I Have to Survive

89.Trying to shake it

another with another Fero also with Hendra, the man was still sitting in his sleeping ward and he could only be silent thinking about his mother's words ,indeed he did not expect that his mother's words were like a bolt of lightning that melted his blooming heart because Alisa the woman who gently entered his heart and without him realizing it grew seeds love was there only in a moment of time when it was together with her .

But when he realized that they had been separated for 14 years and he soon realized that the time during which who would wait without certainty and bond ,only a fool and overconfident person would not look for anyone else, what is his status for Alisa, he is just a person who is lost and wants Alisa but does not dare to take consequences.

"Look at you Hendra when you attach importance to Alisa that you only care about divorce and divorce, you don't even think about Alisa as she is, what her content is and what she is comfortable with ,even you can never guess that he's going to leave this country, and leave behind all his old memories ,try if you come when it accompanies him and ask for time to marry him he must understand, and then before he leaves surely none of this will happen ,and the fact that makes you inappropriate for her because you are too cowardly and afraid that you do not dare to meet her family is what makes you lose her .in Rendra's heart also condemned his stupidity .

The woman next to him also looks very worried , he is afraid that Hendra his son will be back to drop like before 'but seeing Rendra silent and still look normal makes the woman relieved ,he also gave eluaan on the back of his son, to make his son was calm again .

"Ma has Alisa been married now ?..

who did he marry with ?..

I just want to see her happy if indeed she has become someone else's" Hendra said breaking the silence .

Hendra was immediately aware and tried to accept all the truth that happened, he indeed had to mengikhlaskan Alisa if the woman had made her choice, part of who she was, she had to, he realized very well in the past he was just a boss who haughtily asked Alisa to want to help him get into the drama of his life .

"he's not married hen but I know that he's engaged, and that's mommy for seeing the ring Alisa wore yesterday .

Hearing that Hendra also had little hope, a light of happiness was seen from the dark eyes of the clear night .

"Ma is not if the yellow janur has not curved it is a sign that Hendra still has a chance to be able to take the heart of Alisa .ujar Hendra with joy and flowers .

"Son, what if for example if you already have a fiancee and she is mentioned by other men if you can accept her ,and if later your fiancee chooses another man what you can accept without your heart being hurt.said Rina's mother with great emphasis in each of her words .

Rendra who heard him was immediately aware, he immediately returned it all to himself .

"Sorry ma, no, I can't accept her even I proposed to her and made my fiancee because I want everyone to know she's mine ,where maybe I will be able to sincerely accept without heartache if there are people who take it from me there are those who glance at it even I will not be sincere ", said Hendra despair .

The woman immediately hugged her son with tenderness.

"Hendra if you are hurt when others do that to you, you also have to know how Alisa's fiance feels when you do that 'cause you know son ,as long as the woman who has been proposed and engaged is her sign she has been willing to have even though she is not as whole as she has been in Dp by her fiance, she said, and the Javanese say it's been tied up by his fiancee and with it the respectable woman should know herself and can limit herself ,and a good woman will also not easily relate to other men what else gives hope to a man other than her fiancee ,and you also know that Alisa is also a good woman, she is also honorable, so I hope you are also a sassy man and become an honorable man also Hendra , ' he said ,men who will not take people's fiancee, and you must be sure dear, you will also meet your soul mate, let Alisa let him off may be the best path for you ,and you also have to remain friends because you also already consider Alisa a child mama , if you can not be with her as a husband then consider her as your sister Hendra .rina said subtly without any emotion in her words .

Hendra was seen nodding, although in his heart it hurts but his other side of the heart also said and agreed it all ,she should not ruin Alisa's life if she can't be her husband then she will be willing to stand up even if she is just a big sister to the woman who has filled her heart with love .

He also tried to advertise everything, and he also hoped that this time Alisa would be happy with her choice of men, and Hendra who felt defeated also had to accept everything ,but in his heart really he was also confused, because with whom he lost, because seen from wherever he was just a coward who could not fight for Alisa and make her always be together ,and being on her side, exactly what was missing in her memory why she still didn't remember her, why could she let go of Alisa first .

And remember it was only up to where he struggled to get a divorce with his wife, and even the wife in his memory who didn't want to even that he still didn't remember his face ,and the woman he calls Oma is where she is, isn't she supposed to meet and accompany her ,he is still thinking about all that and hopefully he can immediately remember what happened and what problems he experienced so that all of it happened to him .

One thing is for sure he must focus on his recovery and focus so that he can remember again something that he must remember before the accident ,so that he knows and can take action what he will do later .

"Let's Hendra quickly wake up and rise, whatever your life is not just revolving on Alisa, for Alisa must be her you are happy if the woman is happy right .in his heart Hendra also pressed it all on himself .