I'm Not a Wild Grass

Erlan's Story (POV Laila)

In the end, the debate about whether or not I should ride the Merry in the rest of my work, always ended with my drama that was persuaded by Erlan's efforts to distract.

Either he would invite me to stop by the sate maranggi stall that was very successful in tempting my eating interests, so I forgot my anger at him.

Or he'll give me three bowls of meatballs. Where one bowl I ate on the spot, while the other two packs I brought home for me to share with Mama Mutia.

At its core, Erlan always managed to defuse my anger like this mercon with all sorts of tricks and efforts.

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One day, I was working the night shift. It was time for me to go home. Erlan as usual, has come to pick me up to go home.

Tomorrow, he still has to work early. But he always took the time to come pick me up every day.

Actually I feel sorry for Erlan every time I go home to work the night shift. Because of that I rarely nag when I come home from work in these times.

"You just woke up, Lan?" I asked when I saw Erlan's face that looked tangled. I even saw him still wearing his sleeping pajamas. He usually changes clothes first.

"What a look, Yang?" Asked Erlan in passing.

"Yes. It's still there on your face, '" I said honestly, giving him a small smile.

Erlan looked cute and did not wipe his face. He was still focused on driving with a serious look on his face.

I feel like there is something Erlan is thinking about right now. Because he doesn't usually talk much like this.

"What's wrong with you, Lan?" Ask me to worry.

At first glance, I caught a pondering look on Erlan's face. Two minutes later he finally said it too.

"Last noon the head manager, I mean Kiyano found me, Yang," Erlan said honestly.

At that moment I felt my body stiff and frozen.

"She..why did she meet you, Lan?" Ask me while holding back the screams that began to come back to pound my mind and my taste.

I tried hard to display a flat expression as I spoke. Because I didn't want to show Erlan how just hearing Kiyano's name moved my heart to the wet edge of the abyss.

My heart was soaked again with restlessness and anxiety. But I tried hard to present my usual self in front of Erlan.

Meanwhile, Erlan stared at me fixedly at a glance at time. I gave her a small smile too.

Erlan then sighed deeply enough and refocused on driving. Her gaze returned to the highway in front of her.

"She just said, pick you up anyway. He said I should be happy with you for as long as. Because if he doesn't, he'll make me unable to wake up for long."

Erlan looked at me again. "So cool isn't he?" Imbuh Erlan.

"He said that?" I heard my voice asking in the distance. While my mind starts to stumble somewhere.

"Yes. At first I was also shocked when he suddenly came to my office. I think he wants to do it again. So I wanted to call the security guard just now," Erlan chuckled.

While I tried hard to keep my usual self-presentation in front of Erlan. I reminded myself many times that Erlan is now my future husband. He was my future priest. Because of her I must try to keep her heart also from jealousy and worry that should not exist.

"Otherwise he hit me all of a sudden, Yang."

I was shocked. And immediately looked worriedly at Erlan's face. I looked at every inch of his face, and I didn't find even a single cut there.

"But your face has no wounds?" Ask me confused.

Erlan then gave a wide grin and continued his words earlier.

"Yes, it's clear. I immediately avoided. There was even him who could not brake and fell to hit the end of my table. I clearly saw the tip of his lips spitting out blood" Erlan explained.

I was about to let go of showing my concern for Kiyano's fate. But thank goodness I'm getting better at holding myself back.

With a normal expression, I only commented.

"You think so, Yang? Hmm. But strangely, I even feel sorry, Yang. So I helped him get back on his feet. Keep saying thank you" said Erlan again.

"Ooh.. continues?"

"Yes, let's talk briefly about you. From that chat he told me everything he knew about you, Yang. As if I didn't know you!" Dumel Erlan's.

I'm not saying. And just trying to neutralize my heartbeats that were unusual when I heard Kiyano's name earlier.

"Because I was upset, I spontaneously told him to take care of his own business!"

"You said that, Lan?" Ask me not to believe.

"Yes! I was surprised myself too, La. But he kept smiling and saying gini, 'huh. If so, I send Laila to Lo. Please, don't make him cry. If I'm going to cry Laila, watch out! Get ready and you won't be able to wake up!' that, Yang," said Erlan imitating Kiyano's voice.

Back I felt the screams pounding my mind and taste. I could barely hold back the crying that was about to spill back. But I managed to give Erlan an alibi first.

I just tell him like this, "Don't respond, Lan. His name is a guy if you feel like losing is that. Angry is unclear!" Speak to me with the restrained susra.

Erlan seemed unaware of the condition of my heart that was getting wet. Because at the next second he asked me to joke.

"Losing? You mean, I won that one, Yang? What did I win?" Erlan asked with a pretended look of stupidity.

I gave my confident smile to Erlan. Before finally answering that question.

"Yes, I am!"

I then pretended to close both eyes, in order to cover the screams that almost spilled through the eyes.

'Calm yourself, La. He's the past.. Erlan is your future.' I have repeated that mantra many times.

"What is your trophy, Yang?" Ask Erlan later. I caught a laugh in the voice of my future husband.

My eyes were still closed when I gave a brief look. "Yes, you can think of it that way. Hmmmhhhhh!"

Once in a while, I yawned later. So Erlan no longer invited me to talk. And let me close my eyes for quite a long time.

In the closed eye position, I tried to neutralize my feelings again that had been ignored just because of a man's name.

Erlan probably thought I was sleepy and exhausted. And I let him think I was like that until his car arrived in front of the alley that was heading for my house.

"La.. Laila darling. We're here, Yang."

Erlan woke me up from my short sleep. I was also surprised because I was just pretending to sleep, even ended up falling asleep accidentally.

Maybe it was because of tired heart and body, so I was so easy to fall asleep like that.

With a slow motion, I got out of Erlan's car. Erlan herself accompanied me on a walk until we got in front of my contract.

"Thank you, Lan, I've been coming home" I said goodbye.

"Yes. You slept, Yang. It's half eleven o'clock. Wash your face, wash your feet, go straight to sleep. See you tomorrow, Yang.." greet Erlan before finally turning away.

"You too, Lan. mm. have a sweet dream, yep.."

And I was in a hurry to get into the house. Before Erlan had realized that I had just called her with the call 'Yang' just now.

Once I was inside the house, I no longer held back the sad expression overpowering my face anymore.

In the silence of the night, I left my apology to Erlan with a whisper of wind.

"I'm sorry, Lan. I'll try to love you, slowly."

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