently living in a medium-sized flat. In that flat there's no room for parking his car. So often Azki joined the car park at his friend's house.

"Oh! You have plans to buy a house, Az?" I asked.

"Yes, Mother. Thank God, my savings are about enough to buy a medium-sized house."

"Alhamdulillah. You can buy his house first. Later just find the person who takes care of the house yes," said I am friendly.

Azki said nothing. He even looked at me closely. Until when I started to feel bored with his gaze, Azki then turned her eyes back to Mark.

"Like his champ Papa is about to heal. Well then, Papa comes home first huh, champ!" Azki says goodbye to Mark.

However, Azki has not been able to turn around, his shirt has been held by my son.

With a slightly hoarse voice, Mark spoke.

"Mark wants to be with Nila, Pa.." Please Mark.

Deg. Deg. The rain soaked my heart instantly. Must be that Mark misses Nila so much at this time that he expresses his deepest desire to Azki.

"Mark.." I was just about to start talking, when Azki gestured me to hand this situation over to her.

Azki then sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Mark fixedly. In a soft voice, Azki said.

"Yes. Mark will play again with Nila. But Mark had to keep Mark's promise with Papa. Okay?" Azki.

With hesitation, Mark nodded his head.

"Yes, Pa.."

"good. Now, Mark eats porridge first huh, honey. Let Mark get well soon. I can play with Nila again. Ok?"

"OK.."

Azki also left the room. I actually wanted to talk to Azki first. But first I said to Mark.

"Take some porridge for you first, baby. Mark fell asleep first," I gave him a suggestion.

With a hasty step, I chased after Azki. Thank goodness Azki hadn't gotten into her car when I found her in front of the house.

"Az! Waita minute!" I'll call Azki.

Azki stopped walking, then turned to face me.

"Yes, Ma'am La?"

I noticed Azki's simple facial features with both eyes framed by round glasses. Against Erlan's best friend, I still feel awkward even today. I have interacted with him quite often.

"This.. Can you please check the cctv in ragunan once again? Wear your own way, Az. Do you know anything about computers?" I again asked Azki for help.

"I'm sorry if you take more nicotine," I said in a hurry.

Azki looked at me in silence for a moment. Then he slowly said.

"I checked it out last night, Ma'am. But it looks like his cctv has indeed been broken from a long time ago. And I didn't manage to find Nila's profile on every cctv. Sorry.." Azki said with a sorry look.

My hopes are dashed too. Though earlier I thought that Azki's ability in the field of IT can help me find Nila. But apparently..

"Prejudice is fine, Ma'am. May Nila be with good people." Azki added.

"If indeed Nila was with a good person, then why has there been no report found Nila, Az? I was confused..how can I answer Mark's questions about Nila? If only that time I was not careless and let Nila wait alone outside the WC.." I returned wondering.

Unfortunately, I can't imagine for long. Because my sobs are starting to re-spread in my chest.

"Hiks.. Tilapia.. Oh Allah...Where are you son?.." I held back sobs while closing my eyes.

Rethinking the fate of my daughter who is nowhere to be.

Soon, someone rubbed my head slowly. I know that Azki is the one who is currently trying to calm me in her own way.

He knows that I might not be willing to be embraced by him. Because the embrace between two people who are not the mahram of his law is haram. Sins.

I took a few deep breaths. Until that calmness swept back this heart. After feeling calmer, I just lifted my face up, looking at Azki.

I felt ashamed, especially when I caught the pityful gazes of the two beads that belonged to the man before me.

"I'm sorry I just got out of control." I confessed shyly.

"It's okay La. It's natural. I'm also worried about the children if they get treated the same people who are not right" Azki added.

After a while, Azki suddenly asked.

"So that's Ma'am La's friend or who is it?" Ask Azki.

"uh? Who, Az?" Ask me confused.

"That's Ma'am, who took a small child in a black car," Azki explained.

"Oh! Kiyano you mean? What's the matter, Az? Ja. He used to be the boss of me and Erlan" I said covering up some of the facts.

Yep. Kiyano has been my boss and Erlan. But Kiyano was also my lover a few years ago..

I think it's good if I don't say much about Kiyano. Besides, what's the need? He is just my past. Thought I was.

"Was he.. ever been a close friend of Ma'am La, back then? Sorry, if my question is presumptuous, ma'am." said Azki in a hurry.

I was silent and didn't know what to answer. But Azki's remarks then have given rise to a new conjecture that I should think carefully about.

"It looks like he still likes La. He was wondering who I am for Ma'am. I think it's a little strange, too. Because all of a sudden he showed up when Nila disappeared. I just want to know, what between Ma'am La and the guy was there ever a grudge or something like that? If so then it could be the loss of Nila this has something to do with. ah, but this is just my guess. It could also be that I was wrong," Azki said at length.

I was stunned to listen to the sentence after sentence that Azki had just spoken. After I thought carefully, then my logic set a conclusion that I asked Azki at that time.

"What do you mean... kiyano who has.. kidnapped Nila, Az?!"

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