I'm Not a Wild Grass

Getting Married Again (POV Laila)

"Heyy! From earlier taught to talk even lag. Sleepy or why, brother?" I was made aware by the Arline toyoran on my shoulder.

Right now the kids and I are at Mama Ilmaya's house. We went straight to my in-laws' house after Kiyano and Lala came home.

I still remember my reunion with Kiyano at my house earlier.

A meeting that made me feel uncomfortable. I don't know because of what.

I looked at my feelings for Kiyano. And strangely, my mind always reminds me also to the figure of the late Erlan.

I obviously love Erlan very much. While my feelings towards Kiyano. Maybe my mind just had a moment of nostalgia, earlier.

To me, Kiyano is the past I have left behind. And all I can see in my future right now is that I'm living happily with Mark and Nila.

"What did you say, Lin? Sorry. Again not focused," I apologized to Arline.

"Is there a problem, brother, at the boutique?" Ask Arline to care.

"Nothing. Quite happy instead," I said mysteriously.

"Happy why? His romances will get a deal!" Seloroh Arline's.

"Yes, you who have become CEO in an international scale company still take a transaction to me who is just a small entrepreneur anyway? Not ashamed of what!" My jokes flow naturally.

"There is no condition that someone must not be able to first, so that they can get a treaty. Especially girls. If you can the gretesong feel can get a jackpot yes! Ahaha!"

"That's you, Lin! I'm not really yeah."

"Yep..! who used to be so happy to collect free food coupons at restaurants. Do you have a rich husband?" Arline LEDEK.

Being reminded of my past, I wanted to smile.

And again I was reminded of my time with Erlan. Unknowingly, I breathed out violently.

Arline quick response. He just commented.

"You're still a lot of the same old Erlan, huh, La?"

I'm stunned.

Arline hasn't called my name in a while. For some reason, since Erlan's departure, Arline instead called me with the call 'Sister'.

Though before her, even though I was married to her twin sister, Arline still always called me Laila.

"Well, every once in a while" I replied.

Arline was silent.

"Same. Sometimes I'm just like him too. It still feels like a dream. Didn't know she was leaving so soon."

I didn't say anything. We both chose to enjoy the afternoon breeze on the front porch of the current house. While my two ishtars were looking at the fish in the back pond with Oma and her Opa.

"You ever thought about getting married again, didn't you, La?" Ask Arline suddenly.

"uh? Who wants to get married again, Line? Ask me to make sure because I was back daydreaming for a moment.

"Yes you. I'm actually a little unwilling too if you forget Erlan and remarry with another guy. But, after I thought carefully, you might be as good as getting married again, La," Arline suggested.

"The love of children, La. They're like he needs a Papa figure," Arline commented.

And my mind floated back to some occasions when Nila said about her desire to have Papa.

Remembering that, my heart became worried. Is my reluctance to have a serious relationship with a man again, thinking it has a good or bad effect on both my children?

"If you're ready, it's okay, La. Just get married again. There is a candidate who I think is suitable for you" said Arline with a slanted smile.

I frowned, confused.

"Who do you mean, Lin?" Ask me.

"Lha that.. Papa Azki's. I think he's interested in you too, La."

"Ngaco you, Lin! Azki and I are just friends!" I dodged.

"Yes living in a series is easy. From friends, to couples. That's what a bother is!"

"Hhhh, he's younger than me, Lin," I reasoned.

"The money is the same as Erlan. But you wanted to be with my brother, La."

"But once me and Erlan were both single, Line.while now I've been.."

"Jendes?" Connect Arline, cut my words.

"What's the matter of his widow marrying Brondong, La? Not his apostle we are also single yes marriage first wife first?" Arline.

Is correct. It was true what Arline said. His Majesty was married at the age of 25. He who is still single then tabled his choice to accept the application from Mother Khadijah radiyallahu 'anha.

Khadijah ra's mother. She was a widow of two children who were also famous as wealthy merchants in the tribe of Quraysh at that time.

Prophet Muhammad saw.received proposal of Mother Khadijah ra. without seeing the status of marriage or age. But more to the morals of Mother Khadijah is also known to be so generous, honest and far from obedience in her time.

"Hhh. don't know, Line. I haven't thought about going that way. Right now I'm still focusing on the happiness of the kids and the progress of La Luna's boutiques. Romance business I'm not interested in right now."

Just finished saying my reluctance about marriage. Suddenly a face belonging to Kiyano flashed into my mind.

The Blitz..

There is no taste exactly like before. Only a hint of ecstatic feeling rushed me to the edge.

'Me and Kiyano have long since ended.again, he already has Lala and also Bella at this time.' My inner self reminds me of that one indisputable fact.

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At night, I stayed at Mama Ilmaya's house. I used to stay in my old room with Erlan quite often. Even though my bedmate isn't Erlan anymore. Except Mark and Nila.

Even so, tonight somehow the children want to sleep with Oma and her Opa. So inevitably I also ended up having to sleep alone in that spacious room.

The cold night, and the moonlight lighting that poured in through the big glass that led out, led me into a dream that I really hoped for.

Yep. I dreamed of Erlan on this cold night.

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