I Have to Survive

45.veiled reality

Mama Alisa saw the pain of her daughter was, she knew Alisa always remembered her ex-husband when she saw Rendra whose face seemed to be similar to her .

She knew very well that Alisa was hiding it, and never talked about it she as her mama knew and felt it, she couldn't blame Alisa ,because he knew how much love his son had for the man, and how much he trusted and put all in the man who had betrayed him,she as a woman and a wife could feel how sick and poignant her child's feelings were .

But he also felt kasian to Rendra who was actually his grandson but called his mother, he also remembered when the boy did not want to call her Oma again ,he said it was more convenient to call his oma and Opa with Mama and papa like Sister Alisa, after that change the call ,she actually wants to shed some light on the condition of her father and mother and why their relationship ended ,but he was afraid that later he would feel wasted and ignored by Alisa and her biological father, who could only hold back and harbored the feeling and desire ,she was so afraid of losing her granddaughter that she knew all that, she was so afraid she would leave them and follow her father if she knew all that ,she can't lose any more of her children, just enough Alisa who went first from this house she doesn't want Rendra to leave her too .

Remembering him at that time, he only smiled because he thought it was funny, but when all that he did he was confused why the child who used to be familiar with the name Oma ,opa and mama , ' but ,being a mom, dad and sister, and if Alisa's mom asks, she just says she doesn't want to have Alisa's mom if she doesn't have a dad yet,she said it even now though it was questionable in her mind she couldn't seem to urge the child, she knew a little bit she had a sick feeling seeing her mama in her gaze.

She knows Alisa is dear and loves the child but her injuries to her husband can't be hidden and she's buried deep and invisible ,especially the boy has a face that looks like his ex-husband, in his heart maybe that's what he can think of .

But on the other hand he was thinking and also could not bear, he knew Rendra also felt how his mama was not as sincere to him, but he held it ,and she tries to be another figure in Alisa's life, even she instead prefers to call sister so that she can be close to her mama ,and even that might even make her can feel familiarity with her mother even though as her brother is not as his son, even in every quarrel they are as if as a sister makes them closer ,that's what made Alisa's mother let her granddaughter call Alisa by the name of that big sister .

He can only pray for both of them to understand and understand each other, so maybe someday they will have a normal and mutually understanding mama and son relationship ,he as a parent can only pray for the best for his children and grandchildren.