I Have to Survive

75.Masalalu Hendra's

.return to the past.

The man who looked tired from the hospital was immediately sitting with leaning on the sofa, his usual face was cold but still looks good-looking lines even as if he wanted to dissolve all his fatigue was ,he did not expect it to be this complicated relationship that he lived, and when he fell in love why it was like it was difficult to achieve it, even though the love was held before his eyes .

When he was dissolved in his rooster's sleep, a familiar voice awakened the man,drowsiness was lost replaced with noise that made him unable to calm down any more with weight heapun open his eyes .

"Hendra, wake you up, you owe me a lot of explanations, you have to give Oma clarity on all this after you've ruined all of her, and it's really you've made Oma very shy , ' he said ,you should know that cheating is inappropriate if you reply with infidelity anyway, it will only make your self-esteem destroyed by following your ego , the expression of the woman who is no longer young even though she still looks beautiful .

Hendra also immediately stood up from his sitting and stared intently at his Oma, he really did not expect Oma who used to always be understanding and attention to her now changed, even he firmly criticized her .

"Oma I'm only close to Alisa and we don't do anything beyond her limits even though I love her but she is to me a respectable woman she is not a sloppy woman like Oma's mind ,so Oma do not corner us, which must Oma know Hendra's wife is the choice of oma yang do serong behind Hendra, and for Alisa he is not wrong Oma .said Hendra with a tone that gets sharper and deeper as if to emphasize his protection on Alisa .

the woman looked at her grandson, the grandson she raised with her own hands, the grandson she loved so much, she really did not expect that he considered his Oma this stupid ,so that he can do as he pleases.

"You are still evasive, if you are cheating, even your mistress has been pregnant for how many months now huh, you still say it is not your fault huh, huh,it is impossible for a pregnant woman without cause even everyone knows what you have been doing all this time, look wherever you avoid you are wrong ,what else many office employees are witnesses of your depraved behavior, do you forget even you are not ashamed to introduce her to be your wife ,while your own legitimate wife you never consider in your own office, the woman was even more angry to hear the evasion of her grandchildren who were clearly wrong.

"Now what Oma wants, well okay if indeed Oma considers Alisa pregnant with Hendra's child, then now what Hendra has to leave Alisa that she obviously now contains the successor to this family Oma , then now ,oma could have let Oma's granddaughter be born without a father figure .Hendra turned to storm the woman in front of him ..

Hearing the question, the woman turned crimson,but he also could not let the children of his grandchildren also become victims he knew even very well the fault only in both parents is not the innocent child.

"Crazy you Hendra, after what happened even you are still not sure whose child he was born with ,even you want to avoid if he is your child you realize you doubt him when you are always together even he you enter in your apartment is really your coward Hendra ,Oma never educated you so cowardly like this Hendra, but Oma also as Oma you can only accept the grandchildren of this family is a form of responsibility of our family ,Oma will never allow your mistress to enter our family, what else will take the place of daughter-in-law in this house, enough of your stupidity to be here ,similarly Oma apologizes to your Wife wake up again your broken household she's a good woman Hendra if you treat her right , and then you raise the child with your wife, introspecting yourself, with the note that you left your mistress ." she looked at Hendra with a sharpened speech .

Hendra also listened to all that he was silent not saying anything, an uncomfortable feeling arose when he remembered the betrayal of his wife ,what else to remember at a colleague's party that night, the night when he first caught his wife with another man ,the taste that was not his man was dominating and when it made his increasingly uncomfortable ,the sense that it's getting disgusting makes her never be able to look only at the woman who has hurt her feelings , besides , 'em ,really she never thought that her Oma ignored her feelings just for the sake of the daughter-in-law who had no self-esteem, she did not care about her feelings as a husband , it is disgusting to think of a woman who has been touched by other men even though her husband has never touched her, at all , what such a deed deserves to be done by a good woman, thinking of herself together again even if her sense is no longer able, he said, he could no longer stare at her what else was one bed with that trashy woman who could not keep her pride .

Hendra was only able to leave the room, with tightness and discomfort in his chest and stomach ,he really cursed his wife that he had disappointed his trust and patience and he did not expect the marriage that he once thought would end in love but it turned out to end with complexity and complexity a love that is not even the love of him and his wife that grows and develops, but that love instead grows in people who should not be in the shadow of a happy household first .

The man passed by with a wounded heart leaving his Oma still surly and only looked at Hendra angrily without assuring or giving his rejection to his proposal ,but that's not a proposal, though, Oma gives it is a thing to do and that Hendra can not and should not refuse because it has become his Oma's decision that can not be contested .little heart Hendra was rebellious but he could only be silent for now because when the fire raged with the force he could not possibly hit , ' he said ,what else with him expressing his desire it will only make the fire even bigger and will burn him, this time he was just silent because it was best for the current situation .