90 Days Pursuing My Husband's Love

Dream Merry (Chapter 23)

I lay by the beach for a long time and kept staring at the star-studded night sky, until I finally felt the raindrops landing on my cheeks. Although reluctant, I had to wake up. Looking around that was already very quiet.

I walked away and took my shoes and cell phone and left the beach.

After that, I arrived home with a loyal online taxi waiting for me. I entered the house in a quiet condition. I immediately went to the bathroom, cleaned up and changed clothes

When I finished, I went to the kitchen. Not eating since noon turned out to make my stomach sore, my hand moved to take instant noodles and want to cook it.

"From that time, Non?" bu Sumi's voice suddenly appeared in the kitchen doorway.

"Eh, kirain Bu Sumi is asleep." I replied while pouring water into the pot.

"Yet. That's my already masakin fish soup. Miss doesn't have to cook the noodles." replied Ms. Sumi.

I replied with a smile and sat down at the dinner table enjoying the fish soup made by Ms. Sumi.

"Mr Arnold's outside, Non."

My reflexes stopped holding the spoon.

"At least give Mr. Arnold a chance to talk, in order to..."

I stood up and looked at Ms. Sumi.

"Make what? Unless he breaks the glass there, then he can rearrange it, just like before without leaving a crack. And ... Let's just say it's my heart," I said with a thundering chest pointing to a mirror attached to the wall.

"At least Miss tell Mr. Arnold that Miss doesn't want to see you. Maybe...."

I gawked out of the house without letting Bu Sumi finish her sentence. That's right, Ms. Sumi said, I had to tell Arnold that I didn't want to see him again.

The rushing sound of rain falling to the earth accompanied the two of us who were sitting in the living room. I looked out the window that was no longer clear, because it was covered in dew and also with heavy rain.

"Thank you for still wanting to see me, Velicia," Arnold said softly.

My body stiffened with the view still staring out the window.

"You still mad at me?" Arnold asked again.

I just kept quiet.

"I won't force myself to forgive and forget my mistakes, but .. can we start all over?"

I still didn't respond.

"Many things I want to say. Even since our farewell, I've always thought of you. I wanted to explain everything to you, but I was helpless at the time. Until finally we are completely separated by circumstances. Sorry, Velicia."

Again I just kept quiet.

"Velicia. Give me one more chance to fix it."

"Don't come back just for the reason of wanting to improve. Because it's all done since we got divorced, and everything's fine when you're no longer by my side" I finally replied.

There was a long breath of Arnold.

"I'm not going to force you. Let time move your heart if it is meant to be together. And from this second on, don't stop me from fighting and make you fall in love with me again, Velicia."

I was shocked when Arnold said that. Instantly my lips formed a knotty smile with a gaze that still did not look at Arnold.

I tried to calm the roar of the chest that brought together the disappointment and longing to be one.

It hurts!

On the one hand I wanted to make peace with Arnold, but on the other hand my disappointment came back to dominate. To fight for a relationship with him, while my own age is only a few days away.

"Sorry, Velicia."

"I want you to just go home," I said flatly, without even looking at her.

"Velicia ...."

"Hurry home!"

I repeated the sentence again, in a slightly trembling voice.

"Vellicia..."

"Why did you show up again in my life?" my reply doesn't match Arnold's words.

"Velicia, come on .. I'm sorry."

This time Arnold grabbed my hand slightly tightly until I had trouble breaking away from it.

"Why is it so easy to say sorry? Why do we have to see me again? Why do you want to be with me again, while your wedding with the woman you love is in sight?!"

I catch my breath that feels tight, because it's been holding everything by itself for too long.

"I've been fighting desperately to forget you! Do you know how many tears I shed? How many times have I kept calling your name back, hoping it was all a dream! But I forgot ... As long as I dream, it will definitely wake up too! And when I woke up .. I again felt the pain of accepting the fact that you actually left!" I shouted in front of Arnold.

Arnold's face looked surprised, because my tone was too loud.

"My heart is no longer intact since you decided to marry your woman! And now ... You suddenly came and apologized, after we got divorced and I struggled to forget you? Really, I'm so envious of how it feels to be you! You can go and come as you please!" I said again, while removing the tears that began to come out without excuse.

"Why do I have to meet again with a bad person like you ...?"

Not holding back anymore, I ended up crying so badly. No matter if you sound like Miss Sumi, who is currently there I just want to put all the tightness in the chest.

Arnold immediately pulled my body in his arms.

"Sorry, Velicia. Sorry ...."

"Why should I atone for all my guilt for you, Velicia? Please tell me, please don't keep dodging like this. All this time, I was just as tormented as you. I'm sorry, Velicia ..." Arnold's voice rang out. "If you can exchange hearts, I want to feel all the pain you have felt so far. Sorry, Velicia Sorry ...."

