I Have to Survive

62.feelings in the heart

While in another house there appeared a pair of lovebirds were sitting in a very beautiful garden, every one who looked at her would feel the coolness and how pampering her eyes were looking at her ,there hordes of roses, melati, and different orchids filled the garden with beautiful and well-preserved, even the diverse roses were arranged in groups with his gang making the garden more colorful ,in addition to the distinctive smell of jasmine also makes the garden as fragrant as possible, do not forget the pond that formed beautifully with a fountain there are still lotus flowers that add to the beauty of the pond add to the comfortable look ,and very tasty because the owner is very good at placing and arranging all the plants in the garden of Alisa's house . they seem to be talking about what they are talking about which surely they look cool and familiarity has begun to look even though it is still awkward to look between the two . .

Alisa and Lenan get so caught up in their conversation that they don't realize that there's a small step of people walking behind them .

"For the beautiful mom n dad I went to school first, said the boy who called with a light and crybaby voice in together patting both of them ,so they were surprised that none other than Rendra was .

Without another word the child did not forget he kissed the hands of the 2 people who were still wide-eyed with still sitting his sweet, and without caring about his 2nd, 2nd ,he quickly went away from there before there was a voice that responded to him .

Alisa and Lenan look at each other and smile at their children,Alisa Glad if the child who never wanted to call her as her parents was now willing to even immediately give a good response by being able to call Lenan, this is really something she never thought ,because his son is very difficult to accept extraordinary people

In fact, sometimes Alisa is very curious and somewhat afraid that her child just wants her biological father ,and not willing to accept another man or anyone else in his life what else accept a foreign man to be his father .seeing this he was very relieved but on the other hand his deepest heart also thrashed he was really afraid of himself which would make Lenan and his son disappointed ,in his heart he really wants to accept Lenan and love her but in here the taste is different, what is this feeling just comfortable ato just because to fill his emptiness without being without a lover , ' ' 'why ,what is clear is that the taste called love according to Alisa does not exist yet, she and Lenan are just like a friend who only fill each other or need each other.

Alisa immediately looked at the man, 'Lenan who was seen lovingly immediately held the hand of his fiancee .

"why dear, I don't papa, please you can use me , use me all you want , I don't care dear and I will never hurt I'm happy to love you , ' ' I love you ,even though you can't love me as long as you are willing and willing to be with me,wanting to be my wife really makes me happy, baby, I won't force you to love me, but if you can love me it's a great gift for me, baby, but I won't force it ,the most important thing is that you can be comfortable beside me is enough for me. Lenan said with great steadiness and softness that radiated from his eyes.

Alisa with a gaze that could not be interpreted Lenan also looked at the tall man towering next to her, she admitted that she was comfortable and was near Lenan she felt safe ,and again this man is also pleasing to the eye, the body is athletic but on the other hand a sense of worry and worry about what he thinks if really they get married later .

"Lenan there's something I want to talk to you about, it's important and it's not a small thing, you have to take it into account, because it's also about your future ."alisa said with great seriousness.

Lenan immediately looked at Alisa in front of him with great enthusiasm and attention, he really wanted to know what the woman in front of him was going to say ,really what exactly is still making her fuss and still makes her heart reluctant to accept her, what would she say if she still loves her ex-husband first ,if yes Lenan can not do anything because of the love of his affairs in the heart, he can not remove like writing just delete if he does not like, Lenan also knows Alisa is a widow, she can not delete like writing,and she knows Alisa's marriage must also be because she loves the man, and a woman's love is usually very difficult to forget what else her first love is, Lenan tries to understand, accept ,appreciating it, even if his heart still stored jealousy, and worry disappointed later in the hearts of all he put aside all that .