I Have to Survive

2. unexpected life

Memories that I remember back then were all wrapped up in my memory , those silly and boring introductions I never thought would lead me into my household tempest ,I who never felt love made me blind to his love, even I gave it all to the man, the man who became my husband , the man I chose myself without coercion from my family .

After we decided to get married, I got out of the house and went to the city where my husband and his family lived, I got married simply there without a family ,I accept that because it was my choice to choose Fero as my husband and boldly leave the house leaving my extended family, even I left without a change of clothes ,you can imagine how reckless I was at that time, only capitalized on love, I went to follow him.

I also ended up being Fero's wife and I also felt happy because the Fero family responded well to me but the quiet period did not last long , only lasted a month that time was lost somewhere , the attitude that was once sweet and full of tenderness the Fero family that was shown to me was lost and changed , only Fero still faithfully loves me , love me in his way

and patiently helping me learn to cook, and how to do some housework, I am happy even though I am heavy I want to learn and can be a good wife for Fero .

I learned all that, one week is enough for me to learn even I can be faster in a few houses, and my cooking is good I think, too, because whatever I'm cooking will run out ludes not left, we live four in Fero's mother's house, where there is Fero , his mother and younger brother who is still Junior High, and I .

My husband has also worked in a garment factory in our city, even if the salary is not large but enough to meet our needs, especially if there is overtime can make savings for us , although I don't give much thanks for it , we live a sweet life here , I enjoy , and feel happy here .

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"Until when do you want to defend him Fero, you can't see he's just a burden, you think you'll live a luxurious life of adequacy after you marry a rich man ,but why do you even become hard work, and he even hitchhiked here "mama Fero who was angry also pulled out his teardrops.

"Ma what's wrong with Alisa?.., she's fero ma's wife she's not a burden to Fero , she's been trying to be a good wife to Fero ,and he also tried to be a good daughter-in-law for mama, it has been a struggle for him ma?..... , Should his mama doain us to be lasting and can live successfully in the future ma , ma ,do not even muddy the situation and present problems that should not be created ma."

fero was angry at what his mother said

"you're supposed to go to college and get a Fero degree, not even a factory worker like this, you don't want him to lose your beautiful future Fero, and take away all your dreams 'em ,and you are also the first child of mama, and the boy who should have taken care of all our needs, replacing your father became the backbone of our family fero."mother Fero chimed in

"Yes, Fero also tried ma, but mama should know, this is Fero ma's life, you don't have to bother thinking about Fero's future, Fero is happy with Fero's life, you just pray, you don't have to bother thinking about Fero's future ,doain Fero in order to live all these trials of life can meet our needs and can be happy with the small family of Fero ma " .feropun with great emphasis said that

Unbeknownst to them, outside with the door of the room slightly open a woman who held back her cries went carefully so as not to disturb the person who spoke in the room ,after she left, the feropun mother came out with a face that was reddened with anger.

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I can only cry and cry out a sense that I am unable to express right, my mind seems to explode because thinking of the words of my mother-in-law , even if it is true ,but I'm still devastated here because not only did Fero let go of his future, I did too, I even left the luxury, and my family just to be with his son ,can't have Fero's parents think and see my sacrifice either.

A knock on the door was heard, and as if the louder the knock on the door, I reluctantly walked to the door

",why are you crying baby?......, what's wrong baby?....., what do you think ? ..",ayo say you can't watch anything between us?. ,I want us to always be open to always know what's going on thinking of us ."

with tenderness Fero stroked me, I who had sobbed even more sobbing got a gentle treatment from my husband.

"want for ?.what do you think dear are you suffering from this?.., I am like a useless husband here?... ,I'm sorry baby I can't make you happy yet?.when I promised to always make you happy if I wanted to be with me beside me, wait, baby sure that time will come later I'm sure of it"

by embracing his tiny body I kiss my wife's temple with great affection, I don't want her to be too sad, and bear the burden of her own mind, I love her so much ,and unfortunately I can't even describe it, and I feel lucky to be loved by her even she was willing to sacrifice all of it for me ,I feel lucky to have her be the man of her choice is a very important thing and I should be grateful for that .

"no papa mas, I only miss my parents, why do I suddenly remember them, but I am also happy to live with Mas Fero I feel lucky to be a wife mas, mas,and I will endure any trials for the sake of the mas, I am sure I will achieve happiness with mas, I am sure of it" I also looked at my husband lovingly hiding what I had just heard ,I was quite happy to hear my husband's defense in front of his mama, and it fostered my deepening love and affection for him .

"Patience baby, someday you will me anterin there, until then I beg you to stay beside me, I will prove it to your parents , ' ' I will ,I can make you happy , I will be a successful person someday dear .with full tenderness my husband caressed with full of feeling .

we also passed this morning by giving each other love that seems to be endless, warming each other and releasing each other's indescribable pleasures in our household relationships ,until we fell asleep hugging each other and could not hear any more sounds that were around outside us and it was as if this world belonged to just the two of us and everyone other than us was just a contract must succumb from us who are the original owners of this world.