"I hate a guy named Arnold! I hate hearing his name! I hate remembering all his promises! I hate knowing him! I really hate him, but .. I miss him too. He used to calm me down when I was sad, but since three years he has been the source of my grief! Please tell him, I hate him!" I hit Arnold's field chest many times, with no energy.

"Velicia ...."

"Help me .. Help me to get rid of this disappointment! Help me not to hate him anymore. Help me ...." My sobs.

"Already, Velicia. Enough, I'm sorry."

Arnold grabbed my body and went into his arms. Arnold's warm body made me shed more tears.

God ... I can feel his heartbeat again. But what about his heart?

Arnold's hug tightened, and I felt something warm dripping down the back of my hand that was on Arnold's chest.

She cried?

"Let me atone for all my guilt for you, Velicia. Please allow me." Arnold's voice rattled. "I confess that I love you. I'm gonna melt all your hate with all the love I have. So please let me fix everything. Sorry for my stupidity first. Sorry, sorry, sorry."

We were drifting away in the atmosphere for a while, Arnold hugged me tighter and tighter. While I was just frozen, I did not return the words or hugs at all.

It seems .. I'm numb.

"Your destiny, must be walking towards you. Although I had to wander and pass through many obstacles. Your job is only to believe and believe, if it is the best according to Him. Don't hate fate, even if it hurts so much, because we don't know what gifts are wrapped in it." Jack said that's what makes me gradually forgive all the circumstances that happen to me. Even with half a heart.

"Can I ask for help?" I asked Arnold..

"Say. Whatever it is it must be–"

"Go away."

Arnold finally came home despite the rain still so heavy. I'm sure he won't see me again after what I said. Really, I don't want to see him anymore. Let this be our last meeting. He'll meet me at the funeral.

I let out a long sigh, whether wrong or not the action I took earlier. Clearly, I felt relieved that I had already revealed all the wedge in my heart, right in front of the person directly.

It had been almost two hours I was pensive in the living room while laying down my body on the long sofa with my eyes closed, but my mind was everywhere.

"Not all damaged goods must be discarded, Non. There are some that can still be repaired, as well as a relationship. If there is a problem, which must be eliminated and resolved, it is not the problem of the relationship" said Sumi Bu who suddenly approached me.

I patted the sofa next to me. Asking Ms. Sumi to sit next to me.

"But there's something to be missed, Non. As powerful as anything fixing, it would definitely never be the same as it was originally. So, as much as possible do not put too much heart, because if one day the item is damaged again Miss's heart is still intact for Miss to hold," continued Bu Sumi while stroking the back of my hand gently.

I looked at Bu Sumi closely. This woman is the only woman I can think of as a mother figure. Since childhood he always gave me advice or various advice that will spur my spirit again.

Ms. Sumi .. may be healthy always.

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Morning's....

The weather is very bright today. After last night it rained so hard. The sound of my phone ringing on the nightstand. I quickly took it.

An unknown number, I quickly picked up the call.

"Hello Veli's. How are you?" I heard a woman I knew very well.

"Merry!" My exclamation.

For a moment I forgot about the whereabouts of Merry who was in prison. How is my best friend.

"Yes, it's me Merry. Last night I had a bad dream about you. For that, early in the morning I asked the warden for permission to call you. It's hard to actually get permission from them. But you know for yourself how I am."

Yes, I know very well, how my best friend's character is. If he is determined to do something, then he will fight it desperately until he can be realized.

"I'm fine." Reply lying. Lately, my condition has gotten worse.

As the doctor sentenced, I seem to have survived 90 days since I first learned about the disease. And now, the rest of my time is just one more week.

"Veli, tell me the truth. Before I got in here, I used to see you in a lot of pain. And, I have had nightmares about you a lot. Are you being...."

"Merry listen to me." I interrupted Merry's words. This time it might be time to be honest with her. "My life is not long anymore."

"What the hell are you talking about! Don't joke around, it's not funny." Merry.

"I was serious Mer. 83 days ago, the doctor said I had stage 3 cervical cancer. And, sentencing my age only lasted 3 months. Or in other words 90 days and now I have only 7 days left."

Silent. I heard none of Merry's voice.

"I'm sorry, Mer, I can't hit you. I don't want you to cry for me. Promise me you'll be happy." I said with a trembling voice.

There was a sound coming from across the phone. Merry cried, her crying voice sounded so bitter.

I'm sorry Merry for making you cry.

"Is there nothing you can do? Therapy, or treatment abroad, or whatever it is. You can't give up this fast Veli."

And our conversation went on, until it finally ended in the 28th minute.

Merry sounded so sad, he said he would never forgive me if I didn't see him. But, I really don't want to look pathetic in front of Merry. I also don't want to make him sadder by meeting me.

Now all I have to do for Merry is make her happy with Hansen. I had to go to Hansen and ask him to accept Merry as his life partner.

Seriate.....