The Hidden Love

It never changes

"When will you keep laughing? your lips will dry up later if they continue to open so wide," Hanum chuckled at her husband who kept laughing.

After the two left the restaurant, the Sultan kept laughing and it lasted a long time, all the way until they got home.

"That's because I'm so happy" the Sultan murmured as he continued to add a smile on his lips.

"Simple is that your happiness?" Hanum took off a small towel that wrapped his hair. Sit in front of the dressing table then start turning on the hair dryer.

"You didn't see Dion's facial expression when you threw up right about his shirt," the Sultan took over the hairdryer from his wife's hand. "Let me help."

"That's .. I don't know why I vomited it myself. When I saw his face, it felt like my stomach was getting worse. Really, I didn't mean to vomit at all" Hanum explained.

"That could be a sign that our children are going to grow up to be good children, they don't seem willing if the mother gets disturbed that's why they made you vomit on Dion. That's good, if I think it'd be even better if you had all your guts out on Dion's face, not just in that crazy guy's shirt."

Sultan turned off the hairdryer once felt his wife's hair had dried perfectly. Put the object in place and then reach for the comb to tidy up Hanum's long hair that reaches the back.

"Done," he said as soon as he saw the results of his wife's hairdo.

"Thank you," said Hanum, then he picked up a bottle of Aloe Vera gel on the table, opened it and began to take out its contents. A cold sensation appeared as soon as he applied the thin clear gel on his face.

While the husband who was sitting on the lip of the bed still continued to pay attention to his wife.

"Why hasn't your face changed at all? from the first stay beautiful, even more beautiful with age," said Sultan when his wife approached him, embracing the body that began to contain it into his arms.

"If this keeps up, I'll go crazy." The Sultan put his chin on the niche of Hanum's neck, inhaling deeply the scent of his wife's body. "You told me to fast while you yourself kept teasing me, that's not fair baby."

"Who is teasing you? Mas himself who kept hugging me, as if he didn't want to get away from me so don't blame me."

"In addition to being very fierce, you also turned into a smart girl now huh? I can always answer every word."

"I've been smart a long time, I just didn't realize it."

"Is she?" The Sultan seemed to think for a moment, "In addition I also noticed that you have become yelling since you became pregnant, is it also because of the hormonal factors of pregnancy in you? I can still clearly remember how fierce you were when you fought Mau .. I mean that woman." The sultan paused his sentence for a moment, remembering that he should not explicitly mention Mauryn's name, in front of Hanum.

Calling the name of the evil woman in front of Hanum is like committing an unforgivable crime and of course Hanum will not stay silent. And now he must be vigilant because if the name escapes from his mouth, his wife may give a punishment that is sometimes beyond reason to him.

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"Are you bod*h? it's useless to go to high school until you get a college degree if you can't use your brain well. At least think before you do something that would hurt you" Dion cursed the woman in front of him.

After a disgusting drama that takes place at the Padang restaurant, she gets an incoming call from the woman who has given birth to her child. While crying Mauryn kept begging Dion to help him so he could get out of the police station. He does not want to languish behind bars, using his son Yara as a weapon to persuade Dion. Dion must inevitably visit the police station, and after negotiations with several police officers who were interrogating Mauryn, he was finally able to suspend the woman's detention. Surely by giving bail, and now be them here, at Mauryn's house.

"Don't talk like you're the smartest, you're as stupid as you are" Mauryn shouted, replying to every word that came out of Dion's mouth.

"Whatdidyou say? who do you think released you from the police station? don't forget if it wasn't for me, you'd spend at least three years languishing in that cold, cramped room."

"So you want me to thank you for helping me, do you? don't expect it" said Mauryn arrogantly.

Dion sighed harshly, in his face attached to the face of the woman who once made him feel the beauty of falling in love, first.

"You haven't changed as well, still as you used to, selfishly. Have you ever thought about the feelings of others? I once loved you so much, I put you into being the reigning queen of my life. I'd even do anything to make you happy even if it hurt me, but what's the payoff? you keep hurting me." Dion drowned, sitting on the long sofa in Mauryn's living room. His lips were locked, he could no longer speak. It was clearly a stroke of disappointment on his face, coupled with the glare of despair that was clearly emanating in his dimming eyes.

"Don't think that I'm going to melt after hearing all the words that just came out of your mouth."

"Once in a while, go out. To orphanages, nursing homes, social foundations, to halfway houses, where people are sick or if necessary you have to go down the streets. Look at how their condition, maybe by looking at the suffering they experienced can make your heart's eyes a little open. Do not always look at others who are far above you because everyone has their own standard of happiness. Don't you realize that you've been so greedy all along, you envy seeing the happiness of others while you can't feel the happiness in your own life. Feeling threatened once you see another woman happy and worse, you do bad things just to master people's happiness. To be honest your life is happy, has abundant love and affection from a husband, in addition to the presence of a daughter who complements your happiness. Unfortunately it all can not make you satisfied, you can not feel the pleasure of being loved by a man and have a full family. Because what? you focus too much on Hanum's happiness to forget that your own life is actually happy. You can't accept the fact that your first love loved another woman and made a promise to live with her. You dissolve into your own ego without thinking about the feelings of others who can also be hurt by your attitude."

Dion scrunched his nose, feeling the moral burden he was carrying growing heavier. The shadow of her daughter's future growing up without complete affection her parents become a frightening specter for her.

If only time could be turned back, if only he had not given up that time, perhaps none of this would have happened. But how else, not all the mistakes were on him. He is also an ordinary human who has the limits of patience like humans in general, who will be fed up and saturated if someone continues to ignore him after all the struggle that has not been easily experienced so far.

He saw the face of a little angel who was sleeping in a maroon-colored stroller not far from his seat. Then slowly he moved his body there, folding next to his feet. On his soft trunk was the head of the tiny baby wrapped in the knit hat.

I'm sorry your helpless father, son, you're too small to understand any of this. Forgive the father who can not give complete affection like a parent to his child. Forgive me for not conquering the hardness of your mother's heart, I've done everything in my power to keep our family intact but I can do what if your mother insists on pursuing the man she loves all her life. May you grow up to be a good woman, a woman who can take care of your honor and can appreciate everything God has given you, including the man who will love you. You were born from your mother's womb but I hope you imitate your mother's bad qualities. Daddy loves you so much. Dion kissed her baby's forehead with her eyes closed and two clear hairs dripped there. It signaled such a deep pain that it hurt him so much.

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**So sad to write, too late with the sadness that Dion experienced, while accompanied by Bondan Prakoso Not with me, the song, do not know also when I do not connect with what I wrote but again just horrified. Hopefully you guys are not bored reading my writing yes guys 🥰 please forgive if there is a lack of 🤭

Sun dear to you who have taken the time to read my spare change and faithfully support me so far 🤭😘😘😘**