I'm Not a Wild Grass

The Nightmare of Being Real (POV Laila)

"I'll order a Maryqueen chocolate later.."

"Which.I'm sleepy. Do we add to the holiday period just another day. Let me nengokin our kids again.."

"Which.you look more beautiful wearing a veil. I love her more and more.."

"Yang... later if dede utun his girl, we give the name Lanila huh? If our guy gives me the name Mark, but if two girls, the other one we give the name Erla. Her name was taken from the initials of the two of us, Yang.."

"I want us to have six kids, huh, Yang. Until we get old, our house will always be crowded with children. Thank you if you want to add, Yang.."

"Yang.. I really love you, Yang.. you, love me too, right?.."

"DORAL!!"

I woke up from the worst nightmare I've ever had in my entire life.

"Hah.hah.hah.." I took a deep breath.

Only then did I realize where I was at this time.A white room I often saw was in the hospital.

I'm trying to decipher past memories. About how I got to be in this foreign room. Until then an object held in my hand either since when did it answer all the questions in my mind at this time.

'Brown Maryqueen..'

"Erland!" I'm woken.

Wishing that what passed through my memory was just a nightmare. But the existence of a pack of Maryqueen chocolate in my hand threw my only hope at the reality.

"Erland!" I screamed my husband's name back in this silent white room.

My erlan.. My sun.. My love..

Her..

....

Flashback an hour before...

"I'll have Maryqueen's chocolate." Erlan asked me when I opened the car door.

"Maryqueen?"

"Yes. The red one." Erlan explained.

"OKAY. Is that all?"

"That's all. Thank you, Yang! Am I really in the car? You don't want me to anterin?" Erlan asked.

I looked at Erlan's face at a glance. There were two black bags under her eyes. I'm self-conscious. When last night my husband was busy rubbing my back so many times that I really have slept.

While I also often wake up to pee and drink. So inevitably Erlan will also wake up to wipe my back again.

"Udah is okay. You're here. Not bad you can sleep first while waiting for me BAB (Big Water Waste). Fifteen minutes maybe," I thought.

"Oh. Judekah. Be careful, dear."

"Yes.."

But, only then did my foot trace to the asphalt ground in front of the minimarket I was about to go to, Erlan called me back.

"Why..how do I want to be in your sun huh? Once upon a time, Yang..?" Pinta Erlan suddenly.

Because of the hurry and has been saved for BAB, I immediately granted my husband's request. Cup.

"Yes, Yang. It's heartburn on my stomach." I said as I walked away.

I did not look at Erlan anymore and just pointed my foot to the mini market to join the cover to the toilet.

About fifteen minutes later, I finished my wish. After that, I bought Erlan's order of Maryqueen chocolate.

Since I only bought one chocolate, I turned down the offer of a plastic bag from the cashier. So I just held the Maryqueen chocolate with my bare hands.

After paying, I rushed out of the minimarket.

From the doorstep of the minimarket, I could see a slumbering Erlan sleeping in front of the wheel of the car.

'It's really messy, Erlan. That side car glass is let open so. What if there are bad people who want to rob try?!' dumel me in my heart.

However, the incident that happened in the next second became the most terrible horror in my life.

On the big road, the streets looked deserted. There were not too many vehicles passing by that morning.

Therefore, when suddenly there was a container truck that drove from the opposite direction very quickly towards Erlan's car, I could immediately see it for some time.

"DORAL!!"

But my willingness to yell at Erlan to get out of the car to avoid the collision of the truck could not make my Erlan wake up from her sleep.

In the slow motion, I could see clearly, as the truck crashed into Erlan's car with a very powerful impact. Until making Erlan's car, along with Erlan in it, dragged backwards for several meters to the back.

Then the truck stopped when Erlan's car hit a large tree on the side of the road. Be finally Erlan's car sandwiched between the truck and the big tree.

"No!! ERLAN!!!"

And then my world darkened..

Flashback complete..

"Huuuu.. Erlan!!" I roared, shouting my husband's name.

I wish the accident was just my nightmare. But a pack of Erlan's ordered Maryqueen chocolate in my hand made my heart crumble.

My chest felt tightened by the coldness that began to wrap around my body and mind.

"Erani!!" My child can no longer hold.

I called my husband's name many times. Hoping to call out his name, Erlan's figure would soon come and see me as he usually does.

"Erani!!"

"Brake!" My mother's voice came near me.

I lifted my face to see Mama, Papa and also Darman who had just entered the white room where I was currently.

I tried to get up from the gurney where I was lying. But Mama rushed up to me and held me back from lying down.

"Take it easy, son. The doctor says you need to rest for a few days.."

I don't care what Mom says. I just asked Erlan where my husband is.

"Where is Erlan, Ma?!" I asked half-calling to my mother.

And, for a moment, I caught the unease and also.iba in his eye bead Mama.

'No! Nay! Don't tell Erlan something happened, O Rabb. I beg you.' My mind started to panic.

I repeated my question with a higher intonation. Almost like yelling at Mama..

"Where is Erlan, Ma?!"

My mother did not answer my question. First he took me into his arms, then rubbed my head slowly.

"Please yourself, son. Mama will tell me where.." Mama got stuck in talking.

"...Where is your husband.. But Mama please calm yourself first, son.remember, there are two fetuses in your stomach at this time. And the doctor said that your condition is not good at this time. So you need to calm your mind first. For the safety of your children later, La.." said Mama while still hugging me.

I fell silent as Mama reminded me of the two dedes in my stomach. Quickly, from earlier I felt a cramp in my stomach. Does that mean dede utun is also feeling pain?

If so, of course I have to follow the advice of Mama. But Erlan..

After calming myself with great difficulty, I asked Mama about Erlan's whereabouts. This time in a quieter voice.

"Where's Erlan, Ma..? Lail wants to see Erlan. Call Erlan right now, Ma.." I beg, ask Mama or whoever is in the room to take me to Erlan.

But it's not the answer I got first. But the sound of Darman crying at the end of the room that broke and began to turn into a restrained stuffing.

"Sister Erlan is dead, Brother La. hiks.. Brother Erlan is dead..!" Said Darman faltering, among the sobs that came out of his mouth.

And..

JDARR!!

I felt my world start to shake. I passed out for the second time today.

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