I'm Not a Wild Grass

Friends, Friends and Lover (POV Laila)

"Yesterday, I met Erlan, La."

I stopped chewing the chicken noodles in my mouth when I heard Nindi's words just now.

Today I had lunch in the cafeteria with Nindi. Because Kiyano had to cross check out of the office. Actually, I feel a bit bad, too, because I have not spent quality time with Nindi for a long time.

And, after I looked carefully, it seemed like Nindi looked thinner lately.

"Yes? Continues to?" I went back to chewing chicken noodles.

Nindi's statement about Erlan did not cause any more feelings in my heart. I don't know. Maybe it was because a long time had passed without me seeing the young man again.

Nindi seemed to be watching me closely. And I caught an unusual look in my friend's eyes. But before I could decipher his gaze, Nindi had already rushed down and ate her meatballs again.

"He looked thinner" Nindi explained.

"You're the same, Nin. You seem a little bit too shabby. Do you have any problems?" Ask me for attention.

Nindi was silent when she heard my question. But he did not lift his eyes from the bowl of meatballs when he greeted me.

"Yes? It's just your feeling, La. We have also been able to talk for a long time. Ever since you dated the boss, you never joined an OB children's show again. So you might be pangling to see me now."

Deg.

Again, the guilt appeared in my heart.

Nindi's statement has a point. Since seriousing my relationship with Kiyano, I have rarely interacted with my other OB friends.

In the morning, I used to joke around with Kiyano in the car. So when work time was about to start, I ran to the base camp of the OB to change clothes and finish all my work on that day.

I also ate lunch more and spent my break time in Kiyano's office.

When I came home I was in a hurry because I didn't want to make Kiyano wait a long time. I only had the most time to exchange greetings with my other OB colleagues every time we met on the street. It's been. That was all my interactions with my co-workers.

In a hurry I grabbed the hand of Nindi who was seen playing meatballs on her bowl.

"I'm sorry, Nin. Please don't think I'm being arrogant, okay? I'm just in a closer approach and introduction phase with Kiyano at the moment. So I might be kind of ignoring you and the other friends at base camp. I admit I was wrong, Nin.." I said honestly.

At first Nindi did not rush to tell me. That attitude made me feel anxious if it was true that he considered me to be arrogant, now. But a moment later, he finally lifted his gaze from the meatball bowl and turned to look at me.

"Yes. It's okay, La. I can understand your situation right now."

Hearing Nindi's sentence earlier, I immediately heaved a sigh of relief. And I continued my eating activities.

"So, where did you meet Erlan yesterday, Nin?"

And the conversation continues.

We talked about Erlan and her current job. We were also discussing other things that are hits in the news at the office right now. And a few other things we discussed as well.

Even so, I was able to catch something different from Nindi's attitude towards me. Because now he tends to be more quiet and does not talk first if I do not ask him.

In the end, I decided to change my attitude again. However, my world is not just about Kiyano, Kiyano, and Kiyano.

I need others to be my friends, too. Because of that, I should be able to act as a good friend to my friends.

Because a friend in my opinion is a need that is absolutely must be owned by everyone.

Friends are people who are ready to accompany when we are rejoicing or grieving. A friend is also someone who can always be a fair judge when we face a problem.

Not like a lover. Because lovers sometimes can not always be objective. Because the opinions and suggestions of a lover will generally be influenced by the feelings of love towards his lover. The important thing is that her lover is happy, all assumptions can be justified.

There are not many lovers who can also be a friend to someone. What I observe from people around me is that a lover is more often just a place to combine love.

A lover cannot be a place to confide in about everything, especially if it is related to the opposite sex. It could be that the relationship even becomes stretched or there is a dispute between the two that is ignited by the fire of jealousy.

My relationship with Kiyano itself belongs to the relationship that is like the last condition I mentioned earlier.

I still can't tell Kiyano much about me. Especially about my other boyfriend.

More often when I start a story about another man, Kiyano immediately put on a wary face and gave me a suspicious look.

I was really made uncomfortable by his obsessive attitude.

I once reprimanded Kiyano for his obsessive attitude. But the answer did not satisfy my heart.

Kiyano just put his shoulders together and said.

"Jealous is my mark Lo, La. So please, Lo don't forbid me to be jealous of other Lo's boy friends. If I'm not jealous, it's a sign that I don't feel the same way Lo. Want Lo go two-and-a-two with Lo's boy friend too, I won't care. Originally! That's like, La!" Kiyano said in a hurry as she looked at my expression that started to frown.

So the point is, I need to start reorganizing the way I use my time to interact with the people around me. Either with Kiyano, or with my other friends. So that I still have a healthy relationship with my lover and other friends.

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The day goes on.

I finally got back to being able to get along with some of my other OB colleagues. Now, I can have quality time not only with Kiyano, but also with other people around me.

I even have a new friend now. And she was Inda, the oriental beauty I had met a few days before.

Inda is a kind and friendly woman. A bit like Nindi, except for her silent and mysterious attitude that sometimes makes me feel a little uncomfortable.

But strangely, even though I sometimes feel uncomfortable when together with Inda, I actually also feel comfortable when talking to her. Strange right?

Hmm.it's hard to explain in detail. The point is, I feel like Inda is a good person. And I never limit my association with anyone based on their status or popularity. Because I'm happy to be friends with anyone.

There is never a saying that says, "friend anyone. But make only the best people to be your best friends."

And I hold that principle in interacting with all my friends. That said, the best friend I have right now is just Nunik. Because with him, I feel free to talk about anything. And I am also free to express or correct Nunik without having to fear that he will be angry or not. And so did Nunik for me.

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