I Have to Survive

9. brimless anger

I also came home straight in and I saw that my mom was not in this house the right time for me, and mas fero's sister was also not seen his nose stem too ,withholding anger I also decided to contact someone .

I immediately asked for his help and he also said to call or come at the address he gave and said told the same lecturer ma'am, then I will get his help whatever it is .

After I cradled and Fero did not come home either, I immediately changed clothes with the clothes I was wearing when I first set foot here,because my shirt is just that nice and flexible for formal meetings, fortunately when I go first I do not bring a t-shirt and shot pants so I can use the shirt .

I've decided to ask the guy for help, after I contact him he's willing to meet me but tonight, tomorrow he'll go out of town ,I had to go to a cafe where he made an agreement with his client, and I was told to go there .

When I got there I saw a man sitting there waiting for someone, I called him and I saw the man's cell phone vibrate and lift him up. I approached the man .

With a smile he hit me , I have not been able to introduce myself , there are 2 people who come towards us ,I also became awkward and knew that I was too excited earlier and forgot what time I made a deal with him earlier, I who felt guilty even wanted to ask permission to retreat but how shocked I was, how shocked I was,the man introduced myself to his client that I was introduced as his secretary, with his nice French he introduced me to them , fortunately, I used to take French lessons for a while, so I can respond to it even though it is a bit overwhelming too .

"precenter, c'est mon secretaire monsieur" said the man (introduce, this is my secretary sir )

"presentez-moi Alisa sasmita monsieur, ravi de vous rencontrer"jawapku though nervous and as I can. (introduce my sir Alisa Sasmita, fun to get acquainted with andha )

"Presentation de Miss Alisa, je suis Alan, ravi de vous rencontrer" said the French man (introduce miss Alisa, I'm ALAN, nice to meet Andha )

I also bowed to introduce myself, and the meeting took place I also caught a little bit of the conversation and if needed I can explain and answer as much as I can ,and the result is seen from his gaze how happy he is here today, and I see them shake hands and I also do it because I also act as his secretary here .

"Thank you Alisa, you already want to help me, if there is no you surely I will be troubled to face it "said the man .

I too, who did not wish to be trite again, immediately spoke and said what I wanted to come here and why I asked him for help .

"Okay you look for a job, I have a job like that you enough me, so my secretary , if you want you can work directly tomorrow" ,and the salary problem also shows the nominal that I also support it , we immediately parted and got out of the cafe , I immediately stopped the taxi to a place that I headed and then went home .

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I entered the room and immediately went to take a bath, ignoring the man who had fallen asleep on the sofa, and I immediately went to sleep without waking him up ,my heart still hurts to see it somehow I don't know why my heart lately is very sensitive, Fero with mom alone I keep jealousy, ' he said ,moreover, the incident at the restaurant when you remember as if I want to silence her and a very angry feeling as if stirring in me .

I also as a wife also have self-esteem too, even if my pundia is not aware I see her, she must know by holding hands with other women it is a shame , ' ' she said ,what else for a man who has a wife like him even if it is only with his friends, I can not tolerate it .

And when I remembered the look in her eyes at that woman I felt like blood was flowing into a gray hair and turning into a fire that was burning there, and it was going to burn that face ,the face that was happily holding on to that public place, those two people were really disgusting to me.

Ah why, I'm this angry I don't know why my emotions are weird lately ,I who usually without rebellion turned rebellious and I who usually can control my jealousy why now until the night of gini has not disappeared and is still burning here in my heart .

After I was tired of hating in my sleep I was finally able to sleep too , even I dreamed of sleeping in my husband's arms & the cold gradually disappeared with the warmth created .

I also woke up from my beautiful dreams, I felt my husband's warm embrace there, I looked at him who had been my husband all this time , the man who had a clean skin even though not as white as I was ,strong jaw body though not stocky but charming and he was tall, I look tiny in his arms, indeed a figure that is quite perfect .

When I remember the incident at the restaurant yesterday I got angry again , I immediately let go of my hug , I want to see what he will say later about the woman , I look forward to it .

Even with curiosity I went to take a bath, this is the first day I work even though without my husband's knowledge, I want to keep it a secret, I don't want him to refuse my wishes ,and I also do not want to waste my opportunity, to pursue a career, color I can enter here without a diploma is good I do not have to bother taking it from my papa mama's house .

Finally clean also nih body, I rushed to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for all her, so that later not late ,mas fero will also return to his workplace today ,so I prepared everything.

At that moment I saw a masfero coming out of the room and immediately sat at the dining table that had been lined all the menus that he had rikkues yesterday,I also make coffee for him because it is the habit of Fero mas like coffee in the morning and night, kapupun sitting in front of him after preparing tea also for mama and sister do not forget to make me alone.

Mas Fero also never spoke, I was reluctant to molai was just silent there, while I sipped my tea

enjoying the warmth this morning, which I felt very fresh in my throat and the warmth spread through my stomach, why is it different when this tea is usually .

Mama who just came was soon joined at the dinner table, I who saw her also immediately I brought warm tea for mama who I had prepared earlier ,we talked there, even though I was just listening to the truth.

"Fer mama likes you close to the chick at the restaurant last night, mama thinks you fit her better than the same Alisa fer,see Alisa she is suitable so your maid does not match her with you, tell her to fer, said my mother-in-law .

The atmosphere that was cool was hot because there was a spark in this forum even mama added gasoline in her ,and never again the fire added to his blaze and the sip ate whatever was in front of him .