I Have to Survive

10 .dress whether effect

Now I also know why mas Fero did not rush to see me even until I had sent a message to him, it just so happens that, if indeed the meeting was planned ,in my heart I guessed it , about what coincidence actually let time answer the question of my heart .

"Ma ,Alisa is my wife has the heart of her mama talking like that in front of her ma , mama also women should her mama can also appreciate her ma,"mas Fero also reply mama .

I just passed and left immediately, I was getting ready to go, I took my bag and I didn't forget to check the contents,because I have to bring my work clothes that I do not want to wear here, I plan later so as not to ask questions later, I will immediately come out to hurry away from the house that stifles me .

I also stepped on my feet steadily and wanted to pass immediately from this house, without guessing Fero was blocking my way, he also asked me to ignore what mama said ,hearing that I can only smile bitterly hearing her .

Didn't he know it wasn't the words of my mother that hurt me, but her behavior that hurt me, at that time I was able to survive because she was always near me prioritizing me ,but now even just by meeting the woman she had even forgotten that I was nearby, and even I sent her a message she did not rush after me, various houses, my heart had been broken, collapsing to its foundation, it can still throb the house, if the foundation has been destroyed .

I can only say

"Give me time and I will give you time to think about everything that has happened, and how it will depend on you to deal with this problem mas" .

I too soon passed by, heard behind me my mother-in-law who curses me harshly and belittles me with all the comparisons she knows it, hearing how devastated I feel,it turns out that my devotion means nothing in my mother-in-law's eyes, I feel my loneliness and loneliness, have no relatives, close friends how I will survive I don't know, ' I don't know , I haven't even thought about where I'll stay after work .

"sister, this money cake first, later can make a stay at a cheap inn even though only how many days you can last first and think about what steps you will take later ,and I will also try to help my brother later, I pray always the best for my brother .

I who daydreamed immediately looked at him I never thought he who had been indifferent to me was the first person who thought to help me.

I was surprised to hear it, but I immediately covered it with my smiling face and said,

"ah it turns out my sister-in-law is very attentive to me, why I just realized it ,kalo from the first maybe I could be a good friend to you deck" by looking at her I also said that .

" no, I don't want to be your friend I want to ......

"Are you saying, I don't want to be the same you!, just the guy who said he wouldn't betray my love, but he's both with other girls even holding hands until he forgets his wife knows",I said in shock to hear what came out of my mouth .

"That's Fero mas, the color he's stupid can't tell which diamond and which copper is, believe me I'll be loyal to you and won't look at another woman even if she teases me,if you want to be with me "sister Mas Fero said.

"whose name you are, you haven't told me your name yet but have proposed to me, even though you have always avoided me I don't believe in your love ,and when you used to know you just said Mas Fero's brother was also not-don't you also just want to playin my feelings ". I said even though I know his name every day I also wash sragam and his clothes ,so I know the real name just want to accrap it I can't bear also cuekin mas fero's sister.

" introduce me to Farel, I'll be a reliable man to you someday Alisa , wait for me , wait for me ,six more years I will take his place Mas Fero who foolishly hurt your feelings, I will make you happy .

I who heard all that could only smile and did not expect that behind her silence and cold, she harbored that forbidden feeling, she said,I don't know why he likes me even so much as to wish him to me when I don't have any advantages in my opinion even I have so many shortcomings .

"You really love me try to be a successful person later , can defend and keep your wife so that she is not mocked and oppressed by your parents and parents-in-law , I await your arrival ,although later I can not be your wife it will give good results for you ,because in 6 more years it will be gone if you see me later I am not like this anymore and there will be a better woman and deserve you later"I also said with great sincerity to him .

I saw that he just shook his head and left in front of me, I thanked him for the money, I couldn't give it back to him because it was his sincerity,and by accepting it may be more a relief for him because for people who love when he is needed will be very happy, well let me enjoy it anyway I did not ask also right .

After all I thought rejecting her would only make her feel unappreciated, and accepting her was the best way I thought , actually even though I left I still carry an ATM and there are also my savings and Fero mas although not how much I can survive before I payday ,I will no longer hesitate to use this money , this is my right because Fero did give it to me, let me be selfish this time & I will be a royal wife this time let it be .

I also immediately realized from my daydreams, I have to go to my new office immediately, even if it is close to me that I am bengong here I will be late later ,I immediately stopped the taxi I could not take the bus because it was already noon and could be late later I came her, even though this was the first day I received and entered the new office .

I ran to the entrance of the office, but before I set foot there I was stopped by the security there, he said I was forbidden to enter ,here specifically for kariawan is not a stranger who has no interest .

I was confused as to how I could get in, I didn't even have an identification tag to claim that I was a career here .

I was tired too, I told you everything but they saw the look I couldn't accept even they kicked me out of the office ' he said I was just a crazy person who ngaku - I became a career here .