90 Days Pursuing My Husband's Love

Depression (Chapter 58)

This morning Andreas invited a female doctor to check on me. The doctor started to do an examination of me. He asked me a few questions, but none of them I answered.

"Miss Velicia, does this hurt?" The doctor asked as he touched my injured leg.

Miraculously I felt nothing. There was no pain or pain I felt. My body feels numb. So too with my heart.

"Miss Velicia, open your eyes. Sorry I'll check it out for a minute." The doctor said again.

The doctor shone my eyes with a small flashlight. He looks shaken. The doctor then invited Andreas to sit away from me.

"Miss Velicia seems to be depressed." Said the Doctor.

Although he was heard talking quietly, but I could hear him very clearly.

"What's? How come?" Ask Andreas. Andreas' voice sounded so panicked.

"Depression is a mood disorder characterized by deep feelings of sadness and a sense of indifference. Everyone must have felt sad or moody. Actually a person is declared depressed if it has been 2 weeks feeling sad, hopeless, or worthless. But what Miss Velicia experienced was very different. There was so much fear from the look in his eyes." Said the Doctor.

"But why Velicia?" Andreas Said.

"Depression can affect anyone, including women. Depression in women is often associated with hormonal changes, including menstruation, pregnancy, after pregnancy, or menopause. However, until now there has been no research that confirms the cause of depression occurs more often in women. It seems Miss Velicia has experienced an event so painful that it traumatized her."

"Then what should I do Doc?" Ask Andrew again.

"Depression that is allowed to continue and do not get treatment can cause a decrease in work productivity, social relations disorders, to the emergence of suicidal desires.

In treating depression, there are several ways that can be done. Conduct psychotherapy, to help overcome problems due to depression. Giving anti-depressant drugs, to cope with the patient's depression. And for cases of severe depression can be given electric shock therapy, to change the patient's brain performance. Undergo hospital care if you have severe depression." Answer the Doctor.

"No, no. My little girl won't get through it. I'll make him recover Doctor." Andreas' voice was so excited.

After that, I don't know what else they're talking about. Because I feel so sleepy that I fall asleep.

But in fact, my sleep can't be good. The events at the market this morning were back in my dreams. I screamed as loud as I could, but my voice never came out. Until I woke up hearing sweat pouring out. It turned out that Andreas was beside me with his hand tightly grasping my hand.

"What's wrong? Are you having a nightmare?" Ask Andreas.

I was eager to answer Andreas's question, but again my lips seemed unable to cooperate. I kept quiet and could not say anything.

"It's noon. Eat yes." Tawar Andreas's.

He started bribing me, I shook my head.**** my meal suddenly disappeared. I got up and walked to the balcony. From behind Andreas walked after me and hugged me.

"Let go of everything. Don't be afraid, I'm with you. This time I promise to protect you. Forgive me for my past wrongs for not being able to protect you." Andreas Said.

I'm still quiet. There's nothing I can say. Andreas then twisted my body and hugged me. It was so warm, I felt so protected.

"I told Jack you were here. Since last night he called me. And tomorrow he'll be here to see you. For now, meet the guests out there. A pregnant woman who is always worried about you. Make him feel calm." Andreas Said.

'Mom's pregnant? Must be Merry.' I thought.

"You're okay, right? I'm so worried about you." Merry.

Merry then took me to sit and held my hand tightly.

"What's going on? Who did everything to you?" Ask Merry again.

Yet, again. I just kept quiet, unable to say anything. Merry came back crying, my hands moving wiping away her tears. Actually there is a sense of sadness when I see my best friend crying over me. But I really can't talk. I don't know why myself.

"Andreas, tell me. What the hell happened to him? Why isn't he talking? His gaze was also so empty?" Tanya Merry is looking for Andreas.

Andreas started explaining what the doctor said about me to Merry. After hearing everything Merry immediately slammed into my arms again.

"Oh my God, why are you like this. Speak on. I'm right here." Merry.

I really feel empty. There is no feeling in my heart. Merry started to take me to sit on the edge of the pool. While Andreas and Hansen chatted together in the living room.

Any way Merry can make me talk. But no, I still can't make my voice. Like I really won't be able to talk until anytime.

"Do you want me to meet the doctor?" Merry asked, I just shook my head.

"If you want to cry, cry." Merry said again.

Why cry? Looks like my tears have dried up. No more tears.

"Have you taken your medicine?" Ask Merry again. And again I can just be quiet.

"Is there anything I can help you with?" Merry doesn't seem to give up.

I'm sorry Merry. I also want to say something. But my mouth really seems locked. I can't say anything. My life feels so empty.

"Veli, I'm here with you and I know depression is so scary, I'll always be close to you when you're struggling with it all." Merry said, hugging me.

There was a little calm I felt. Merry has always been a person of great concern to me besides Jack. And now, the presence of Andreas also adds someone else who cares so much about me. To be honest, I was disappointed in myself for always bothering them.

Now, I don't know what else is going to happen to me. I don't want to trouble them anymore.

Late in the afternoon, Merry and Hansen were quiet. Merry said she'd be back tomorrow to spend time with me. I could only wave my hand without saying anything as the car Merry was driving left Andreas's courtyard.

"Come in. I'll prepare dinner for you." Andreas' whisper in my ear.

Andreas took my hand into the house. This guy really treats me well. He looks so in love with me. I won't waste it.

'I want to heal, I want to stay with him.'

Seriate....