I Have to Survive

4. Problems that arise

"Fero defend and keep defending that useless wife of yours , though you should be able to have a wife who has a good career and if you do not choose him you will not leave your college , you should be a person that you can be proud of Fero , ' Fero ,but now you can't do that and plus you can't appreciate mama and ignore mama since you brought that woman Fero ."

"ma don't talk that anymore, I can still achieve my dream ma, I make sure can go to college again just calm down ma , ma ,I will prove that Alisa is not hindering my success but she is my encouragement ma, I will prove it to mama, so I beg you not to vilify my wife again ,I will not accept if mama constantly berates my wife, mama also women should her mama also know what if mama who is in her position ma , ma ,will mama be okay and your heart accept all that" withholding the tightness of her tone Fero vented it to her mama

"Yes you are indeed clever Fero, even with your cleverness you can with his heart criticize your own mama, what poison did Alisa give you ,until you so defended her from your mama .

My mother-in-law's voice was no less happy with Fero's voice, I just cried to hear her, until my mother entered her room I was just able to breathe and could move to go to my room as well .

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In the room I immediately shed my cry that I had saved from earlier, I wish all my wounds had broken along with my cry, I just this time was unappreciated for my whole life , ' he said ,I who as the only daughter of a successful businessman there was never anyone who dared to yell at me other than my mother who dared to look at my mischief ,but what's my fault why I have in-laws who hate me so much, what are my sins too great in my old life that I have to go through all this ,I doubt myself if I can survive here, I doubt in my heart, I fear for it .

After a long time passed by, I heard the door open I felt Fero caressing my back and pulling me to face him .

"Sorry mama ya yang, mama was too disappointed with me so she accidentally put you here , I hope you can understand her I'm sure someday she will change the same you ,patience, dear"

Fero comfortingly calmed my cries, I who heard him tried to stop my cries, but with doubt, I also wished to have in-laws who loved me ,like my own mother other than I miss with a touch of mother I also have hope to be considered, cherished in this house .

With still as much as I want, I also asked about the problem of Fero mas in his office that we discussed earlier, I do not want it to drag on because it will interfere with the performance of Fero tomorrow .

"Alisa darling, I can't if I stay in this factory, the color of choice I want to be moved or out ,and to get out you know for yourself is not easy job is lucky I can be accepted directly in my factory, but to get out of town and leave you, I worry you , ' I'm ,but if I take you so, that's what confuses me dear ."Fero confusedly said that .

"if you have chosen to leave the city, papa gak mas, I will be fine here, I will take care of my mother and sister here ,so you don't have to worry about me I can take care of myself, with a little fear in my heart I told Fero.

"are you sure what your decision is ?..….,you don't want me to be there?...., can we find a makeshift contract for us?.. , , can we find a makeshift contract?... ,we can live together without anyone else bothering us who ?.... . You don't want to fuss with me ?......, looking at me Fero asked for my answer .

"It's beautiful mas it feels, but it's not that you can't leave mama mas with our selfishness, various mama later, if she wants to accept it, I'm very afraid mas , ' I'm very afraid ,what else if I come with you it will make mama hate me even more, I can not risk it , as if she is your mama she who has been mating you ,it's not appropriate for us to make him always angry, it's also not good for the health of mama mas" I also expressed unek-unek in my heart .

"if you really think so I will accept it, then I will give you Hp so you can keep me watching, we can telefollnan or give news through hp ,and later I will try to be able to go home every one Sunday so that you do not miss the same me, I will ask later the same boss I love, said Fero .

"yes mas, maybe this is the best for now mas, I will look forward to it because I will be very confused with my dear husband, recently I was left with you ,surely I will be very lonely later mas , but later surely we will know more how much love and affection we are if far apart . said Alisa with her smile sweet although sad it

"yeah dah, you sleep spout is tired, from the morning you already know a lot of things yourself, tattoo would like me to massage a special massage for my beloved wife anyway ,let's eat your body when you wake up later , my massage will magically make you addicted dear can eliminate tired overnight know" ,Fero with his naughty he said it to me .

"i just smiled and welcomed it, we went through the night with passion, and caused warmth among us, in my heart wishing for a better tomorrow ,forgetting problems after problems that seem to not stop confronting us, and I always pray that goodness and happiness are always present in our lives , the marriage bond that is still as long as this corn I hope to survive later becomes a tree that bears sweet fruit and gives many blessings to us, I will wait even though long I will wait for it ,and still the spirit to achieve it because for me to be together with Mas Fero is the most beautiful thing for me, and being his wife is a choice that I will not regret because this is my life , my choice , my choice ,I will try my best, my spirit .