I Have to Survive

86.carving sweet memories

Seeing the sadness and tears of the child Alisa immediately clenched both hands until her nails hurt her smooth hand, and her trembling voice came out of her.

"Rendra you are not that kind of child, those who lose if they don't acknowledge you, you don't need their recognition, it won't change anything in our lives ,and it will only make you unhappy because they, forget they Rendra your tears are too precious to come out only for the sake of the family you do not deserve to cry for ,and you should know that even they have no right to touch you even a fingernail, just be grateful that there is Oma and your opa, is that not enough Ren said .

Alisa was still with her voice on the press, Rendra who heard her also looked at her mama, she also wanted to digest it all ,but she is actually not sad because she is not recognized but Rendra is sad because the mother who struggles alone gave birth to her without a husband with bright light treated human not wi by the abusive woman who turns out her grandmother was, she really wanted to know what happened first why until the mothers did not know that her mother was the daughter-in-law of her grandmother's family .

But seeing the response of his mother who was even angry and defended and calmed her he even became unbearable ,because that's not what he wants he just wants to know how bad his mother's relationship with his papa family is, and what little heart there is still for the woman who is no longer young ,because even though her mama is cold, she is very kind to people, but when she saw the response to what her grandmother said, Alisa was very different she shared something that really hurt her Rendra felt all that .

"That's it, I don't care what else I need mama, papa, and brother is not a person who hasn't been in my entire life for a long time ', ' ' 'cause ,I can live without them but I can't live my life and all the trials of this life if there are no brother and mom papa.The boy immediately grinned and will continue his meal .

That's when the story landed on the head of Rendra , Rendra was happy to see him even though he was sick he did not papa from his mother could smile again in his heart even he promised ,he will not dig about his father's family again as long as it can make his mother can forget his sadness first because he knows the memories hurt Alisa so much not even just the father it turned out that hurt the woman in front of her but her family also participated in the unhappiness of her beautiful mother .

After a few seconds that felt like a long time ago the ice-cold situation was finally melting , Rendra and Alisa also immediately returned the food they ordered earlier .

" yes ma, this is so not delicious deh already cold right ma ma,ah mama anyway so make Rendra too long idle right, so not delicious again right ,let's eat at Rendra's place yok yok, mama would love deh later there .

Alisa also actually wanted to reject Rendra's invitation because by not eating his food would only do waste and it was very disliked by Alisa because in the outside too many people are difficult to get food while here he was wasting the food they had ordered not even a little bit he ate because he was immediately not appetizing to eat it, he said,but because seeing the circumstances and mood was not wrong if they were looking for food in other places ,Rendra also told his mama to go first he will follow to the car after his business is done .

Finally they left the restaurant, with Alisa who first got into the car, while Rendra followed her by carrying the package in her hand .

"what do you bring, he said we want to eat somewhere else, even bring all supplies do not place you go to the cemetery again so there is no food there" .alisa said with her ngawur .

Rendra also smiled to hear her wherever without wanting to explain just sit and invite her mother was immediately walk the car to leave the restaurant .

They also immediately headed to the place that Rendra was headed, the place that Rendra said was a food stall or could be called angkringan which was on the edge of the road where her, Alisa also came down awkwardly ,seeing that Rendra was smiling looking at her .

"Well, you can't eat in a place like this, if you can't, let's find another place . Rendra immediately gave a solution for them .

Alisa also shook her head but her response looked a little strange and there was no rejection from Alisa's mouth .at that time came 2 small children who seemed to help trade in one of the booths there ,Rendra also immediately approached and greeted those who seemed to have accraped and Alisa also saw Rendra giving the parcel he brought earlier, and Alisa also saw,they looked happy and even immediately opened and ate the parcel that Rendra had brought earlier .

Seeing that Alisa was shocked but there was also a sense of pleasure in her heart because the cute child was real could also think so, not only selfish thinking about himself .

Alisapun looked and smiled but he was also immediately looking for a seat and immediately ordered a pecel lele there ,Rendra just smiled and followed his mama.

"You know Rendra you've never been together, not even before, but you have the same taste as your papa ".Alisa also smilingly said her .

Rendra also knew the direction of his mama was saying, really actually Rendra wanted to avoid remembering his papa's family,but he did not think that by coming here even made his mother remember her past .

"Sorry ma, I don't know if that person also likes a place like this ."so many people say it.

Alisa immediately turned towards her son and looked at him with a smile .

"Rendra you must not hate them however you exist also because of him, and mama also wholeheartedly love your papa well even though it was before. as long as you know your love is a happy thing for your mom and dad even though we can no longer be together Rendra . Alisa also smilingly said her .

Sat that their order came, Alisa also ordered her son .

"Ma why mama also know Rendra's favorite, papa also like her, so mama ordered this .ujar Rendra .

"oh ...this is the mama who likes it and it's also because papa you used to like her and mama so come to like her ,do you not like if you do not like you can give it like the food we ordered was celebrated earlier, but it's the rest of the child why you give it to them .alisa said with curiosity

Rendra who heard him also widened his eyes he did not expect with that distance his mama can also pay attention to him when it was seen that his mama was very cute earlier .

"oh .., that ..., uh maybe for us the rest of ma , ma ,but it becomes a delicious food for them what else it is also we only eat a little what else has a mama even not a little in tasting ,from the mubazhir kan ma anyways the price is also not cheap kasian if not utilized, and for quiet food ma I all like the food in this place, yes. said the village but I don't know my tongue does match them .ujar Rendra with a laugh there .

Alisa also looked at him, in her heart she said .

"look at our son Fero whom you have never seen and you have noticed this, even he whom you have never spoken to can be as appetizing as you are , the same likes of you are also the one that I hope that he can be loyal to his partner later , the unfaithful attitude is always not down on your child this .alisa said in her heart .

They also happily added another menu that night ,indeed Alisa admitted her bitter memories and also still left a lot of sweetness that makes her flower anyway when thinking of her ,yes indeed not every bittersweet there must be, and in every sorrow there must be a case of relief that will be present and accompany her ,yes, like tonight Alisa also fills the memory of her son by eating together and that will be a sweet memory for them someday .