I Have to Survive

44.Continue to live

Thirteen years had passed since Alisa's return from the city which made her feel the bitterness of domestic life that she had never imagined it, she said, Alisa also limped - limped trying to undergo all the trials, even though it is said not easy because there is support from her 2 parents she can go through her well despite the weight .

Alisa Sasmita is a beautiful and tiny girl who remains beautiful like a twenties at her age who has stepped on the head of three, a beautiful woman who has broken her heart into a very different person,his once jovial and very cheerful and friendly nature became drastically changed, even people who knew him felt all that what else his family could feel the difference .

Both of his parents were also confused to see the obvious change of his ,While Fero's ex-husband who begged all this time he always refused her and many men who approached her he never mengubris them, he never mengubris them,he never even wanted to try to relate again with men, which he only important his work, his career and of course the only son of his wayang ,he is like a stone in front of men other than his son and father.

Thirteen years he has lived his life and has led him to success, various businesses have he wrestled, from Restauran, bakery, bakery ,and now he also proves that he can become a Doctor in accordance with the ideals of his two parents, he also feels comfortable with his work ,but the two parents who saw his madness in career became moody because they knew behind it his son was just running away and hoarding himself from a sense that had disappointed and destroyed in life by working and working .

"Lisa until when do you want to be like this, do you want to live alone and during her, why do you never take into account men who can make you happy and try to believe her ,and can make you happy." said Alisa mama although soft but full of sadness .

Alisa also immediately looked at her mama she knew her mama and papa worries, but somehow of the many men who approached her no one could make her move ,even they all just reminded her of Fero her ex-husband .

"I'm fine take it easy ma, look at me I am happy with our family, even happier than when I was with Fero, see Alisa ma ,mama should also be happy and happy to see Alisa, I will live happily as long as her ma ,mama just calm ."with full steadiness she said that to her mama .

That's when a boy who wears a blue white uniform comes, his face is very beautiful and beautiful,he who had just come down the stairs seized the two women who were chatting and approached their conversation ,he also did not speak directly sit and grab the bread Alisa in front of him and had not had time to eat it.

"Eh, Rendra Raharja you do not politely know that bread belongs to mama, why do you take , yours there know , you brazen child basics you ,alisa said to her child who had grown up and was already a teenager.

"Mama? , I'll take having a sister instead of having a mama why a sister who is sewot anyway,lagian if this has a mama no problem tuh mama , I'm not a sewot" , , ' ' 'cause" ,said the man without pengubris by still continuing to chew his breakfast .

Alisa also glared at the newly arrived man, as if she wanted to mengu nyah her mercilessly and swallow him .

"You, call me mama, and she mami, I'm not your sister, I'm your mama who gave birth to you, why the hell are you so hard to call me mama ha ha ,"said Alisa who did not accept the call of the child.

"not my mommy yes this (while hugging Mama Alisa), you are my sister's parents, I don't want to have a mom who is tiny and still very young and cold like you , thought I'd be sister's boyfriend again, I better call brother would be more delicious deh ." said the brat .

"I'll call mama if there's already a papa next to mama, for now I can't call mama because mama wouldn't be a mama without her papa ",said the boy with his funny smile .

"OK if you want to call the big brother, because you want to wherever you are my son, not me who rejects you yes ,"alisa said steadily but the sadness was also there .

The boy only laughed but no one knew in his laughter he harbored a bitterness that he never expressed to everyone near him ,even though he knew the sister he had to call his mother was very loving her and this family also did not escape bestowing their affection and love for her .

"Eh chat what is Rame once anyway to not see papi coming." said papa Alisa who did ask to call papi after Rendra was in this family.

That's when all turned and welcomed the man with a still smile, while Rendra immediately said goodbye to depart, not forgetting he kissed the hand of papi and mami ,except Alisa she just shakes a regular hand with her .

Alisa who saw that also immediately wanted to snap the boy's head but nimbly the man dodged and blinded Alisa was just crashing in the wind .

Alisa could only see the child's back, she did not expect the child she was born was that big, and her face also took the faces of her parents,fortunately his height was not as petite as his, he was grateful the boy was following his father Fero in his height ,but in his heart he prayed he would be a faithful and responsible man until the end unlike his father .

As he remembered Fero it was his heart that hurt so much again and slashed, as if an old wound that was almost dry opened again and bled again .

"Lis forget about it and move on with your life, you know you remember the man when you see Rendra,but you also have to accept the fact Lis has 13 years there are still many good men out there and deserve love from you." said mama by gently caressing Alisa .

"I love that kid, I never hated him ,I know very well that she is not wrong here but after a long time I went even away from her why this pain still comes every time I see her." Alisa said sadly.

"kalo did go abroad can not make you can remove the sadness even for years, maybe with you together you will be able to get the drug ,but try to open your heart to other men Lis because you should have a companion for life later ,kalo you used to have a sister like this rame since long ago ya Lis" .said mama Alisa diverted the conversation .

Alisa who heard it could only see her mama without comment, she seemed to dissolve in her daydream and drift in the bottomless ocean in the corner of her heart.