I Have to Survive

5.separation

In the morning at the factory

"you're here, you must have an answer, what's your answer ". curiously the Queen Boss asked me .

"yes boss, I am ready to be assigned outside the city, but I ask I can go home once a week buk , can be, please Fero

"You work there is not a picnic, if you can not go home once a month, you better just back off, than to bankrupt the factory because you charge you go home once a week "with his cynical boss the Queen said that.

"yes boss, I will choose to resign if so, I don't want to be dominated by you, if you can't compromise I'll step down , ' I'll step down ,please find someone else who has no family if you want that way "by going Fero says it .

"Fero, well you can go home three days but once a month where, this is fer negotiations, I want you to consider it" continued the Queen

"Okay, papa is not it, I want it to be so but can't it be 4 days, is one month there are 4 weeks right?...." said I

"It's best to take it or not it, your dealings fer, but I beg you want it's been my best offer Fer, but you have to leave tomorrow fer, fer ,because I don't want to postpone it again, the sooner the better" continued the Queen.

"Okay I'll tell Alisa later, you don't want to meet her that, you're so close that even you make me get close to her ".Fero.

"the next time Fer, I'll meet him with a special time later .queu said that

I can only nod and immediately leave the room of the Boss Ma'am to go home and pack up for tomorrow .

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Finally the day came , the day my husband would part with me , I tried to look tough and ordinary , I hid my tears, my fear and my sorrow that accompanied his departure ,although I allowed it I did not think he would be directly assigned there , I think it will still be given a grace period to move , but it turns out , just a matter of days he will go immediately .

I don't know why my heart feels bad like this, as if it wants to hold it but it's impossible, I immediately throw that feeling away, 'so it's also for me' 'cause ,not because of his sheer desire, this was the best thing for us, I convinced myself again and again, when I was dissolved in the daydream I felt my husband holding me and kissing the top of my head with his affection.

"keep yourself dear , don't until you are sick , wait for me I will be home soon , don't forget later answer the call from me , I will always bother you later , let you not get bored" .Fero with his trademark smile said to Alisa

"if you do that I think your boss will be troubled and disturbed by all that, not me, said Alisa with a smile

"Have his embrace, just want to go out of town as if to go out of the country just, are you not ashamed to make out in public .with the sound of his sting my mother-in-law stopped us .

"yes dah ma, I tipped Alisa same mama, please take care of her for me ma ma, I go first ".Fero also politely said goodbye and kissed his mama's hand .

The car immediately went and disappeared from sight, I immediately entered the car with my in-laws, we went home with each other silent late in our minds each .

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"iya ma later I make special for mama, I will make her ma ma, damn it just hand over to Alisa ma" ,I am also happy to hear it because this time mama praised my cooking, I hope our relationship will have progress, definitely mas Fero will be happy to see it later .

I also eagerly shop for tomorrow , with my makeshift clothes I go, I do not pay attention now with the fashion model that is trending ,even I only wear makeshift shirts and subordinates were cheap legong, the beginning of the itching was there but after getting used to being comfortable also I feel ,mas Fero also often asked me to buy good clothes but with the finances I hold I know the risk of the money I use for good clothes .

I also do not want, always satirized scatter husband's money, it's more scary than I have to resist the itching of my body, I never thought this time would come ,where I really appreciate money, I never thought I'd be able to live like this ,I'm a high-class kid who shopping anything should be good and quality stay swipe no matter what price something I want, now it's like this ,I smiled wryly in my heart overshadowing all this .

"Alisa, you are "

The voice of a woman surprised me, I looked at her face, I was surprised it turned out that she was a lecturer who taught at my college first, I also with an awkward smile greeted by shaking hands with her .

"Yes buk, I am happy to meet my mother here ,how buk reportedly mother and friend friend, in good health buk . I was also stale to ask her .

Didn't think she immediately hugged me with her firmer even she with a dumbstruck cry as if I was her lost son long ago had not met her and met her at this time ,with a smile I also hugged back to my lecturer, precisely Bu Rina who turned out she was my mama's friend .

After we took off our arms and took me to the nearest cafeteria, I followed after paying for the groceries I had chosen to the cashier first.

"Al where your husband is you are alone here , even though you are shopping this much , I don't have anyone to help you" .by still looking at me Ms. Rina asked me.

"Mom, my husband just worked out of the buk city, so can't help me now if he's at home for sure he also help me kok buk ", I'm sure with a little lie to him ,because I always shop alone my husband is always busy working if the holidays must spend his time sleeping at home .

"sorry buk How are mama and Papa buk?..... , OK on healthy right buk?... ,I also forwarded the question that I wanted to hear his answer so that my heart would not be troubled .

"they are said to be good yes no, said no yes fine, try to think of Al , Al ,if they only had one child and she ran away from home just because of differences of opinion not to obey their wishes, would you be fine ".with a sigh the lecturer said that to me .

I could only cry imagining how much I had hurt the feelings of both my parents, those who had kept me from being small and not letting a single mosquito bite me ,with how I died .

"sorry buk, I am indeed an unfilial child, forgive me buk "by crying I also apologize repeatedly to him .

"it is not the same I have you to apologize, even from now on they are still expecting your return , they are waiting for you Al , you know ." - crying, Miss Rina said to me

"Please buk, just say I'm fine with my mom and dad, I'm happy living here with my chosen husband , ' she said ,I will go home after the time comes and please take care of health so that they can wait for my return, say it buk, thank you buk for all of it, I retreat first, ' ' said buk ,there were still many things I had to do."by asking for permission, I went to stand up from my seat.

"this is Al , if you need any help just come to this address, he will help you whatever it is" said Miss Rina .

By giving a business card, Ms. Rina said that, I accepted her and thanked her for the help I hoped I would never use later.