I Have to Survive

8.que drama 2

Fero who grieved the complaints of mama also immediately looked at me, I who was seen as just sitting casually next to her, I was curious about what she would do this time ,I look forward to it, waiting for my beloved husband to solve this problem.

"Alisa how do you do all this?, how do you manage the money?, said Mas Fero .

"I'm sorry I'm ........."

I haven't had time to spend everything I want to say mama cut my words, I am still in my condition, still gawking like a toothless cow that lost its food.

"It's fer, he's not safe, is he? the time he holds a lot of money does not cook a variety of, mama is already old fer, mama also wants to eat a variety of dishes in the days of old mama's , '' this old mama's day ,what's wrong mama asked it fer?, part of your salary is given the same he all right?.., what's wrong anyway grant mama's request ,anyways, your money is not the money he works, right fer?.., said Mama Fero .

"Ma sorryin fero, but mama should know that my salary is not much ma, and the salary was also me for mama and Alisa ,and for Alisa the money she uses for the needs of the house, what mama is not ashamed of Alisa even I can not give special money to meet her needs ma, see Alisa "ujar Fero .

"Even you do not tell me how much money you ration for your beloved wife, you want to hide it, Fero you have changed a lot now, mama already do not know you anymore ,even now maybe mama there is no price in your life, maybe even if mama dies you will not cry "mama said .

"ma Fero love the same mama, even Fero if you can will give whatever you ask ma ma, Fero tetep Fero who used to be, mama's son, '''mama's son ,and tetep will be a child mother until whenever you want to "follow mas Fero .

But mama who did not want to understand and feel blamed immediately out left us in the car ,the angry mama ignored nothing more even mama without turning her head again and immediately entered the house and did not see her back .

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We are busy choosing what we will buy here today, mas Fero also invites me around and choose various needs for our stock .

After everything on the list runs out I immediately go to the cashier to do my duty as a good buyer, of course to pay all my expenses, I might not pay it .

Finally finished also shopping today, we immediately brought all the groceries and headed to a restaurant that said mas Fero delicious cuisine there, I immediately followed her ,I was also curious about the taste of the cuisine that Fero was talking about.

"Fero, where are you, I miss you" said the woman and fondly embraced my husband .

I was astonished to see him , he who used to be close to me even greet my husband , yes even though he majored with my husband but his relationship was closer to me after I contemplated him ,Even he very rarely used to relate to Fero if not because as an intermediary between me and Fero like a real matchmaker, he for me and Fero.

Seeing them embrace like that also makes me uncomfortable too me who did not feel good to quibble, to wake two people who do not know this place, even here there I am as the wife of Fero ,he really doesn't think I'm here.

"eh, I'm sorry I didn't see you, you know.

now ....kamu ..kok rich gini anyway , I until thought you her maid Fero you know, changed a lot you Al ,"his voice that looks attentive but clearly impressed mocking me .

"oh .ya no papa indeed I do not look if in the middle of you guys, I immediately resigned from there ,I don't know why I think I'm here alone like mud and he looks like a precious pearl over there .

Seeing me go, I wish Fero would follow me and chase me, but even though I have walked to the parking lot ,I didn't see my husband even after I waited so long I couldn't see his nose, I stood there staring until I saw many people there .

I was tired of waiting even I decided to go in again, the sound of my heart beating faster, my eyes locked a shadow far in front of me , there I saw the woman and my husband sitting at a table and I saw many glances leading up to them, I saw with my own eyes the woman holding my husband's hand with her message ,my husband seemed to be enjoying it even with his warm smile on his face, I saw him wanting to smother the cheap woman,but seeing all the stunned and whispered views there I canceled my action ,I'm self-conscious even though my status is his wife I'm just a wife ignored here and I don't want to be a spectacle here either .

this meeting also made me realize that the love I am proud of is not as beautiful as the shadows and stories in the film, and love will change over time, but has my love with Mas Fero changed ?.., is it that easy for him to turn to her?.…..,has he grown tired of me?..., the raging thoughts fill the recesses of my heart, the sick heart as if it were pierced deep but did not bleed ,but the sense of tightness is so I feel even my bones as if crushed .

Remembering once a Queen who always followed me, and I always did good even I always bought what she wanted, formerly the Queen of ordinary women,even her usual clothes were different from now she looked elegant and radiant, while I, I see my shadow ,I could only curse my life and look at myself in the reflection of a car and I realized just how horrible my style was to dress .

Your great queen, you who used to thrust the man and tried various ways to get me closer to him but now you are , now that he is my husband you brightly approach him in a public place even in front of my own eyes to make out with him, in my heart I want to curse, I immediately send a message to my husband ,and I also decided to find a taxi for me to go home to, I don't want to bother them, I let them because even if I bother them, I will only be considered a meaningless fly there .