I Have to Survive

20 .before it's too late 2

After reaching , I too soon I fell into my hut on a soft mattress in the apartment provided by my boss ,I have been unable to stand it since the morning around with the farel made my knees feel broken because of the soreness, the child's face was drawn again in my memory and his voice still echoed and pulsated in my ears ,I imagined his face and his words like that from the bottom of his heart.

Thinking about it made me even more dizzy thinking about all this, I immediately moved on and decided to take a shower instead, I hope that by taking a shower I will make my body fresh and my mind fresh again ,I want to forget all the troubles in my life.

I enjoy taking a bath this evening, I spend time indulging myself in a warm bath and by wearing the scent of my favorite rose , I feel like I haven't spoiled myself for a long time ,yes, ever since I came out of my mom and dad's house, my life has been like a racehorse that never finished my homework, I just realized now how much a wife has to take her time , to treat and care for yourself .

I was probably too stupid to be frugal with the pretext that I forgot the care, even the clothes I was sober 'just because I didn't feel good about my mother-in-law ,even though I have done that he was never satisfied with me, when I realized it turned out I was just torturing myself .

I should be able to make myself comfortable first before others, and be able to take care of myself nonchalantly and just centered on my busyness at homework , now I just realized it actually made my household messy and on the verge of destruction, and even my in-laws do not like me .

Now that I know the comfort and not the life, we are decisive, because we will draw that comfort by always feeling comfortable, while with a mind that always feels disliked by others ,it will also attract us to always be seen by others with his dislike .

Ah why regrets come later yes, if only I knew that this was the end of it, I would do my best for the wholeness of my household but at this time ,can my household return to what it used to be, and if I can go back to what it still feels the same or more ato even disappear there is no love left .

After getting tired of soaking I immediately move and wear my towel , soon I change my pajamas that I was ready earlier ,I also intend to immediately sleep and rest from my many thoughts and really seize my mind.

Greek.....,

The sound of my phone vibrating said I saw many messages waiting in line there , I immediately checked the message , one of them from my boss , I immediately opened the message.

Ter real he asked me to come tomorrow and he will pick me up tomorrow morning, because we play husband and wife he said it is impossible if we come apart right .

Oh why how full the drama of my life, why was I born a drama princess, why am I always in the drama here ,earlier with the High School boy now with a boss who was clearly his age was far above me, if I entered the race maybe I would also get the victory ,I also thought about why he easily accepted and worked on me in his company, even though I was just a high school graduate, mengenyam college ,I just entered already left from there even though I majored in medicine is not a business .

Immediately I continued to check my cell phone message I was interested in a message from my husband Fero that contained a photo there , I immediately opened the photo , when I opened wide I was ,my eyes could not turn away from the picture, the picture that made my eyes cry saw her, and my heart was broken without a head, now I know that I am no longer in her heart ,even he blatantly shows his acts of affection with the woman ****** it , I realize now that we cannot be together , hereby I am sure I have been erased in his heart ,and there's nothing left there, other than memories .

That's when , the sound of the phone rang I immediately picked up without me seeing who was calling, I thought it was my boss sir, I quickly picked it up .

"Yes, sir, I am ready tomorrow to leave, just calm down I will not disappoint you" said my father steadily .

"yes I was waiting at the cafe where we dated yesterday, I hope you keep your word, to not disappoint me "said the voice.

That's when I realized, the voice in sebrang is not the voice of my boss but the voice is the voice of a man, a man or a child I know ,he's a rancid guy who with his PD proposed to me, who else if not a farel child who indiscriminately dropped his love for me it .

"Ka.a. ..ka.mu, why you night gini my phone, I'm not sleepy you rail ", said I eliminate my nervousness .

"I can't sleep Lis , ever since that incident , thankfully I have fixed your number so I can contact you ". said farel with complete relief from his voice.

I also felt in the attention blushed with it, but I had to realize who I was here and who he was.

"Farel, if you still want to be in touch with me call me brother or sister mbc, do not ever dare to say my name, I do not like it , ' I do not like it ,and it's not appropriate for you that rail is best for us ."I also said with great steadiness, I do not want him dissolved in his feelings .

That's when I heard the reply from her, how hurt my heart heard her, and how broken my heart heard her.

"Alisa I know now, I know Alisa why you are so against my love, when I feel you are comfortable with me, and I am sure you can also be happy with me ,unless you are still thinking of going back to the man who hurt you and broke your heart,if that's the path you take I can't and will never be able to replace it because you yourself don't want to turn around and leave her ." she said and still continued.

"But rest assured Al , I am willing to stay away and forget my family , if indeed it can make you comfortable with me , I am willing to live a new life with you ,without the people we know and without the people you know we've molested from scratch again let's open a new leaf Al , I'm ready to go through it with you Alisa"with a bitter cry I heard Fero speaking to me spilling all his thoughts on me.